Mass Shootings - Suicides - Death and Psychiatric drugs
You know, everyone loves to give credit to psychiatric drugs for their ability to temporarily relieve symptoms of anxiety/stress/psychosis, but to hail them as "safe" or effective is questionable.
Temporary relief from symptoms does not alleviate the cause of those symptoms.
Yeah, and they can say that the idea that these articles are just biased, uneducated, and "dangerous", they should try to challenge them in a place where they won't be getting back-up.
And if they're so sure they shouldn't have any problem in listening to the other side since their knowing (if it existed) was predicated on fact and not perceived knowledge.
That's always a problem. This is true of both sides.
Should the establishment really pretend that just because they make "safer" drugs is somehow a way to exonerate them of any wrong-doing?
Isn't it that what they're reallly doing is damage control? Just to keep their foot in the door?
And perhaps what is most frustrating is that if you say you're experiencing symptoms of what you personally feel to be a spiritual awakening, you're regarded as psychotic. "You need to get on meds!"
That is not evidence that because some people are psychotic that others who may be undergoing spiritual awakening are to be looked at and treated the same.
Just because people would agree with the other that spiritual awakening doesn't exist does not mean the person is right. Nor should it be seen that because you can't find people to agree with you (about spiritual awakening) that you're wrong.
Why am I so adamantly against these drugs? It isn't that I am exactly. But they are definitely overprescribed by doctors who are highly irresponsible. They do cause harm and it's not an unfounded fear or "paranoia" to not trust some people.
And personally, if someone wants to shove them down my throat it is my right to deny those drugs. It's against people's personal liberty to force drugs on them. Is that to say that sometimes they're not necessary? Bah screw it. I'm not answering that.
Also, I want to say that the only thing that enlivens or emboldens me is to find that there ARE good people out there. Which is the only thing that picks me up more so than anything else when I'm "down".
MLK - Stressed Heart
8. After his death, King's autopsy found that while he was just 39 years old, he had the heart of a 60-year-old. Doctors concluded the pressure he had experienced in his career had stressed and aged his heart.
I can't imagine why?...
Now you can go and look around if you want
But you're not going to find it
Not by opening a jewelry box
By putting on a fancy pair of clothes
Drowning out sorrow with bitter hatred
Smiling behind a wall of sadness
Hiding away misery with bottles of liquor
Collecting the newest gadgets on the market
Polishing your expensive car
Swimming in a sea green paper
All of that when compared to that which is like real gold.
Is actually worth even less than copper?...
So, I'm starting to hit a point now where I can not shake "the sadness". What's worse about this is the feeling like everything is faling down on you.
Just now a PS4 went missing from the house and it raised questions as to who took it and sold it.
There's a number of things that just adds to how sick it makes me feel, but it really starts weighing down on me even more.
For starters, there is the feeling someone is lying.
The second thing is that even after exposing them, then what?
That's what I can't stand. It's like everyone just wants to convict someone. My mother would not shut the hell up about "Finding out who took it" after someone who possibly was lying got off the hook.
Then the blame shifted to my cousin and some story was said that I didn't even hear happened. So I got pissed at my mom (in a text) and said the fuck it matters who took it? It doesn't change shit anyway.
Then, I said, "I can't wait to fucking die" because quite literally this shit gets old and depressing. It's like people would rather fight instead of helping people that need it now.
So her response to me was that I was being dramatic. Wow! Coming from the stupidest dramatic family on the planet? (that's debatable - I know)
Worse, I can't stop bitching lately. I mean I feel like the fuck? Who cares? No one gives a shit about shit anymore.
They want to bitch about "drug" problems and that's the problem with their kids. Like, no - it's this fucking two-faced society.
They needed help for real issues back in the day. But what help did they get? What support did they get when they needed it most? They didn't.
Really, I hope I do have cancer (and I said this somewhere else) because this place is fucking turning into a shit hole.
Bad Logic: Small Rant
People use bad logic everywhere and it is perhaps the main driving factor for responsive and irrational behavior.
As an example of bad logic, people who will defend the anti-vaxxer position tend not to counter claims with evidence and instead respond with, "It's the new world order! Wake up sheeple!".
So naturally the response from the pro-vaxxer side is to say, "See! These people are nutters! I'm so glad I'm not on that side!".
But then we run into yet another example of bad logic. All people who are "anti-vaxxers" are also conspiracy nutters.
Another example of more bad logic that stems from that is:
"Government is bad! So therefore it is logical to hate all branches of government."
Some people know this isn't true. But when you're bombarded with people's comments who are already ready to throw you into the conspiracy nutter camp, you get frustrated because you know at that point nothing you say, true or not, will be heard.
Government is not the whole of the issue. Businesses behind the government/media are what run everything. It's a little bit of a chore to continue to have to re-state this. What's worse though, is that my opinions tend to lean towards this side of "government wipe out". Because of that, I am assumed to be ignorant of "how the world works".
Bad logic breakdown:
"You're with so and so? Then you're a so and so! And so and so's are crazy!"
"All information coming from that site is bad! That person lied so all information there is also lies!"
"You like so and so? So then you also like so and so?"
"You quoted Buddha? You're a Buddhist?"
"You're a Buddhist? You don't agree with Christians then?"
edit in: Another example is assuming because people on one side can be irrate then that side must be wrong. Rather than see, that irrate people exist on either side. They're an embarrassment to both sides equally.
It is a question of making sure that everyone understands something individually rather than let people like that have a word when they should remain silent and listen. As an example, you'll see people attacking the anti-vaxx stance against people who are not using evidence of science to back them up and as such conclusions are drawn that all people on this side are like that.
"Anti-vaxxers are immoral! We have the studies to prove it!"
"Oh my god you're a sheep! Wake up! New world order gonna get us all!"
"Hey man - new world order is a real thing man, you shouldn't make fun."
"And what a shit job you're doing. Great work, producing mindless warriors who are irrate and can't learn to discuss reasonably and give everyone the illusion that people are just idiots who look into these things."
You know. This stuff is very tiring. That's not even all the examples that could be given. Internet save us all!
But yeah, it's frustrating for people to make wild assumptions about you because of some things you said here and there. Because you may agree with something here, but disagree with something there, you're already belonging to some group of people by their lack of understanding.
What else was there to say? ... Can't anyone see how silly these tired arguments are?
Edit: "People who use drugs are irresponsible! Drugs are bad! No one should use drugs!"
Yes. Everyone who uses drugs simply can't have their "shit together". Not everyone is the damn same.
"She should try to convince researchers instead of people without education."
Oh What a great idea!. Let's examine that.
Convincing people without education. Hmm? Isn't that basically the general public?
Isn't it basically that everything everyone sees on television is basically them being convinced of what they see without question?
"The biggest argument you'll encounter on the Anti-Vax trail is that if you question vaccines, "you're a proponent of pseudo-science." However, the evidence to back that statement just isn't there. No matter how much that comment may bother you, keep in mind that there have been no studies to date conducted on individual vaccine ingredients, the safety of injecting the FDA limit of aluminum for adults into an infant, or vaccine bundles. There have been no studies whatsoever on the current CDC vaccine schedule, yet they push it as universal; as if everyone's body is the exact same. Ask any Pro-Vaxxer if they can show you the studies.
They will not be able to.
Really, the only studies that have been performed are notoriously biased. The CDC admits that most of the studies that "proved" safety were performed by a current FBI fugitive. Not kidding. He's on the run for stealing money from the testing grants for his own personal use. Similar to what Dr. Wakefield was condemned for; yet the CDC continues to use the study results as biblical truth."
- Matt from foodforthought.com
That's not even the whole thing. This shit is tiring already. -_- God bless anyone who can deal with this on a bigger scale.
This was a response to someone assuming people who listen and are informed and choose to make their own decisions (a right that all should have?) are gullible, uneducated morons.
"And for the record, the people who listen to Dr Humphries are educated. Maybe you could not draw a radical conclusion not founded in reality by first proving that everyone who listens to Dr Humphries is some kind of ignorant, gullible, drooling idiot? You know, if that’s what you believe, then go out and get background information on every individual and see if you’re right.
But if you’re going by that logic then everyone who watches t.v. generally IS uneducated and as such are susceptible to everything they see to be regarded as truth aren’t they?
But then you’re also making the assumption that people who are “educated” are at the height of all knowing and are not susceptible to being wrong ever?
Having an education does not end after college. It simply gives you a foot in the door to become an unquestioned authority. It warrants a person a certain kind of power over the non-educated to become their sheep.
Whoops. Let me try that again.
Education does not end after college because if it did then all discussions would be void and pointless since we’re going to assume there is nothing else to know at that point.
Scientific studies are very much prone to bias of the Scientists who perform them.
Just the other day I found an article showing that very thing where a Scientist even put out fraudulent studies just because she couldn’t bear the thought of being wrong.
So, if you want to believe what you want, just because it goes around with the name of “Science” by all means, have at it.
If you want to conclude me as being “this or that”, by all means, you’re just proving that people don’t think before they react.
I am not exactly on either side. But there are plenty of questions that should be looked at without jumping to conclusions just because a majority have the habit of doing that and it “appears” to be right to do so."
I don't need your trophies or your gold!
Diagnosis - A cluster of Symptoms
This is all that a diagnosis is basically.
When it comes to mental diseases though, we mostly refer to behavior.
Why is this important? I'm out of thinking fuel.
It should be obvious.
But mostly I want to say again, Life is a sorcery and language is the catalyst which provides the world with its illusion - it's holding magic.
Sounds like mad talk? Whatever. Sleep with the rest.
Just waiting for it
The Cataclysm of Light
The Great Divide
The Final Act
The Supreme, the Ultimate
"Your opinion is not valid - you're not a doctor"
V. Your opinion isn't valid, since you're just a nobody with no medical or scientific background.
Well, thanks.. by that logic I'll disregard anything you say from here on out. Apparently having a fully functional brain isn't enough anymore; I must be indoctrinated for at least 8 years to believe what the system wants me to believe. Despite the overwhelming amount of knowledge you can achieve from spending thousands of hours googling vaccines(I have), I apparently can't think my way out of a bubble.
But just for good measure, here are some truly educated people who you should really pay attention to. They've devoted their lives and even jeopardized their careers to researching and finding the truth:
5a. Have fun trying to dismantle the comprehensive information put together by Dr. Moskowitz:
5b. Like her or not, Dr. Humphries is brilliant, and has thanklessly jeopardized her career to find the truth:
5c. Dr. Tenpenny is probably the most hated doctor in the country, but that will never change the fact that she's brilliant, and has figured out some truly amazing things that have been suppressed from us:
5d. You could just kill two birds with one stone, and show them an article featuring both Dr. Humphries and Dr. Tenpenny:
5e. Dr Seneff, a very experienced scientist at MIT, has a brilliant take on how vaccines can cause autism:
5f. A comprehensive look at the topic by Dr. Mercola, the leading naturalist in the country:
5g. I've saved the best for last. Here's a sucker punch right to the nose of your debate opponent. Dr. Haley, a renowned University of Kentucky scientist, destroys vaccine poster boy Paul Offit in this virtual rebuttal:
Flower Power - Literally
Flowers really do have a psychological effect.
It should be the aim of every home to increase the "green" and flowers in it.
Every organization out there (religious or otherwise) should take note and make an effort to effectively decorate spaces with flowers.
And maybe some Buddha statues.
Daytona - Town of Day
Waking up too early!
It's nice to wake up in the morning.
What isn't nice to wake up to is discord. And especially after only 3-4 hours sleep...
What starts to go through my head is, "Why?! Everyday it's the same bullshit and WHY does it continue?".
Everyone is responsible to everyone else. However, what that means is so much more than, "I put a roof over your head.".
What it means is learning to teach people how to respond by responding intelligently to people.
So when I go on the net and I see no one illuminating anyone on anything... it gets frustrating. This IS a big part of why these things continue.
The internet should be a place where people can have civil and reasoned discourse without the throwing of stones or calling for people's heads to be cut. Unfortunately, it hasn't allowed people to get past any of their biases.
It came to my attention that Jenny McCarthy was supporting anti-vaxxers and what happened? She got onslaughted by the media and internet warriors who just can't help but call people, "stupid, ignorant, immoral.." whatever.
She never even said she was totally for the idea, only that it should be considered. But Nooooooooooooo. Even with the great internet to help save us from people's irrational responsive behavior do we use it's great power to do justice to an issue that has been plaguing the human race since God knows when.
That simple solution is: reasonable discourse.
We HARDLY see this anywhere. All we see is people supporting their bias. That... includes the anti-vaxxer crowd. However, much of what the anti-vaxxer crowd is saying SHOULD be considered before stones are thrown.
But what's this got to do with waking up discord in the house?
It just reminds me of how the internet has turned into this cesspool of narcissism and irresponsibility thanks to idiots wanting to be "youtube stars" so they can "make bank" and rest easy with a job that can't really be called a job. It's just mindless, dull, entertainment that has no real value to humanity and even increases unrest in the world.
What people should be taught is that they don't know anything first and foremost and so should listen to the other side. But NOPE! Conclusions are drawn and guns start flinging.
Oh right, I got sidetracked. Discord in the house includes:
Waking up hearing older brother moaning to himself from toothache that he refuses to get help for.
Kids arguing with each other.
Oh but kids are just "like that"? You know, I'm not trying to brag, but NOT AROUND ME THEY AREN'T. They LEARN this because they don't have PROPER ROLE MODELS showing them how EASY it is to do BASIC things around the house! That you can just easily get what you need and not make a fuss.
But NOOO we have the "adults" who do this kind of behavior day in and day out which teaches them to behave in the same way.
Grandma getting barked at by the dog and she doesn't understand why. So, I responded to her when she attempted to get him a treat for his bad behavior, "He'll stop doing that when YOU stop doing that.". She listened and didn't go for the treat.
Don't think she's some helpless old lady... She -- forget it. Not important. I mean it is only to alleviate any sort of idea that I'm being a bastard, but since it will fuel someone else's perspective about -- I forgot what I was getting at...
Right. Anyway, the older brother problem is a problem because:
Conspiracy nuts. Yeah. It doesn't matter if there is truth to any of that stuff. It reinforced his idea that government is bad and --
Again I get lost. But the point is is that everyone everywhere needs to learn HOW to respond to people. The internet allows us this great opportunity to get the ship sailing smoothly everywhere, but it's just not being used for that purpose. And how people respond to my older brother is a big part of the reason he is how he is. Also, because of worthless scoundrels like Alex Jones leading hoards of people headfirst into a lion's den without any weapons besides blind anger.
Really, if I could I would just take these kids into my care and get them properly educated. That doesn't fucking mean they "finish school", it means that they learn how to interact and how to listen.
Fucking internet stars making the human race worse, I swear to fucking ---
Have a nice day.
edit: Because I know people will jump the gun and say I'm 'anti-school' or whatever let me explain. I am not anti-school. It's just that the job of 'education' does not end after you graduate.
Let's consider this: Anti-Vaccine
When you think of the long and gloomy history of man, you find more hideous crimes have been committed in the name of obedience than have ever been committed in the name of rebellion."
I am a recently retired paediatrician with no vested interests in vaccines. Your site is dangerous and mischievous. Vaccines are recommended by the Health Departments of EVERY country in the world and by the WHO because their benefits greatly outweigh their risks and because they work. The only people apart from you guys who seem to be strongly against vaccination are the Taliban- nice company for you. Diseases such as Type C meningococcal sepsis and HIB meningitis which used to be commonplace in paediatric wards 25 years ago have been virtually eliminated within a couple of years of widespread vaccination. Polio has been almost eradicated worldwide and smallpox has actually gone. Measles and mumps (almost universal diseases during my training) are now rarities and congenital rubella is virtually non-existent. All of these, and more are so obviously related to vaccine introduction that it is unbelievable that you have concocted arguments disputing efficacy. No vaccine can be introduced without clear evidence of efficacy and safety. How many deaths will you be responsible for in your gullible readership?
[ED: Dr Primhak, you have chosen to come to this website to post unsubstantiated claims in an emotional style which is a tad less than professional and measured.
Let us examine them.
We notice you have come to the “Read Me” page to make your comments, rather than having read any of the content and then commenting on that, with substantiation for your claims.
You say you are a “recently retired paediatrician“. Do you mean by that you have given up all employment in the medical field or do you mean you have changed your mode of employment and are still engaged in some way in medicine?
You say you have “no vested interests in vaccines“. Do you mean by that that you have never administered vaccines to any child or adult?
If you have told your patients or their parents that vaccines are all safe and effective then you have an interest. You could thereby have breached your legal and professional duties to your patients, could be liable for legal action for damages for battery and, should any suffer adverse reactions, damages for personal injury.
Now, you say this “site is dangerous and mischievous“.
But it is without doubt dangerous and mischievous for a medical professional to tell the public vaccines are safe and effective when that is not true. And that is what you have done here. That is unsatisfactory Dr Primhak.
You also say “Vaccines are recommended by the Health Departments of EVERY country in the world and by the WHO because their benefits greatly outweigh their risks and because they work.”
Now we are seeing numerous reports of whooping cough vaccine and mumps vaccines failures with large numbers of vaccinated individuals developing clinical whooping cough and mumps, the latter predominantly in adults, putting them at risk of sterility.
We have also seen MMR vaccine failure in the NE and NW of England last year, with health officials making lots of noise about Wales to distract from all the vaccinated children getting measles in the North of England.
So is that what you mean by efficacy?
When you say the vaccines are safe, you seem to omit the long lists of adverse reactions which appear on the product inserts giving information to professionals about the vaccines.
When you say the vaccines are safe, have you factored in that the rarely mentioned figures for adverse reactions are never adjusted to take account of under-reporting. For all drugs generally under-reporting runs at 98% – which means only 2 in 100 are reported: Spontaneous adverse drug reaction reporting vs event monitoring: a comparison: Journal of the Royal Society of Medicine Volume 84 June 1991 341.
So this means that those nice tables of figures which used to be given out comparing disease adverse events to vaccine adverse events are completely useless. Did you ever advise the parents of any children you may have vaccinated about that when you were telling them the vaccines are safe and effective?
Perhaps you might want to let us know. Did you tell the parents of any of your infant patients before they were vaccinated?
You clearly have not read anything on this site because you state “you guys who seem to be strongly against vaccination“.
If vaccines were safe and effective as you claim and if all medical professionals and health officials were honest about them then this site would not exist. This site is about safety.
You clearly have read none of it.
You then engage is very nasty and unbefitting rhetoric in comparing the authors who contribute to this site with the Taliban. The Taliban purposely kill and maim innocent civilians.
You do not seem to have a nice bedside manner Dr Primhak when you come here to pass remarks without any evidence to back them up. Is this what Evidence-Based Medicine has taught you in your career? Do you know what evidence is perhaps?
You state “Diseases such as Type C meningococcal sepsis and HIB meningitis which used to be commonplace in paediatric wards 25 years ago have been virtually eliminated within a couple of years of widespread vaccination.”
But you seem unaware that questions were raised about the incidence of invasive bacterial infection in children who had recently been vaccinated against pertussis: Nilsson L, Kjellman N–I M, Storsaeter J, Bjǒrkstén B. “A randomized controlled trial of the effect of pertussis vaccines on atopic disease” Arch Pediatr Adolesc Med 1998;152:734-8..
In England & Wales when the acceptance of pertussis vaccine fell dramatically in the mid 1970s to the mid 1980s there was an accompanying fall in the number of deaths, in children aged four years and younger, from invasive meningococcal disease. Mortality more than halved. The numbers nearly tripled as pertussis vaccine uptake increased to 90%.
You seem unaware that following on HiB vaccination reduced carriage rates are leaving children without natural immunity to Hib and invasive disease is occurring in older children who would previously have been expected to be immune.
After routine infant immunisation was introduced in October 1992, adult Hib infections decreased initially but then rose from a low in 1998 to reach prevaccine levels in 2003. “Our data show that the reduction in opportunities for natural boosting of immunity has resulted in a decline in specific Hib titres among adults. McVernon J et al Trend in Hib infections in England & Wales: surveillance study BMJ 2004;329:655-8
Is that what you mean by safe and effective? Instead of developing effective treatments for basic childhood diseases with an intervention for one disease you cause another disease? Somewhat counter productive. You then introduced another vaccine to counteract the effects of the one you have just given, with all the attendant risks of adverse reactions in healthy children who likely never will contract Hib nor meningococcal infections.
You claim “Polio has been almost eradicated worldwide” but fail to address the fact that, as a leading paeditrician has pointed out in a paper in the Indian Journal of Medical Ethics, India has wasted US$8 billion on polio vaccination campaigns which could have been spent of more important life-saving health measures. In the process 47,500 cases of non polio acute flaccid paralysis NPAFD have been caused. NPAFP is clinically indistinguishable from polio and twice as lethal.
This also raises the question of whether the 1940s and 1950s cases of what were claimed to be polio were in fact polio and not NPAFP.
Might you have any comment? You can find references here:
Bill Gates Polio Eradication Plans – To Cause The Polio Equivalent of 235 Years of Cases Of A Twice As Deadly Disease
You say “smallpox has actually gone” as if vaccination did that. You fail to mention that a vaccine which takes 100 years to work didn’t. What you fail to note is that smallpox attenuated as all diseases appear to do and became the milder Alastrim form:
“Alastrim” or “variola minor” was first recognised in Florida and South America in the late 19th century: Alastrim Smallpox Variola Minor Virus Genome DNA Sequences Virology Volume 266, Issue 2, 20 January 2000, Pages 361-386.
Attenuation is the natural process by which many diseases over time have become less severe until they either vanish or become of minimal concern.
Perhaps you should read more on the subject Dr Primhak?
You say “Measles and mumps (almost universal diseases during my training) are now rarities and congenital rubella is virtually non-existent.” You should read the data here where you will see these diseases were clearly attenuating:
Are you trying to say you did not know any of that information for your entire career as a paediatrician? If true, that would be troubling indeed.
Some might consider it a disgrace that medical professionals attribute well-known effects like attenuation and the effects of clean water and improved nutrition on health solely to vaccines. It is unsurprising people do not trust aspects of modern medicine, especially the adverse effects of drug treatments. Psychiatry is the least effective branch of medicine in history with all the dumpster drugs too toxic to give to other patients.
You say “All of these, and more are so obviously related to vaccine introduction” which may suggest to some reading that you have accepted throughout your entire career unquestioningly the information given by those promoting vaccines and have failed to check for yourself. If that is the case, it is still not too late for you.
You then go on to say “it is unbelievable that you have concocted arguments disputing efficacy“.
What a disgusting and untrue claim which shows you have read nothing of what is written here. Or if you have, you have ignored the references cited in evidence often from formal journal papers, as you can see from the citations given above.
You state “No vaccine can be introduced without clear evidence of efficacy and safety.”
That is simply untrue. We have only to give the example of the flu vaccine causing cataplexy and narcolepsy in at least 800 children and in an unknown number of adults:
So thank you for coming to this site and demonstrating the level of professional competence of a paediatrician when it comes to matters of vaccination.
And you then have the incredible front to claim “How many deaths will you be responsible for in your gullible readership?”
We might ask you how many deaths and serious injuries you may have caused in your career as a paediatrician by blindly accepting information fed to you by others. What would you say to that? Who is it who appears gullible?]
Florence Nightingale - Controversial Website
"She understood the importance of adhering to medicine’s first ethical principle. The opening sentence of Notes on Hospitals states: “It may seem a strange principle to enunciate as the very first requirement in a hospital that it should do the sick no harm. It is quite necessary, nevertheless, to lay down such a principle.”
"Nightingale’s common sense and wisdom still forms a solid basis for caring for sick people. She believed, first and foremost, in hygiene (fresh air, cleanliness, clean water, proper drainage, and plenty of light), and constant consideration for the patient’s feelings."
Not something that is actually important anymore it seems.
It's kind of frustrating dabbling in the darker side of the net and revealing these things because:
1. People will disregard it as junk and "non-scientific"
2. People who do read it will jump to conclusions about government and all that and become highly irrational
It's important to read and discern carefully. If you want to talk about anti-vaccinaction and public reactions, you have to basically be an iron wall. You will be attacked aggressively and oddly none of the people attacking you will have definitive solid scientific evidence for what they're saying. They only get the science they want to get - or rather the science they're told to see.
Life really is a strange kind of sorcery.
"Did y'all know that over 40 + holistic doctors have disappeared and or being killed ( aka suicide ) just last year alone since 2015 up to this date ! Look up Nagalase! Did y'all know that the US holds the patent for Cancer, AIDS and Ebola don't y'all just love your enslavemen?? smh..... WAKE UP AMERICA before its to late!!!!"
But really aside from all that... what has really got me ... entranced is:
TIME magazine reported: “Among the stricken, delirium rose: patients thrashed wildly on their beds, screaming that red flowers were blossoming from their bodies.”
Okay, obviously that article is a bit unnerving. But I think it is also really cool. Why?
I think there is a great answer to the mystery of life and the physical form.
Iono. Whatever. It's cool to me. Maybe because of the idea that you could hallucinate red flowers blossoming. Maybe it's a bit grotesque, but when you go into a trance - even temporarily - it seems like anything could be possible.
But that's just heretical I guess? ...
Trance is not scary!
... It isn't! Even if it is just temporary, it's just hard to maintain.
The Best Things in Life are Blue!
Just thinking of the "Blue Light of Heaven" after I went to watch Guardians of the Galaxy 2 at the theater (forgot where I heard it) and I felt immensely calm.
Blue light is also something that is thought to contribute to insomnia (wakefulness).
Jane Goodall - Quotes
"From my perspective, I absolutely believe in a greater spiritual power, far greater than I am, from which I have derived strength in moments of sadness or fear. That's what I believe, and it was very, very strong in the forest."
"It's been proven by quite a few studies that plants are good for our psychological development. If you green an area, the rate of crime goes down. Torture victims begin to recover when they spend time outside in a garden with flowers. So we need them, in some deep psychological sense, which I don't suppose anybody really understands yet."
"Words can be said in bitterness and anger, and often there seems to be an element of truth in the nastiness. And words don't go away, they just echo around."
"I don't spend that much time being introspective, believe it or not. All I know is that I grew up not questioning God because that's how you are. God was there like the birds and the wind."
Why Understanding Energy Is a Big Deal
While there might be different definitions for energy and each definition might change someone's perception, the heart of it is roughly the same. It might not seem significant to many to understand energy in terms of spirituality, but I disagree.
Let's take a look at the definition from dictionary.com and relate to just what it means.
So what is so important here? Maybe it would easier to recall what else is written about energy by relaying this:
Surrounded by Light - Timelessness and Spacelessness
Dying - Effects/Symptoms
There are a number of symptoms people may experience when dying. Among them are: altered experiences with time, restlessness, agitation, and increased awareness.
That is the thing that I want to mention most. That there are indeed people who know that they're going to die. However, the cases explained above are different from what I remember seeing on television a long time ago.
It was something I thought when I was younger to tell everyone, "If I'm the first to die, please don't be upset.". I never mentioned this though, because I felt it might've been some kind of self-fulfilling prophecy, but was more curious if there weren't perhaps some reason why I had said that. (not said - thought. I never said it)
Then, some time later I saw it. There are cases where persons will leave behind letters explaining that they're going to go or that, "their time was coming.". Not long after this the persons will die - sometimes an accident.
Do I think I'm dying? Possibly. I don't know.
Really. The start of all this was that I had come to a point where I felt contented and not wanting much. Then at night I began to wonder what could be done for someone who is just moments from dying? Specifically, I had imagined someone with terminal cancer.
So I began to think about a particular set of "mystical" words (like a poem?) that would be read (not given from me, but found from a website perhaps) and that would trigger the "state of mind" necessary to .... well...
As I finished imagining the poem (while maintaining a unique state of mind) that's when the light came into my vision. I was already lying down with my eyes closed. I wasn't ready though! That's the thing that got me. I jolted out bed and then... restlessness and all other symptoms started to take hold.
And... here we are!
Edit: Also, forgot to mention was part of the reason I became restless was thinking, "What could I do to convince anyone I'm not crazy?". That was a big part of the restlessness too. Imagine. Being treated like scum for doing something that could bring peace and rest to people?
The Great Lie - Isn't the brain really just an ogranism within a larger organism?
Edit: I'm quite frustrated because of a fight that happened. Perhaps feeling especially negative. You should know that it is actually a thing I read in Across the Unknown not to give in because of life circumstances. Or rather, the way it was worded to me sounded highly unempathetic. I get seriously angry about this.
"But a lot of people have to deal with bullshit often! It isn't something they fucking imagined."
Yeah. I've been feeling especially paranoid and suicidal. It's just that when I hear that word paranoia or something reflects back to you to tell you that it's you doing it to yourself... I can't help but want to give it a middle finger.
I mean is it really paranoia if you're right about what you're "paranoid" about? Of course, they can say that's typical language, but I can easily say the same of that.
Back to business as usual I guess...
I mean seriously, it's frustrating when people make assumptions about you:
You don't have status? You're worthless
No money? You're a bum
Not married? You're a loser
I mean... that's not even a quarter of it.
Sorry, sometimes I love the red and the white of flowers set against the soft white-blue and its other various shades of the sky. There's something about that that just--
Oh I'm sorry? I'm psychotic for this? I'm still on this same fucking planet as anyone. Sorry that I'm not so lost in the labyrinth of words, status, and titles that I just get lost (but I'm not really anywhere but the same place) in admiration of these things.
This is lengthy, but there is something important to note here. Actually several things which are important to note.
I should say now, that this is not all of what I meant to share and note. There was another essay which pointed out how the idea that the brain is a "computer" are erroneous by showing how the terms are greatly abused and misused. Particulary, the idea that the computer to brain analogy is faulty because there are several things which do not line up at all.
Robert Epstein's essay, "The Empty Brain" was just the breath of fresh air I was looking for in trying to understand why the IP metaphor is popular these days. More so, I was irked because the metaphor is obviously dangerous to people's perception of the world. That and the idea that we are "chemically bound" to our experience. These are just beliefs though as much as anything which is what I am trying to point out.
They're popular ideas because they come from what most believe to be "reputable" sources. What else can be said about this except that it is a logical fallacy? Today, the younger generation tends to believe that it's intelligence is something measurable. They believe that they "possess" intelligence because they can "mock" ideas which are not popular to their perceptions. They haven't (and still don't) say anything because they only know the fallacy of "appeal to authority". The very essence of everything they "know" is predicated on this very fallacy.
"This is coming from __ therefore, it is true!"
Look, if history repeats itself then this is just one of the things that gets repeated as well. You'd think that the younger generation which believe it knows what "intelligence" is would be more mindful of this. They're not.
"If the metaphors and paradigms of the Scientific Revolution were true, then why has the consequence been an increasing move towards deconstructionism, suicide, and nihilism? Why does my soul feel like it is strangled?"
"We tend to think, Kuhn argues, that scientific knowledge is a slow, accumulative process whereby the study and research of past ages is gradually built up over time, like a tower or edifice being constructed over the centuries from the ground up. Each generation, we imagine, passes the torch of scientific knowledge on to the next generation to complete a new row of bricks, in a glorious, ongoing progress towards more and better ways of knowing the deepest truths of the cosmos. The only problem with this picture is that anyone who actually studies the history of scientific developments knows that it is false and misleading as to how scientific revolutions actually work."
"One particular theory that explains some aspect of the cosmos will enjoy its time in the spotlight, until another vastly different theory comes along and overturns the presuppositions and implications of the earlier. In other words, the "knowledge" of the previous theory is not kept, preserved, or built upon, but scrapped and thrown out in favor of a new one."
"These examples point us to an important corrective: we tend to believe that see with our eyes, but in reality we see with our imaginations."
"Language, which is actually fundamentally pictorial/metaphorical at its root, translates and makes sense of the images that our eyes transmit to us. As scandalous as it may be, Language and Imagination are the heart and lifeblood of Science."
"Initially the drug appeared to confirm earlier research by wiping out the synaptic connection. But when cells were exposed to a reminder of the shocks, the memory came back at full strength within 48 hours. “It was totally reinstated,” Glanzman says. “That implies to me that the memory wasn't stored in the synapse.” The results were recently published in the online open-access journal eLife."
“A theory that is wrong is considered preferable to admitting our ignorance.” – Elliot Vallenstein, Ph.D.
"Finally, there is not a single peer-reviewed article that can be accurately cited to support claims of serotonin deficiency in any mental disorder, while there are many articles that present counterevidence. Furthermore, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) does not list serotonin as the cause of any mental disorder. The American Psychiatric Press Textbook of Clinical Psychiatry addresses serotonin deficiency as an unconfirmed hypothesis, stating “Additional experience has not confirmed the monoamine depletion hypothesis” (Lacasse & Leo, 2005)."
"In fact, the idea that low levels of serotonin cause depression has become so widespread that it’s not uncommon to hear people speak of the need to “boost their serotonin levels” through exercise, herbal supplements or even sexual activity. The “chemical imbalance” theory is so well established that it is now part of the popular lexicon.
It is, after all, a neat theory. It takes a complex and heterogeneous condition (depression) and boils it down to a simple imbalance of two to three neurotransmitters (out of more than 100 that have been identified), which, as it happens, can be “corrected” by long-term drug treatment. This clear and easy-to-follow theory is the driving force behind the $12 billion worth of antidepressant drugs sold each year."
"However, there is one (rather large) problem with this theory: there is absolutely no evidence to support it. Recent reviews of the research have demonstrated no link between depression, or any other mental disorder, and an imbalance of chemicals in the brain (Lacasse & Leo, 2005; (Valenstein, 1998).
The ineffectiveness of antidepressant drugs when compared to placebo cast even more doubt on the “chemical imbalance” theory. (See my recent articles Placebos as effective as antidepressants and A closer look at the evidence for more on this.)"
"Reducing levels of norepinephrine, serotonin and dopamine does not actually produce depression in humans, even though it appeared to do so in animals.
The theory cannot explain why there are drugs that alleviate depression despite the fact that they have little or no effect on either serotonin or norepinephrine.
Drugs that raise serotonin and norepinephrine levels, such as amphetamine and cocaine, do not alleviate depression.
Although some depressed patients have low levels of serotonin and norepinephrine, the majority do not. Estimates vary, but a reasonable average from several studies indicates that only about 25 percent of depressed patients actually have low levels of these metabolites.
Some depressed patients actually have abnormally high levels of serotonin and norepinephrine, and some patients with no history of depression at all have low levels of these amines.
Although there have been claims that depression may be caused by excessive levels of monoamine oxydase (the enzyme that breaks down serotonin and norepinephrine), this is only true in some depressed patients and not in others.
Antidepressants produce a number of different effects other than increasing norepinephrine and serotonin activity that have not been accounted for when considering their activity on depression."
"No matter how hard they try, brain scientists and cognitive psychologists will never find a copy of Beethoven’s 5th Symphony in the brain – or copies of words, pictures, grammatical rules or any other kinds of environmental stimuli. The human brain isn’t really empty, of course. But it does not contain most of the things people think it does – not even simple things such as ‘memories’."
"The faulty logic of the IP metaphor is easy enough to state. It is based on a faulty syllogism – one with two reasonable premises and a faulty conclusion. Reasonable premise #1: all computers are capable of behaving intelligently. Reasonable premise #2: all computers are information processors. Faulty conclusion: all entities that are capable of behaving intelligently are information processors.
Setting aside the formal language, the idea that humans must be information processors just because computers are information processors is just plain silly, and when, some day, the IP metaphor is finally abandoned, it will almost certainly be seen that way by historians, just as we now view the hydraulic and mechanical metaphors to be silly."
"Misleading headlines notwithstanding, no one really has the slightest idea how the brain changes after we have learned to sing a song or recite a poem. But neither the song nor the poem has been ‘stored’ in it. The brain has simply changed in an orderly way that now allows us to sing the song or recite the poem under certain conditions. When called on to perform, neither the song nor the poem is in any sense ‘retrieved’ from anywhere in the brain, any more than my finger movements are ‘retrieved’ when I tap my finger on my desk. We simply sing or recite – no retrieval necessary."
"We are organisms, not computers. Get over it. Let’s get on with the business of trying to understand ourselves, but without being encumbered by unnecessary intellectual baggage. The IP metaphor has had a half-century run, producing few, if any, insights along the way. The time has come to hit the DELETE key."
"Pollan says there is no agreed definition of intelligence. "Go to Wikipedia and look up intelligence. They despair of giving you an answer. They basically have a chart where they give you nine different definitions. And about half of them depend on a brain — they refer to abstract reasoning or judgment."
Edit: Oh right! I remember seeing this cool set of "artwork" created by an algorithm loaded into a computer (wtf ever that is and if I even got that right) and...
On the one hand, the images were really neat and trippy looking.
After thinking about it now? It isn't art. It reflects nothing about the human experience. Only that some people like to worship robots instead of properly adding to the experience themselves by thinking "people are bad" rather than it being their example that contributes to "bad people". Apathy at its worst! Loathsome! Horrid!
Edit 2: https://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2017/08/04/your-brain-is-not-a-computer/
"You know all of those thousands of research studies that rely on Functional Magnetic Resonance Imaging (fMRI) that produce those millions of color pictures of the brain lighting up when it’s doing something? They tell us virtually nothing about why those parts of the brain are lighting up, nor why that would be important.
Imagine taking a person from 300 BC and introducing her to a modern electrical switch connected to a lightbulb. She can turn the switch off and on and see the impact of that behavior on the light. But it would tell her virtually nothing about how electricity works, nor anything about the component parts of electricity. That’s what fMRI scans of the brain are to researchers today."
A Rant on General Stupidness Pretending to Think It is Smart
So I had to have a serious rant to myself when my brother stated so surely that the man/woman relationship in the home (where the man provides and the woman cooks/cleans) was important to the survival of our species.
My assertion was, "Survival? It's got nothing to do with survival. It's got everything to do without our mental health and well-being. And especially to the children in the home who take after them.". Mother of it all! What annoying stupidness that he still asserted survival is somehow tied in with that.
So thats why I think its important to point out the heart-brain connection. Why? Because the western world is so heavily dominated by vulgar-minded idiots who still think in terms of "survival" to support their world view that we have to "live it up" or that we're somehow not responsible or moral creatures.
That would take a whole 'nother damn essay to point out how ignorant and short-sided and damaging those views are though...
For now... the evidence is obvious...
We're not meant to be violent.
The Heart-Brain Connection
As an ISFP (if you want to believe those things) sensing and feeling are a major proponent in my personality. It is no curious thing to me that it is in within the interest of yourself and others not to think "violently" and instead keep my tendencies towards aesthetic scenery and sounds. So long as I remain adjusted in this way the air around me definitely feels different.
Is it merely something imagined though to think that you pick up others energies or emotions? Perhaps there is no evidence that could be provided to show that definitively, however... One morning I woke up and was curious what felt familiar. I felt a sense of love and enthusiasm all around me. Then it occurred to me that the kids were going to their first day of school. Definitely, I can't understand the enthusiasm for such a thing! But despite my understanding or relation to that, the feeling of it was definitely there.
It is also a characteristic of those who take ecstasy in a group setting which is mostly positive where they say things such as 'love filled the air'. These are not just some vain expressions... they're real.
The Western world which is dominated by negative media and personalities obviously don't support this idea. It just isn't in their interest and they see no benefit.
There is so much more to say, but I want to research this more to point out that this isn't just "vain expressions" and energy is--
Well, it's hard to say.
But the idea that, "whatever you seek, seeks you"... is eerily true. And it's said that when you don't seek it, it seeks you more. At least by St. John of the Cross. Still, religion or not, it is a phrase found among many spiritualists/philosophers.
Perhaps the next aim is to research memories. Since for me Deja Vu (of all the different variety) are commonplace for me now. But more importantly, the saying, "I remember this by heart" is more than 'cute words'.
Truly, there are many things I remember by heart...
I don't know why...
It doesn't even matter how hard you try...
"...there's too much heart break..." - Chester Bennington
"Most of us have been taught in school that the heart is constantly responding to “orders” sent by the brain in the form of neural signals. However, it is not as commonly known that the heart actually sends more signals to the brain than the brain sends to the heart! Moreover, these heart signals have a significant effect on brain function—influencing emotional processing as well as higher cognitive faculties such as attention, perception, memory, and problem-solving. In other words, not only does the heart respond to the brain, but the brain continuously responds to the heart."
"Many of the changes in bodily function that occur during the coherence state revolve around changes in the heart’s pattern of activity. While the heart is certainly a remarkable pump, interestingly, it is only relatively recently in the course of human history—around the past three centuries or so—that the heart’s function has been defined (by Western scientific thought) as only that of pumping blood. Historically, in almost every culture of the world, the heart was ascribed a far more multifaceted role in the human system, being regarded as a source of wisdom, spiritual insight, thought, and emotion. Intriguingly, scientific research over the past several decades has begun to provide evidence that many of these long-surviving associations may well be more than simply metaphorical. These developments have led science to once again to revise and expand its understanding of the heart and the role of this amazing organ."
"Science has only begun to understand the effects of the electromagnetic fields produced by the heart, but there is evidence that the information contained in the heart’s powerful field may play a vital synchronizing role in the human body—and that it may affect others around us as well."
But aside from all that...
I think the major thing to look at here is the fact that the brain and heart are not merely acting "one after the other". What's so significant about this? Well, there is a curious bible verse which explains (if I interpreted it right) that the body is a unitary functioning thing. Each part works in unison. Not one is less important than the other.
But tell that to modern western thought! They'll cut whatever organs out of your body to "keep you healthy.".
"WHERE is the YOU that makes YOU so sure of everything YOU are so sure OF?"
But then I think... the body/universe are not separate. The universe is the "greater brain" or the giver of the"brain" which allows the body most of its functions. That's not obvious?
Lyrics - When it Ends it Starts Again
Stay down, don't say a word
Life beats down beneath your skin,
A world away
On and on with every day
And we're okay
An ocean, a feeling
After the light is far behind
Motion apart, and still you keep a smile in silence
As you take (the long way Home)
Taking my time, gone the long way
I'll remember this
Many an hour and all to fade away
You show me a world where my heart lay
Time and time again
And when it ends
It starts again
Something awful surfaced
Just the other day I was playing an online game with my brother when suddenly I burst into tears while listening to this song. I was trying hard not to make a peep, but I guess it was just too hard to contain. It came harder to go through the motions pretending I was okay just playing this monotonous game without still tearing up harshly.
Maybe you could say it's a delusion to think that things have sort of pointed to reincarnation at this point. The kind like everhopeful was saying though, reliving the same life again. However, it isn't something I definitely think, it's just a possibility of something I considered. What's strange though is that something revealed itself in something I searched (unrelated to reincarnation) and pointed to this very thing as a real possibility.
So what it was that made me tear up so hard was that I was the song saying, "When it ends, it starts again." and I thought at that moment, "Would it be worth it to live this life again?". A strong thought surfaced that said, "No. Nothing was worth it...". Do I think that's really true? It was the first thing I thought, and I tend to think that trying to cover that up would just be a lie.
But why? I look around what do I see?
Pretenders, liars, cowards, murderers...
What's so sad about it? It's that they don't even know it. They don't necesssarily have to even pick up a gun or a knife to "kill" anyone. What's more is that I can't get over the idea of having cancer and not even caring. It would be a blessing to go soon - especially without "treatment" from this heinous two-faced system. On the one hand it's so eager to help and the next it wants to turn anyone who might need that help away. And why? Because you're not a person of status? Because you're not 'loaded'? You look or even smell 'funny'?
I still remember my first visit to a 'psychiatrist' when I was 20 and it was the worst realization of just how drowned the world is from its own humanness. I wasn't 'depressed' I was just noticing how awful my family was and yet it was just something you're just supposed to pretend is okay?
Everyday, mom would come home and complain about her job. She was almost never happy. My brother was playing video games and getting pissed all the time. He was highly discontented with himself and every day I tried to get him to see that his problems could be dealt with, but he never believed that. Still, it's happening to this day.
So with all of that and more going on at home the doctor saw me crying and I was simply unable to say anything about it. His prognosis? I'm depressed with 'no cause'. Does that make any sense? Just what do you call that? His questions proved to me even more that the world is becoming 'robotic' and simply does not care. Then, the gall of asking me if I'm hearing voices when I suddenly became silent and was staring at the floor thinking, "It's hopeless. They're ALL like this...".
People are treated as if they're not human. As if you're just this autonomous functioning machine who can be put on some pills and your problems will just vanish. No they don't. They simply get buried only to rise to the surface later.
I'm getting tired. Not of living necessarily. Just of seeing the world. So much false hope. So many broken dreams. Friends who will sell you for the glory of fame, power, or money. A short lived pleasure. Without all that to share with someone... explain to me... what is it worth? Because I have seen that road and it it is hollow. It lacks substance and yet... still they pursue it only perhaps later to realize that it meant nothing.
Just some time ago, I was appalled to see this pretentious-sounding woman on television going on a date which was set up for her and my niece said, "Wow! She's nice!". I was like, "Are you joking? Do you really hear what she is saying? 'I want this' 'I want that'.". That's become the standard today for relationships - not even just romantic - that you must have something which is worthy of 'showing off'. It is absolutely horrible...
Even more I was stunned to think that her date was "rude on purpose". I might've stared at the t.v. a little slack-jawwed at that thinking, "Rude?! He was rude?!". I mean... wow. I have no words. The guy could've SERIOUSLY been rude and said things which would not be acceptable for television. I was like, "I could've shown her what 'rude' looks like and yet, I would say it was really just her.".
Those awful words, "What are you looking for in a relationship?". Huh? You know what you're gonna get? Me. If that's not enough, then what could be? You can go out there and look, but there's nothing but what you're projecting it is relative to your sense of what it should be. And amidst all of that, you're going to reach out for what to relate it all? Me.
But that's not the height of it. It's a reflection of what the world is becoming. Parents who only accept their children if they're a "success". It's all about how much you make. They don't care if you do anything 'good'. All they want is for you not to be an embarrassment to them. They want their children to be "trophies" as a measurement of their success as parents. Does that mean that I think they shouldn't want what's best for their child? I'm not painting a black and white picture here. I'm simply saying they don't even care about the individual and what they want to be.
Yet, I don't find anything satisfying in what over 90% of what society deems socially acceptable today. Perhaps what drew this out is this horrible realization that your time was wasted doing what others want so as to avoid getting yelled at - or even mocked. I'm referring to not pursuing drawing/writing more passionately and instead doing what was "easier". It's easier to just do what is socially acceptable and not to make a fuss. And yet it hurts most of all.
That is essentially all I see the establishment and the system wants. To make functioning robots who don't make a fuss. If you dare then you might just become medicated for being all too human. For being "depressed" and upsetting their false sense of security and for daring to tear down their illusions. For wanting them to open their minds and see what is really going on.
Damn machines ruining everyone. False egos talking like know-it-alls. People hiding behind paper walls full of stiff words. Those that have 'everything' and living like they had nothing. Damn thieves taking and using the law (of all things!) to protect them.
Then of course the modern 'man' who is still a slave to his want for dominance. I like that they will tell you you're a 'pansy' or whatever for being sensitive or caring or passive. To have an aesthetic sense is a bit of a crime since it makes you appear "weak" in their eyes. Yet nothing could more submissive (which is a feminine quality) than to fear appearing that way so to avoid alienation from your peers. To fear speaking up against the crowd when you know it is wrong. There is nothing manly about the modern consensus of what is "manly" because it is essentially ruled by fear. Doesn't anyone hear it?
So what about writing and art? Well, it is kind of happening here with this. I don't want to write what is popular. It was something oddly striking when I read the quest dialogue for the online game I started playing again (private server so its free!) for the Bard (my favorite class). Despite having done this quest before when I first played this game, the dialogue simply blew my mind only now. The Bard wants to know just how his lyrics will have any emotional impact? He realizes at the end of the quest that it will when he is honest. There was a lot more that was said, but it all fit so perfectly. Even more so was the word-of-the-day on dictionary.com for this day, "Lonely-hearts".
Now tell me. Is this just being "depressive" or maybe just "being human"? There are no "pills" for "life". A person doesn't "become depressed" out of the blue without cause - especially not a case of 'lacking serotonin'. Nor do I consider that depression is even the right word. Sadness is a response. Depression is pretty heavy and dark. It isn't easy to shake. With depression sometimes there isn't even a response. You want to shut down, but you know deep down something still lurks or you wouldn't go on at all.
So what good is the sadness? That seems to be the question I know most would wonder. That there is no use for tears. It's just something that overwhelms me from time to time. It doesn't even have to be from a song. I can be fine and suddenly it hits like a truck. Do I think its just a "disease" or that its fruitless? Absolutely not. It just happens to be that sometimes in a controlled setting on low-dose psilocybin that people will cry for hours before a breakthrough.
Also, a little curious to me that the words, "I'm going home" can be heard in a real phenomena in people who are dying. Some even say the day and will die that day. Others may even recover from some disease and an unrelated death to heart attack occurs some time later.
For now, I'm feeling a little disconnected. Other days I wake up feeling lightweight and the air is clear. It's hard to say though that when I'm feeling 'chipper' or 'upbeat' if it isn't just a front now. Either way, I have to go on. The music keeps playing even when you think everything stops.
Castle of Illusions
One day I built a castle of loose stones
The noise from the outside was too loud
So I reinforced the walls
Only it made no difference...
Whether brick or steel
The noise continued vibrating through the walls
So I hid in the deepest reaches of the castle
But then I found it was too bright
So I put on a blindfold
It was not enough
A light started to appear
I realized there was nowhere to hide
and the castle was useless
No castle ever could be useful
A useless charm in its appearance
But just ask the birds and bees if they care
Whether your fortress is made of the finest silver or prettiest crystal
Or if the vines discriminate where they will grow
Just because the walls look better here than there
Bitter Mans Toys
Oh but there will be a day
When the murderers will have to pay
And those that knew
But were too afraid to say
What was it worth anyway?
Bitter mans toys...
Washing into the ocean bay...
The love of money is the root of all kinds of evil
This phrase has been sort of twisted and even scoffed at; perhaps because it seems too lofty and by todays standard too 'naive'. Often the way it is said is wrong since it's always said that money itself is evil. It seems though that peoples assertion that it isn't 'evil' are just excuses for possible personal avenues that they're pursuing which they hope will score them lots of money. I'm not going to say how people should or shouldn't live, but there is a hidden driving force behind this which controls people to act in that way. But what I'd like to highlight now is just what the love of money is doing and how it is harmful.
The ASPCA is a good example of how the love of money has corrupted what started as a noble pursuit into a death house for animals. When the ASPCA first aired their heart breaking commercials of an abused animal, the response triggered a large amount of donations. What then followed, however, was that once they realized how much they could make by doing this, they turned over into a dark alley.
It would be easier to show how deep this seed of corruption is by sharing this article and highlighting a few key points.
"2. The ASPCA kills animals. It’s one thing for a local pet shelter to put down dogs and cats due to overcrowding and limited resources. It’s tragic, but most people understand. However, it’s harder to justify for a group as wealth and influential as the ASPCA."
"In one case, the ASPCA put down a dog known as “Oreo.” The ASPCA claimed the dog was a danger to the public, but rescue groups had offered to take in and rehabilitate the animal. The ASPCA chose to kill him—one of over 100 animals it killed that year. (That’s still an improvement over the previous body counts of the A—100,000 per year at the turn of the 20th Century, to 250,000 per year in the 1960s."
"3. It’s about the money, not the animals. The independent watchdog CharityWatch finds that ASPCA spends up to 35 percent of its budget on overhead, and 38 cents to raise every dollar, giving the organization a middling “C+” rating. Charity Navigator calculates that ASPCA spent a whopping $52 million on fundraising in 2012. CEO Edwin Sayres was getting nearly $600,000 in compensation annually when he left in 2013.
Bob Baker, a former ASPCA investigator, told The New York Times, “show one picture of a mistreated dog and the funds would pour in… [I]t got to the point where animal welfare was not the priority, fund-raising was. It felt as though the animals were being used for fundraising, rather than using funds raised to help the animals.”
Seems really awful. But what is more appalling to me is that they try to guilt the watchers into thinking donations will save animals. Obviously, the issue in helping these animals goes deeper than donating. Educating people is one such important issue.
1. The cost to adopt is absurd. In these times we have now the wealthy are making it more difficult to live with the standards they do. Common rights to health care being one. If they really cared they'd tackle this issue too and help the common person to adopt with ease.
2. The source of the issue of animals being "rescued" is not being addressed. Why are there so many animals which need adoption? The ASPCA should help to work on this end as well with all the money they make.
3. The ASPCA leads people to believe their only goal is to "shelter" the animals while it's up to the common person to pay for adoption. "This IS us saving the animals." is the dark mantra as told by many of its mindless workers.
There's more to touch on, but it would be nice if the average person would think more carefully about how to address this issue without resorting to becoming another mindless warrior who repeats what is told to them.
Now, this is another issue where money has corrupted people. This is particularly difficult to touch because there is a lot of resistance to the anti-vaccination movement. Let me just say now, that I do not think this is a black and white issue, but where I stand is with the anti-vaccination crowd (at least on the surface of it).
I challenge anyone who thinks they're so educated and reasonable to check this particular article:
In the case of vaccines, there are so many things to note. For starters, the anti-vaccination crowd is accused of 'fear-mongering' yet it couldn't be more untrue and it is the other way around! The vaccination movement is highly profitable and so the lack of understanding helps keep the masses confused and self-righteously confident in thinking they know what they don't. This makes them prone to being controlled by scaring them into thinking that if they DON'T vaccinate, they will DIE. WHO is the one who sounds like they're fear mongering hmm? And WHO benefits from this?
If you read any of the article above, it makes it clear that the vaccines HAVE killed people and children. You know... just LISTEN to the language of the crowd who asserts that anti-vaccination people are 'immoral' and see how tempermental, uncontrolled, and ignorant they sound. Worse, is that despite the obvious evidence of people being vaccine and disease free they STILL respond like fear controlled sheep.
Now, what's funny to me is that to many they will fall back onto the "appeal to authority" fallacy and accuse you of being uninformed and uneducated since there is no WAY that people who graduated and have high ranking positions could be wrong.
I've got an 8th grade education so likely my word on this matter is null to them. But my very basic understanding of Biology (one of my favorite subjects) made it clear that there isn't much to fear. Your body is built to resist diseases as best it can. If you get sick, it just means your system is working. Who would've fucking thought?
It's basic biology that we have survived/lived longer, not because of "advances in medicine", but because our genes make every new generation more capable than the last. So the correlation that the vaccines are what helped still should be seen as a mere shadow without substance.
Here are more obvious things to note though:
And as for mortality and vaccines, why have you come here to tell lies? You claim the “mortality rate” .. “is completely unrelated to vaccines” and “Vaccines do not stop you from dying from an infectious disease and have nothing to do with mortality“. Both are complete untrue claims.
For decades people were told vaccines save millions of lives. Parents are still threatened that if they do not vaccinate their children they could die. It is still being done.
In the USA the completely false statistic of 3 in 1000 has been used and in the UK 1 in 1000 for the fatality rates for measles.
In the UK in the past 20 years there have been over 80,000 cases of measles and no healthy individual has ever died from acute measles contracted in all that time. There have been three deaths recorded all in already very sick immunocompromised individuals who could have died from anything at any time."
"Every year the CDC recommends flu vaccine manufacturers to put in three viral strains they guess might be the most common infections for the flu season. However, there are thousands of flu virus possibilities every winter you may come in contact with. If the flu shot you received do not contain the viral strains you come in contact with, essentially you have no more immunity over it then others who may not have received the jab. This makes the chances of you being protected very unlikely."
3. "There are no proven safe amounts of mercury in the human body and yet even vaccines that label themselves as “mercury-free” may contain traces of mercury up to 300ppb. To put things in perspective, anything over 200 ppb is considered toxic."
4. This is a personal note: but a mother was horrified that her two month old child received several vaccines from which the child responds with nothing but a silent "cry" which signals that he is in PAIN. This is BAD for brain development in a child so young and can have a lasting impact on his mental health and possibly relation to his mother who didn't stop them from doing that.
5. There was also a case where a young child was over-vaccinated and got sick. Not long after this the child died... The father was the one who received jail time, however...
There is more to say, but greed IS a factor here since it is essentially what motivates the health authorities into creating and enforcing the idea that vaccines are necessary. They control the masses through fear and continue to confuse and confound everyone with misleading "facts".
As someone who has not received a vaccine in decades, I have not once gotten ill from anything major. I'm not even in top shape nor am I keen on nutrition! Yet there are many more who will also tell you the same. HOW could that NOT be evidence?
Does this mean vaccines are useless or don't work? I'm not saying that. But the idea that "you need them or you die" is a lie. Vaccines, on the face of it, are a sound method in the prevention of diseases, but "necessary"? That's the problem of what is to be addressed. So long as greed is the factor in their distribution though, it is hard to get at.
Also, if it wasn't clear already, vaccines don't always work. In fact, there was a case where a vaccinated person received the correct strain and yet was killed by that strain.
Actually, for some reason, I remember getting the flu when I was really young FROM the vaccine itself. That's a hard memory to get at though. I think it was at that time, that my mother realized it was a bad idea and I never got another one since.
For the final piece of this (though I had more in mind what I wanted to say earlier), it's time I touch psychiatric drugs. It's basically almost a mirror of what the vaccination movement is controlled by: fear. There are perhaps more evils which are perpetuated here though, especially the devolution of humanity. Whoa! Sounds like a big thing to say, huh? Well, it's a difficult one to touch, but here goes...
"Many psychiatrists are well aware that the myths do not hold and have told me so, but they don’t dare deviate from the official positions because of career concerns."
1."Myth 1: Your disease is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain
Most patients are told this but it is completely wrong. We have no idea about which interplay of psychosocial conditions, biochemical processes, receptors and neural pathways that lead to mental disorders and the theories that patients with depression lack serotonin and that patients with schizophrenia have too much dopamine have long been refuted. The truth is just the opposite. There is no chemical imbalance to begin with, but when treating mental illness with drugs, we create a chemical imbalance, an artificial condition that the brain tries to counteract."
2."Myth 3: Psychotropic drugs for mental illness are like insulin for diabetes
Most patients with depression or schizophrenia have heard this falsehood over and over again, almost like a mantra, in TV, radio and newspapers. When you give insulin to a patient with diabetes, you give something the patient lacks, namely insulin. Since we’ve never been able to demonstrate that a patient with a mental disorder lacks something that people who are not sick don’t lack, it is wrong to use this analogy.
Patients with depression don’t lack serotonin, and there are actually drugs that work for depression although they lower serotonin. Moreover, in contrast to insulin, which just replaces what the patient is short of, and does nothing else, psychotropic drugs have a very wide range of effects throughout the body, many of which are harmful. So, also for this reason, the insulin analogy is extremely misleading."
"Sometimes the indication creep is under the radar. After heated FDA hearings in 2009 about extending Zyprexa, Seroquel and Geodon uses for kids–Pfizer and AstraZeneca slides showed that kids died in clinical trials–the uses were added by the FDA but never announced. They were slipped into the record right before Christmas, when no news breaks, and recorded as “label changes.” Sneaky."
"And there is another “creep” which is also under the radar: “warning creep.” As atypical antipsychotics have gone into wide use in the population, more risks have surfaced. Labels now warn against death-associated risks in the elderly, in children and in people with depression but you have to really read the fine print. (Atypical antipsychotics are so dangerous in the elderly with dementia, at least 15,000 die in nursing homes from them a year charged FDA drug reviewer David Graham in Congressional testimony.) The Seroquel label now warns against cardiovascular risks which the FDA denied until the drug was almost off patent."
There was more, but for now I'd like to leave this incomplete until I can recall what else was to be added. Waking up every now and again with fatigue and having symptoms of what seems to be kidney cancer is just another nail to be driven into the system and what it's doing now. Why? Because the "doctors" whose job is meant to treat patients decided that maybe I don't "deserve" treatment since I can't "afford it".
Am I just "imagining" that? That'd be what some would probably assume, since I'm not a "doctor" and can't make that call. As if they've NEVER been wrong in diagnoses and never make errors? It is not something that I feel negative about though, don't misunderstand that. I definitely do have symptoms though like: leg cramps, back/flank pain, frequent urination, and of course the fatigue which is hard to combat.
Did I just imagine though, that the doctors were withholding this information that it is possible that it has spread? Which is a bigger part of why they seemed to be "acting funny" at the ER? I even asked my mother if she thought they seemed like they were hiding something and she definitely noticed it. So no, I don't want to hear no shit that I'm being "this or that" about it.
I want to retouch the subject of cancer again a bit and also talk about my response to it. I realize that in some way it is selfish to say that I'm desiring to die in a sort of pouty way. There's more to it than that though. I genuinely feel that the treatments of cancer and the industry are utterly disgusting and dated. People don't realize that it shouldn't have to be this way if there is a cure.
If there is a cure? Think about that. If there is a cure then it is there already isn't it? Just waiting to be discovered. However, the modern world has a sort of distorted perception of just how "things work" in a strange way that you could call it "faith". It's that the spell that the drug companies have cast has people fooled in thinking that only the "law" can say what is and isn't a cure.
In this case, cannabis oil (which has to be roughly equal parts THC and CBD to be effective) is actually outlawed for use regardless if it can show that it really does kill cancer cells and reduce tumor size to zero. My mother actually told me of a case where a woman of a couple had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer and was told she only had 3 weeks to live. What did they do? They actually treated it and cured it with cannabis oil. What happened after she told the doctor what she did to cure it? Not long after that her house got raided by police for the extra cannabis oil she kept!
I mean - what is there to say? Doesn't that speak for itself about the spell that people are under? I just have no words to say anymore about that. Just think about it.
Personally, I'd rather not accept treatment and instead choose to get my hands on cannabis oil without even a second thought that it works or not. Why? If you understand "how" something works, you don't need "evidence" to tell you that it does do you? Although in this case I am going by evidence of several people for which cannabis oil has effectively cured their cancer.
"Well, what if you die!". I'm sure there's quite a lot of people out there who are shocked to think of "risking" their health by not listening to "doctors" and following their protocols for "treatment". The most disgusting thing of all to me is that they have the gall to call what they do "curing" cancer. It doesn't cure cancer to remove cancerous organs from your body. Think about that. The cancer is pretty much succeeding in it's task ahead of schedule when the organ it is attacking is removed. I mean... seriously isn't that just beyond stupid?
In the case of kidney cancer, I am a bit appalled and shocked to think there are people who gladly have their kidneys removed to "cure" their cancer. All this does is leave them tied to a dialysis machine to do work that your own vital organs are supposed to do. Worse, is that it isn't even as efficient in that task and why would it be? Then, the sufferer is left to wait for a possible kidney transplant. Look at the statistics for those that need kidney transplants in just one state alone and you can see just how shocking it is. One is one too many to suffer, yet more than thousands are in need of transplants each year in just one state.
Consider then that they still don't know the cause of cancer. Does this mean the persons who have their cancer "cured" (as they say it) are free and off the hook? No - not by a long shot. Now consider if what might've caused their cancer is still a factor in developing a new cancer? Also, if you have been diagnosed with cancer, you're basically tied to a doctor and will need follow-up scans to see if new cancer has developed or "come back".
Back to the subject of what causes cancer and if you ask me, the major factor seems to be stress and/or poor PH/oxygen levels. I'm not very knowledgeable in this particular field, but the actual "cure" for cancer is simple. It is just that cancer can not live in a PH level above 6.0. Whoa! That's it? Well, again, like the black plague, if living conditions improved, PH levels for individuals would be naturally high and cancer would simply be an afterthought.
Now, there's another subject I'd like to touch on in regard to my personal state of mind at present and some experiments I'd like to work on at home. It is relevant to cancer treatment, but touches more on how my enthusiasm for this experiment and how it has impacted my state of mind.
Oh yeah. Looking at some cancer information (from the myriad number of websites out there...) I had to have a laugh at the fact that they seem dumbfounded by the fact that some tumors actually "spontaneously" shrink and disappear! Haha.
Okay, honestly cancer is not funny at all. I don't even want to think about the pain it causes both physically and emotionally (and regretfully have read too much on personal experiences and have witnessed some words of an individual sufferer in an online game who likely died from cancer that spread all over). But if your sense of Justice is in the right, then please think about this subject more carefully. Is it really lawful to suppress and ban people from getting treatment that doesn't involve painful (and risky for the elderly in that it can kill them) surgeries? In this case, cannabis oil and raising your PH levels being outlawed and information that is suppressed.
Does anyone, in a moment of potential death by cancer, really give a damn if Angelina and Brad break up? Or that your favorite show got cancelled or ended on a cliffhanger? Alright, I won't bark at all that junk too much. Seriously, this a very heavy subject and while it might seem noble to donate to something like St. Jude, is it really just? When, after all this time a cure would immediately shut it all down and free so many from the pains and burdens of cancer.
And, do you seriously not think it is in the interest of big companies to keep people sick? It isn't a fucking conspiracy theory that I'm talking about here. This is really happening. It's just disgusting individuals who really don't care if you live or die - even if it is REALLY painful. If there's a show in place that makes it all seem so grand, why not just keep sleeping and enjoying it - right?
Maybe there was something else to say, but when it comes to this part of the topic, it becomes too hard to keep focus when people are so blind to the dangers facing them. Yes, I'm positive. This ISN'T negative talk. This is me being positive that people can't and won't be this STUPID.
Also, to say why it is then that the idea of dying to cancer hadn't really fazed me that much is because of the thought, "I'm tired.". I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of speaking when people keep doing the same crap over and over. When everything you say is irrelevant because you're not this or that. No - I'm human. My right is to live and to say what I see when I see it. And what I see is a world that, even if it could be given a gift, refuses to accept it. It is more or less a way of saying "fuck you, then." if people would rather waste their time chasing hollow dreams for the promise of fame or money rather than be human and help fight for a cause that is worth fighting for.
(Frustration blocking out other coherent thoughts at this point.) Something else about what I'm really saying by accepting a cancer diagnosis and quietly shaking death's hand that is lost on me. But you don't think it is obvious what it is?
There's a lot to say about this but I want to ask a simple question and give an example of what it really means when there is Justice.
Let's say there is a con-man who is going around selling a product that he knows doesn't work right. In the selling of this product, he makes thousands. The people who buy this product find that it is faulty after only a short time and it malfunctions. When it malfunctions let's say that a person becomes seriously injured as a result.
The question becomes when does Justice become "served" as it is said? When the man is put behind bars or when the people who've been damaged are restored and repaid?
The first case is the common case of people's sense of Justice. It means that the bastard got what he deserved for messing around with people's lives. Now he can't go around causing more harm. (However, escape from prison we all know is possible and there will be more con-men in the future.)
In the latter scenario though, the people are given back what was taken from them.
So which do you think is the actual case of Justice being served?
In The End - Synchronicity - Attachment to Suffering
You know there's a little more about In The End that I'm not quite sure I want to talk about. It's something about something I wrote which I was trying to convey the idea of being attached to suffering. Still it isn't determined if I have kidney cancer or not, but that's not what bothers me. What is really eating away at me is that if I did I certainly don't seem to care if it kills me! However, knowing how severe the pain can be it is definitely not something anyone wants.
So this subject is going to be a little dreary I'm afraid because it is about death. Death is a little more than physical passing though. It is about essentially allowing old things to die so that new things can be born. In this case it is about the attachment to suffering. Yes, as strange as it is, there are people who are attached to suffering! But why?
When it comes to cancer, it is a little disturbing to think that people actually like physical suffering because it can create a sort of theatrical emotional display for all persons involved. Sounds pretty screwy doesn't it? Am I saying that it is just fakery when people cry about cancer? It isn't that simple so please allow me to explain. I'm definitely not saying people like suffering with cancer! Nor that people like to watch people die from it!
Assuming cannabis oil (with roughly equal amounts of THC and CBD) cures cancer, there would be a massive relief worldwide to anyone who might be suffering. So what is holding it back? First of all, there's a great amount of money to be had in cancer research. You know what was the first thing I noticed when searching for information on kidney cancer and tumors? There were loads of websites of different organizations all saying the same thing!
It seems a little disgusting to think that organizations are really in it for the money. I know. It ISN'T that simple and yet it is. Yes, before people jump the freakin' gun, I do know that there are genuine people who are just trying to help. But there's a greater number of people who believe that since people in the highest positions are researching that they can't be wrong if they say that cannabis oil doesn't cure cancer. Where would all those studies be coming from who would suggest that cannabis oil doesn't cure cancer? Those dirty organizations of course who realize they would go under if a cure was discovered!
Hold up just a second before throwing me in the category of "people without degrees can't know anything and are stupid" and just hear me out. I do really want to talk about attachment to suffering and that is still what this is about. It kind of goes hand-in-hand with the black plague.
The black plague? What's significant about the black plague in relation to the attachment to suffering? Now, I'm just going on my memory and what I remember hearing about the black plague so sue me if I'm not accurate here. The reason that the disease flourished was simply because of poor living conditions. That people literally sat in their own filth and so the disease would spread.
We're quite fortunate that living conditions have improved and that we have the advantage of being knowledgeable about diseases. The problem is, is that the lower or common man has no say in just what might be the cause of a disease or what could cure it. When authority is running the show and when their interest is money, the common man is nothing but a speck of dust to be snuffed out. Sad even still, is that they don't even have to lift a finger to keep you quiet! It isn't much different from the days of old, except that today the angry mobs look different.
The point is, is that there is an answer, but not everyone wants to hear that. In the case of cancer, cancer can not thrive in oxygen rich environment. In fact, a Nobel Prize was given for the discovery of a cure to cancer by simply showing that very thing! So like the black plague, the case seems to be the same doesn't it? Almost. The difference is there is a great wall of ignorance forcing this kind of information to the underground where it is not to be seen. To think if living conditions improved, then this "mysterious" killer (it still takes too many lives...) would suddenly vanish.
What's this got to do with In The End and attachment to suffering? Well, when I was in the hopsital my stay was not pleasant at all and not because of the idea of having cancer. It's that I was quite literally accepting death out of nothing but the promise of relief from mortal suffering. More than that, I wanted to let everyone know that what they call living I call nothingness, emptiness, hopelessness, and roboticism. Since I see that's how they live, I feel horribly disgusted that I'd rather die to make a statement by saying absolutely nothing. All I did say was that maybe I don't care because I'm trying to accept what I know is inevitable!
Okay but the relation to In The End? Maybe the lyrics really do come from your "subconscious" and that particular verse is STILL haunting me and it's a mix of pleasure and displeasure. I still cry to myself when I get the time to be alone because I can't seem to explain it even still.
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
My only explanation of this is that there really is an attachment to suffering and if there were an answer, it is not so easy to accept when you're accustomed to suffering. The pain is in letting go of the world. Most people can not understand this and I can understand their perspective because I've been there. To them, this is nothing more than someone needing a pat on the back or someone to talk to. It doesn't feel or seem in this case that that is an answer at all. It is just "depression" or "melancholy" or maybe even psychotic to most people.
Still, when I contemplate the song or rather when it starts to ring in my head, the images of it come through so vividly. Yes, I know, they say it's linked with psychosis to see vivid images. It is just something though that seems to increase awareness a hundred fold. Especially when trying to sleep.
"Of course I can see through the illusion because I'm not an idiot!", I said to myself in my head one night and that light came through so strong! Only for a moment though. How is it, in these peculiar moments of deep reflection and trying to poke at something, a feeling of (or is it really a sense?) love actually comes to me again. I don't know how to explain it. Part of it seems to be accepting the world as it is. People strangely don't want a relief from suffering.
"That's why you grow old, get sick and die because you are deprived of the one who could heal you." - Gospel of Thomas
Still, I don't know why the Gospel of Thomas and Mary have rung true to me. Funny that they're considered "heretical" by modern Christianity. Yet, they're also strangely the only ones that I looked at and searched before the others. I don't see that Scripture and other curious documents don't say the same thing though at their heart. Like a particular line of Hermes' works where he converses with Thoth (Thought) who tells Hermes that he can not enter into the Realm of God with his body.
"...when you look at your images which neither did die nor become visible, how much you will have to bear!" - Gospel of Thomas
There, it's in that. That is where a lot of personal, quiet suffering is coming from for me. When I first heard, "You can not enter into the Realm of God with your body", my immediate response is to be met with great sadness and despair. Why? It is a little tough to say. That doesn't sound like the typical spiritual idea though does it? It's as if you're beckoned to a land of pure infinitude that is not bound by any physical law. It doesn't sound as if you're just meant to float around the cosmos on an astral vehicle underneath your physical machine.
I didn't say or share exactly why me finding those screenshots of my name and Chester's name was significant though. For a time, I was having fun creating Magic Cards via an online site and one day I decided to think of my favorite spell in a game. "Galaxy Stop!" came to my mind. This spell is easily one of the coolest spells in Final Fantasy Tactics and is probably a lot of people's favorite. Especially the character who casts it since he appears only in this particular battle and is the only character capable of casting it.
Well, I had to do a google search of the image and that's when I suddenly had a feeling of something nudging me to "scroll back up". So I did and saw the name Chester on a Chemist (a job in the game in this particular battle) in a screenshot. My first reaction was just, "Okay, no big deal. Though it is a little funny to think of the rarity of the name and the odds of finding this.". Though as I scrolled back down I saw another screenshot with my name too.
Now, I know most people will say it doesn't mean anything and it is likely that I'm just seeing something that I want to see to give it significance. Fair enough. Except that there are a few more pecularities I didn't mention. First of all, it is that the astrological sign of each name is the Libra sign which stands for Justice. Second of all, the spell Galaxy Stop is synonymous with destiny and worldwide stillness. And just what are the odds of that? There are a large number of names which could've been picked out and an ever greater odd that the astrological sign wouldn't match either.
"Stillness is the Source." - Lao Tzu
What else? Well, it's that I had already imagined something before finding those images and thinking of Galaxy Stop. Before this, I should say I use my imagination to think of something fun or cool and one such thing I tend to imagine is video game settings/environments and placing yourself in them. What I had I imagined before was actually that I was a chemist on this particular map and with me was Chester, also a chemist. This is how I tend to cope with manic or violent thoughts.
So with that said, is it really just coincidence? I already hear lots of people asserting to me that it is. Fine. But the odds of all this lining up like this? I'm saying this at the risk of "sounding completely stupid", you know. I've kept it inside for a while because I know how it sounds. The idea that seems hard to convey here is predetermination.
Many will suggest that again this is just clever connection between things and doesn't have any meaning except what I'm making of it. Don't think I don't see that. I'm already aware of how that state of mind works and I've seen people in it.
In the case of Jungian psychology, synchronicity can be seen as something valid. In the world of modern science and psychology though, it is nothing more than psychotic imagination. They think because some persons seem lost in some maze of wonder that nothing good comes from this. That it is just fantastical thinking which bears no personal revelations which might lead to the transformation of individuals affected by it.
"Interestingly, it was the power of synchronicity to overwhelm the rational mind that held significance for Carl Jung (1875-1961), the Swiss psychiatrist who coined the term and brought the phenomenon to light. Jung recognized that synchronicity, which he defined as meaningful coincidence, had the effect of breaking through the “rationalistic shell” of the modern scientific mind. It is a form of coincidence powerful enough to shatter the notion that material science has discovered all there is to know about the universe. To the person having an experience of synchronicity, the realization dawns that a mysterious force is at play in the world—a kind of “cosmic clock” whose gears operate on a more subtle plane.
Modern science—based on the physical laws of cause and effect—measures and validates the relationship between cause and effect in the dimensions of time and space. What fascinated Jung about synchronicity was its acausal nature. He defined it as an “acausal relationship of events,” as there is no apparent explanation for the occurrence of two simultaneous events, one subjective and one objective. Further adding to the mystery, Jung noted that the occurrence has special meaning for the person who experiences it. This implies that unknown forces in our universe have the capacity to make visible, in the world of concrete form, the contents of the invisible realm of consciousness.
A classic illustration of synchronicity presented by Jung involved one of his patients, a woman with a highly developed rational mind— a fact that made her psychoanalytic treatment difficult. One day she was telling Jung about a dream she had had in which she received a golden scarab, a beetle with significance in Egyptian mythology. Just at that moment, Jung reported, he heard a noise “like a gentle tapping” on his window. When he opened the window, a scarab-like beetle flew in. Jung caught the beetle and presented it to his patient saying, “Here’s your scarab.” The stunning impact of this synchronicity overwhelmed the defenses of her rational mind and led to a breakthrough in her treatment."
Taken from: http://whenthesoulawakens.org/synchronicity-and-the-soul_288.html
What's funny about this is, that is it was actually the womans highly developed rational mind that was a hindrance to treating her. So events that seem to line up for the individual, certainly seem to beckon an awakening to the affected persons. They momentarily steal away the rational mind and open the senses to the idea that life is not some temporal field where we live to only to die. That there is more to this life than eating, sleeping, and waiting for the day to be buried.
Did that explain enough? Was it even an explanation at all? Just a bunch of disjointed subjects thrown together in something that shouldn't be considered an article? I get it. I do. Though at the same time, I threaten to want to question the world and what it wants and in return all I get is silence. If I press this too much, I'm just acting obsessed and sickly. It isn't because I want to press buttons! I just want them to tell me, because I'd really like to know!
Some melancholy music lyrics.
I'm kicking that stone
down your street alone
And the walls
Criticize where I have gone
I'm throwing that stone
Through your open door
And the halls seem to tell me
I am wrong
Nobody's home and I feel lost inside
There's a clock counting down what's left of time
When you're alone it's easy to hesitate
Like a girl listening to her heart break
I'm taking the long way Home
Where everything's overgrown
Just like the boy trying to give it away
I regret tomorrow...
ATB - Long Way Home
The comfort in a broken heart
Now palette shades
An image after life
One by one
I see the judgment in your eyes
I'm always in the wrong
And now the numbness wearing off
Can't stand the pain
Need to be patient while perfecting
That's the sign
It's always better down the line
I'm in the wrong and I've done it all before
And I know it's just a dream
Now I'm blind, I can't open my eyes
Also, there was a lot more I wanted to say but it all didn't come out. More about cancer and its treatments and how it makes people who are diagnosed with terminal cancer feel - or cancer that has spread.
More to say about attachment to suffering is just that well - why do you think I know what it is?
The greatest gift could be given to you, but you're still free not to take it. Or could it be that you're just being played by the hands of fate?
The MRI - The Black Hole - Anxiety and Pressure
Recently, I had to go to the ER for stomach pain and constipation. However, the worst part was actually the MRI. Even though it was my second time using the machine, I felt a great deal of anxiety after the first "breath holding" session. There's a lot to explain why this is, but I'd like to discuss a possible solution more than beat on the surrounding complications.
Edit note: I went from the ER and was transferred to the hospital when they found a tumor on each kidney after a CT scan. Also, I seemed to beat on the complications a lot more than I thought I would!
For one, the lady conducting the test (bless her heart) was quite rude. Her attitude and lack of confidence in my ability to complete the test heightened my anxiety and racing mind. She actually asked me my nationality and even tried to suggest that I was "too old to be having this problem.". There was more that was said, but for the most part this problem wasn't new to me.
Not to derail this a little further but not too long ago I had a wisdom tooth extracted. Even though I approached with confidence (and when you're in pain you almost don't care what anyone does to relieve it!) at some point, racing thoughts hit me like a truck and I began to shake my legs while keeping my upper body still.
Now, the difference between these two experiences is in part of the treatment from the persons performing the procedure. In the case of the extraction, even though I was nervous, I felt somewhat comforted with the assistant who kept saying, "You're doing great!". This is far more relieving to hear and even though it doesn't directly attack the source, it makes dealing with it much easier.
The Black Hole (MRI) though is a problem for many people. Some are comforted to just take a sedative so they can relax. I was not intent on doing this and didn't think I would need to so didn't ask for it. What happened though was something like performance anxiety (not the sexual problem!) because of the intensity of wanting to complete the test without fail.
The technician was putting a lot of pressure on me to complete the test and kept hounding me with how important it was for a proper diagnosis. To clarify, what they're looking at are tumors on my kidneys and cysts on my liver. Already, I realize the severity of needing the test done and honestly didn't feel like it shouldn't have kept on being thrown in my face as if I were unaware. Yet, the technician and doctors just wouldn't stop with their somber and serious attitudes about it.
Is that to say that I don't care if I have cancer or not? It isn't that. Most assume because of the way I carry myself on the surface that I don't care. It's just that treating the issue with seriousness doesn't help anything in any way. I'm not one for theatrics or overwhelming displays of emotion; not because I think they're bad, but because it just isn't rational on any level. If stress is a killer then why create an atmosphere so heavy about it? Does that sound cold or indifferent? I think it's worse to make me feel like I HAVE to act serious. I'd rather carry myself as light-heartedly as possible to avoid racking stress up.
Now, did I not have an emotional reaction when I first was told there was possibly cancer to worry about? I did actually, but preferred not to show it. It isn't because I was "taught it was bad" or that "men shouldn't cry". I prefer to cry in silence and in moments of reflection. Personally, I think this is more noble. Sometimes people cry in front of others only as a display of some sort. Again, I'm not trying to sound like a cold jackass here. It doesn't mean that if the situation is severe I don't ever cry publically. Nor do I think that a person crying publically is doing it as a display. In fact, one of the persons who came into the ER after midnight was crying and that I saw as genuine. Bah, that's a whole 'nother topic! Forget that for now.
The issue here to talk about was "pressure". I felt pressured from everyone in the ER just about; from doctors to even my own family members. I didn't complete the MRI and was saying that I would finish it at a time when I felt more stable. The lack of sleep and surrounding atmosphere just felt way too heavy and somber. With all kinds of decisions and factors for deciding what to decide, my anxiety started to pile up high.
What was it I was deciding on? There was only about 10 minutes left of the MRI to do before I bailed from intense anxiety. My heart felt like it would burst right out of my chest at some point and when I went back in for the last part (with the contrast to be streamed through the I.V.) my blood went cold before the contrast was even used and I called it.
What was really racking the anxiety up was the fact that there was little time in between holding breaths (for roughly 15-25 seconds) before you would have to hold your breath again. At first it didn't seem so bad to just hold your breath and keep still. However, the time in between holding breaths felt like less than 2 seconds! I hardly had a chance to catch my breath! Once the second round of breath holding began, already I started to panic because the first breath holding session felt longer than 20 seconds. When you hold your breath that long it can sometimes get to you if you're not stable. After about roughly 16 seconds maybe, then I started to "feel like I need to breath" and would struggle to stay still.
Immediately in this situation racing thoughts started attacking me and destroying my ability to focus. Probably the lack of sleep was effecting me too. Pressure was still an issue here too since I couldn't stop thinking about how I'm "failing the test". And when the technician questions you and asks you if you, "know how to hold breath", it sort of defeats your confidence or it might just piss you off. Anxiety was worse because I felt the need to explain myself which was frustrating because it was clear I wasn't being listened to.
Okay, but without having to say too much more about the whole process of the procedure and the racing thoughts, it is more important to realize a solution. Confidence I think is key! Otherwise, most feel as though sedatives are all they need. Personally, I don't get claustrophobic at all, but the reality of it did set in as my anxiety got worse. That was not the source of the issue though, I realized that (and no one can tell me how I feel - that is so utterly annoying and stupid...).
So how can you be confident in this situation? For me, I did not like the way I was being treated like a child or baby needing to have his hand held through everything. Even relatives "helping" with pushing the I.V. machine so I could go to the loo was even killing my sense of confidence. I don't think this kind of behavior is at all productive or helpful. It's far more harmful since it takes away your sense of power and confidence to "do it yourself" which is really the only way it gets done anyway.
Whoa! Still I'm saying a lot. Well, what can I say ? It was eventful. Solution? Play! How? In my first run with the machine (which was so many years ago that I forgot when it was) admittedly I was still a little anxious and struggled to hold my breath for as long as was needed, but still managed to get by without feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I was confident that all I had to do was challenge myself to do it better. Then it becomes more of a play where you know it isn't something you're afraid of and rather something you're welcoming to get better at.
There that is at least part of a solution which could work for many. I realize anxiety and racing thoughts are not very easy to overcome when you're caught in the moment and feeling oddly attacked by them from all directions. Still, it is possible to overcome! There must be some kind of confidence in the triumph and your sweet victory which will turn the Black Hole into a playground where you know you can't be harmed.
That I think was part of the reason I succeeded with my fight against the Black Hole in the first round. I was quite confident that it wasn't an issue of time and waiting for the test to be done. Instead it a was a test which you would reward yourself with nothing but the challenge to do a good job. In general, I always liked to approach subjects like this no matter what it is. Learning and triumph should be fun, not a burden. You know what they say too, "Time flies when you're having fun.". Indeed, the MRI should be much smoother if you approach it that way.
As a general note about MRIs, you should definitely consider asking for medication prior to the procedure to help ease you through it. They can even put you to sleep if you prefer (though the technician made it sound unpleasant by calling it invasive - thanks for the unneccesary anxiety and stress!). Also, it was only brought to my attention (after reading about it on the internet) afterwards that you can actually have the technician ask you if you're ready to do another breath holding session. That would've been nice to know and would've eased my anxiety and stress 100-fold! Studies even show that this in particular helps improve the results from the test than otherwise. Well, no freaking duh? You're the patient who needs CARE not TORTURE from a stupid machine...
Then, I want to get into a rant about health care and its procedures/medicines/tools in general as being totally uninnovative. The concern should always be maximum comfort for the patient. So many tools and machines however require some level of pain, discomfort, or invasiveness. This to me is just totally unnatural and beyond stupid. I had to have a rant to the family that people shouldn't be needing this much damn health care in the first place. They just don't place their health and well-being first before entertainment. Why should they anyway? The ER will fix you up right? Well, it can't always you know?
That's a rant for another day and time though I suppose. Unfortunately, my pleas go unheard and they're not just because I found the experience unpleasant, but because I become aware that there others for whom these things are probably so much worse than unpleasant. It's a serious problem for some that it can trigger you quite negatively and distort your view of the world and trust with it. My shattered sense of trust seemed to have started long ago with "doctors" and "nurses" at the age of 7, but again that's a whole 'nother story!
Another thing to say here is that the patient and technician relation should be warm and assuring. The technician should always try to make the patient feel like they're okay and not in danger. I mean, good heavens, you're the patient! This really shouldn't feel like torture. You should feel comfortable enough to laugh and not feeling under the pressure of "this HAS to be done". If the idiots would realize this then it wouldn't become a problem or would be much less of a problem.
On the subject of stress and pressure, after I began to contemplate going home so I can feel comfortable and get some rest on a decent bed, I was being bombarded (it felt like that) with everyone's suggestions of doing or not doing it. My whole reason was - I wasn't really being listened to either... - that I don't feel stable and would feel stable when I could go home to rest. After that I would feel more capable and centered to finish the MRI at another time.
It became such an ordeal that my blood pressure went up and my arm started hurting. Isn't that beyond stupid? I shouldn't feel like that in a damn hospital. I mean shit, if the cancer won't kill you then the stress of everyone's lack of concern for your mental state leading to a heart attack just might! Great!
At some point, the pressure of deciding and being given so many problems and even being treated as if I wouldn't return and would "die" from refusing treatment was adding to my stress so much! At that point I started to feel a little surreal. I could no longer feel like anyone around me was even talking or that I could hear them. It is a little hard to explain but my state of mind was shifting negatively quickly from the pressure of everyone putting the burden on me and trying to tell me what I should feel. As if I don't know my state of mind ! They can't "see" it so how dare they try to tell me to just "do it". I asserted myself stating that I would really feel better when I got home. I really do intend on finishing the test and treating me as if I wouldn't was harmful and not helpful to me at all.
Imagination is helpful to me here too. Whenever I got home, the first thing I did was kick on some music and imagine. Already, my anxiety started to lessen and my mood shifted to feeling positive again. Probably helps if you listen to something uplifting and triumphant with drums rolling, trumpets to gain a feeling of battle and the feeling of overcoming the odds. Imagining yourself as maybe a handsome knight or powerful wizard destroying some monstrous entity (which is a metaphor for the anxiety of whatever it is your facing) really helps gain some confidence. I don't care if people think, "It's a fleeting thing so why bother?". Well, it's more helpful than words I'll tell you that. At a time when a powerful benzo like Ativan no longer started working for me, I had to use it to combat anxiety and it's far more beneficial in the long run than benzos ever were.
Spiritual Body - Interspaces - Imperceptible to Ordinary Senses
"Ordinarily, said the Invisibles, this goes on unconsciously, and more or less inefficiently. We are self-contained. We are encrusted in a hard shell. A certain flow through us persists in spite of this. Otherwise we should not be alive at all. But too often it is the barest trickle: no more than sufficient to carry on painfully a slow progress and a torpid existence.
In the green stage of unripeness little can be done to alter these natural processes. But there comes a time, to everyone, when we can, if we will, take conscious and intelligent direction. Then these heretofore automatic processes will function not only better and more quickly, but less painfully. In The Betty Book I set down the philosophy and technique of how this can be done. It is unnecessary here to repeat more than basic principles. I will state them as briefly as possible.
One of these is that each of us occupies not only the physical body we see, but a second or spiritual body. This latter will continue to contain us after physical death. Though imperceptible to our ordinary senses, the spiritual body is no vague wraith of insubstantial shadow. It is perfectly real, made of definite substance, and will function in a world that corresponds to it. That world also is of definite substance. Indeed so far from the fuzzy or ghostlike is this world that, in one sense, its matter is even more substantial than that of the physical universe, for it interpenetrates--fills the interspaces--of the latter. In it the realities of consciousness will have more vivid scope than we know in our present phase. Through it the vital force of the universe acts more powerfully and directly than with us.
But--and here is the important point--that world is not separated from ours by a hard and fast iron wall of time. We can, in certain ways, begin to function in it now. Indeed at the time of ripeness that is what we must do if we are to continue efficient and developing. If we gain consciously and keep continuously our contact with it, our reservoirs will draw from unfailing abundance. The difference between that and our ordinary state would be the difference between power line and a storage battery.
In doing this our final aim is to develop a definite, close-knit core of self, in which we can have confidence as an indestructible unit. For only in this way can we be assured of a permanent nucleus of individuality which will hold securely together in the strain of life--and death." - Across the Unknown
Contentment requires knowing, knowing requires input, input requires mind, mind requires awareness, awareness requires presence, presence requires sensation/feeling
Feelings, sensations that you thought was dead - Gorillaz, Clint Eastwood
"What do you suppose your senses were given you for apart to keep you from falling down? ... 'You' are in your body..." - Across the Unknown
"Knowing constancy is insight." - Lao Tzu
"Man has such a predilection for systems and abstract deductions that he is ready to distort the truth intentionally, he is ready to deny the evidence of his senses only to justify his logic." - Fyodor Dovstoevsky
It is not a dream
If it were a dream, then it was, but now it isn't. That's logic!
Interpreting - Additional Excerpt from "Go Ask Alice" Added in because I can't add anymore content for some reason
I just opened up "randomly" to this page of Go Ask Alice and found this. I've never read the book, but picked it up from somewhere in this house and set it down on top of my computer. It was just today that I discovered this bit and was a littled overjoyed to see it.
Page 138 of "Go Ask Alice"
This morning I looked out the window and saw new green popping through the soil and I started crying uncontrollably again. I don't really understand the resurrection. I can't even conceive how Gramps' body which will decay and sour and mold and mildew and fall into crumbling little bits can ever come back together again. But I can't understand how a brown dried-up, shriveled little gladiola bulb can reblossom either. I guess that God can put atoms and molecules and bodies together again if a gladiola bulb without even a brain can do it. This really makes me feel a lot better, and I don't know how I could ever expect to understand death when I can't even understand television or electricity, or even stereo for that matter. In fact I understand so little I don't know how I even exist.
I once read somewhere that man uses less than a tenth (I think) of his brain capacity. Imagine having 90 percent more thinking ability, and using every bit of it. That would be simply glorious! Imagine what a perfectly marvelous planet this would be if minds were 90 times more efficient than they are now?"
When I am no longer threatened under the restlessness of any sort of vice, I find myself more calm and self-centered. The mind becomes naturally quiet and doesn't desire to make noise for the fun of it. It is not scary. That is the significance of a sublime state of mind.
Virtue I see then, is just a state of mind. It is much less, or really not at all, to do with the actions, but the state of mind that the actions bring.
No to say it is "just" a state of mind, makes it sound insignificant. That wasn't meant to come out like that.
It is what Otto Weininger refers to when he talks about morality being an expression of who you are. And what Lao Tzu refers to with this quote:
"Of all that is good, sublimity is supreme. Succeeding is the coming together of all that is beautiful. Furtherance is the agreement of all that is just. Perseverance is the foundation of all actions."
Sublimity is to be passive and in a state of awe and a greater state of awareness/presence. Succeeding means that those within this state come together. Unity? Furtherance is when everything is in agreement, that it finally decides to come together - Justice. Perseverance means steady persistance in a course of action, or a purpose despite the difficulties and obstacles that discouraged it. Then the foundation of all the actions was just to fulfill this purpose.
"Great indeed is the sublimity of the Creative, to which all beings owe their beginning and which permeates all Heaven." - Lao Tzu
Let me just say, that I am no buddhist or taoist. Okay? I understand a lot of the suffering that goes on in the world... all the time. However, these quotes seem to imply that there is indeed a desired end for Earth. I know it sounds terrible doesn't it? But if you're going to play around with the idea such as "purpose" then you need to take care in listening to its meaning.
If you ask me. This is the true "law of attraction". That all in the Universe is magnetically contained and the coming together of all that is beautiful seeks to move towards this Unification.
"The beautiful things are put in the world to help you."
With that statement is the very curious part, "put in the world.". Again, where do you suppose a flower comes from? Why should it form in the way it does? How? That is the big one isn't it? How?
They say that, in the womb, it is the mother's heartbeat that helps to grow the child. Or something to that effect.
What curious thing it is too, to call Earth, "Mother" Earth.
"We must accept that this creative pulse within us is God's creative pulse itself." - Joseph C Pearce
"You can't pulse yourself, you mustn't think you can pulse yourself!" - Betty White
There I think is part of the mystery behind some manic behavior. What do I mean? I mean when someone is doing something that doesn't accord with Natural tendencies they're acting out a sort of psychic outpouring. In this occurance is something that seeks to do something like draw, write,... any form of expression. The person feels compelled to do these things. Sometimes the expressions are beautiful or they're dark/nonsensical. However, even something nonsensical is saying something still, don't you think?
Edit: Whoops, I don't mean to tie in dark with nonsensical. Dark things can still be beautiful. Depressing things I guess is what I'm thinking of. Or things that reflect on human nature in a somewhat depressing tone.
But what do I mean by not in accordance with Natural tendencies? Anything that is not expressive of Nature's law. Nature is harmonious and beautiful. When there is harmony then there is health, happiness, and right living.
Maybe there is more to say than that, but for now I leave it at that.
Also, let me say that this is not meant to be mystifying.
Edit: Other definitions for sublime include that it is something exalted, elevated, or lofty in thought.
"It is not the Way that exalts the Man, but the Man who exalts the Way." - Confucius
"Men imagine that they communicate virtue or vice only by overt actions and do not see that virtue or vice emit a breath every moment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
There's more to say about "balance" here. Though I hate to point out the obvious sometimes. Or rather, what seems to be obvious to me.
Oh right, let me define my definition of self-centered. I mean everything feels centered or focused. Not the definition which means solely interested in yourself.
There was something undifferentiated and yet complete, which existed before Heaven and Earth. Soundless and formless, it depends on nothing and does not change. It operates everywhere and is free from danger. It may be considered the mother of the universe. I do not know its name; I call it Tao. - Lao Tzu
He "calls" it Tao, but that is just a way to name it. That's all he's saying.
Dog Poop - Responsive Behavior - Reasonableness
Apparently, about 41% of dog owners don't pick up their poop. Guess what? I'm one of those owners. Now, what is your response to hearing this? Probably, there is a great deal of responsive negative thoughts being thrown my way for this already.
So what is the problem with that, you say? Well, guess what my response is to someone who smugly tells me to pick it up? I don't want to pick it up!
The reason I am writing this is because just today I went to take my dog out and my neighbor spotted me and "stopped" me by shouting at me. His aggressive tone was bordering on him becoming violent with me. Immediately my nerves are shot and I'm already being triggered into fight or flight mode. Should it really come to that?
So there is part of this problem: our responsive behavior. We can't discuss issues without someone thinking that it is more important to "be right" (and what a strange thing it is) rather than help increase our understanding of the issue. Reasonableness! For the love it!
I remained as calm as I could (on the surface) but the guy was actually saying he was going to kick my ass if I don't. It simply has never occurred to me that it was "wrong" not to pick it up. I realize that stepping in dog doody is problematic and not just "gross". There are indeed some health concerns that can affect another person if they touch it by mistake. Some children playing apparently have even become blind from falling into it.
But if not for me thinking more of being responsible and reasonable then I simply wouldn't even bother. There's the other side of this problem. You see? When you become "violent" with your point of view, the other person is apt to not want to listen to you. They will often want to do the opposite of what you're telling them. I only wish people would realize this.
Funny, that this guy was actually older than me. That is not at all reasonable behavior for an adult. In our society we have a perverse view that males are supposed to express themselves like this. A true father is wise, has good conduct, and is a good teacher as a result. They don't use "force". Language like that is part of why our society has not been producing stable, sound, peaceful, coexisting creatures.
If the guy had come out and asked politely now, would I have followed? Maybe, or maybe not? There's another issue. I think these issues start with how we teach each other in our everyday interactions. If it had been a commonly accepted practice in my family to pick it up, then it would just be that.
So will I pick it up? Yes, I'm even just a little "resentful" to have to submit to someone under that kind of aggressive behavior. But the issue is more important than that foul man's mouth. With that said, if you're possibly one of the 41% of dog owners who don't pick it up, make an effort. And... for the love of God, discuss the issues reasonably! I can't stress this enough.
Moreover, there are some good people out there who will pick it up "for" you. It shouldn't have to come to that. You would relieve someone of a burden that shouldn't become theirs. This is another problem with our society and its issues. Piece by piece, day by day, little by little, make the little things count and let's come together?
There is one thing I'd like to address and its the idea that dog poop is "toxic". Now, the thing I want to say is likely something that sounds too obvious that it is ill-received and regarded as "non-scientific" (because it isn't backed by lots of "studies" to "prove itself".). Well, what is it? It's that... if a dog's pop is "toxic" it isn't because of the dog, but because of their diet.
Seems too fucking obvious though so it gets ignored and is violently attacked. Animals are taking craps all the time on Earth and have been since its conception.
Yes, I know... most people don't like to hear this because they think it dismantles or perhaps that it is against the theory of "Climate Change".
Poop and diet are just obvious though. Not to sound gross, but as an example, when my grandma goes to the bathroom, there is a very horrid smell she leaves behind. Most people think this kind of thing is funny and maybe it can be, but at its heart it is a serious health issue.
The thing to note here (and hey this IS Scientific, because - guess what [gasp] - it is based on observation and is formed on a hypothesis) is that our grandma will eat just about anything and everything without much regard. No kidding. It does not even matter that the food has been sitting out or it belonged to someone else. She also has a problem with her digestion and heart which she just recently went to the hospital for.
So if there is a problem with the environment it really is our choices that are to blame. In my family though, health is something that can be taken for granted because it is all up to the good ol' doctors to fix us up anyway. And it is apparently only up to them to tell us what we need to do to keep our health in check.
"Education happens everywhere and all the time." but people don't realize this.
I just want to add that my poopies tend not to smell, in case anyone wants to bark at me. [blush]
Oh, and ever heard of "beer sh*ts"? Those smell really bad. As if that weren't evidence enough of what you put in is important to health.
Socrates also noted that if you don't regard what people are eating, then how could you know disease?
"What goes around comes around." - Now this is taken out of context if you ask me. What? Why?
"I don't understand I did something good, but good things aren't happening for me."
"Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be, until you are what you ought to be. This is the interrelated structure of reality." - Martin Luther King Jr.
When people refuse to give, then who can ever get?
The clouds don't hide the Sun, they only encourage him to shine his light even stronger, but still can not completely shut it out from the sight of the world.
Greatness - Delusions of Grandeur?
I wrote this out in a document. Afraid to post this publicly elsewhere. Modern Psychiatry has a sort of safeguard against strong-minded, independent, and big thinkers and it's called a "grandiose delusion". This is somewhat two-sided.
If a person is struggling inwardly and is discontented with himself and his environment he's considered to be "unwell" rather than his environment and its practices which are what is actually unwell and contributes to his unwellness. Breaking free from this is not easy at all. Especially if you develop symptoms which are telling of a certain "disorder". That disorder of course being schizophrenia.
Now, just because a person goes around and believes something to be true that isn't and because they happen to overlap , does that mean that everyone who comes along with similar "symptoms" are indeed the same? This is the problem. How do you address thinking like this? All that occurs is that the persons become convinced by this and submit to this sorcery since it is too much of a burden to go against standard convention. By submitting, you find a sense of comfort (which probably deep down the person feels could be a lie) rather than continue to try and break free or pursue this desire.
---- The document:
It's just something that happens. You drop everything you're doing and you feel this need to do *something* but can't figure it out. It's a need or desire to do something great.
"It's called a grandiose delusion."
[eyebrows furrow] Wrong. It is a response to what has become of the world.
"Now there is an absurdity saying that harmony is discord or is composed of elements which are still in a state of discord.
For harmony is a symphony, and symphony is an agreement; but an agreement of disagreements while they disagree there cannot be; you cannot harmonize that which disagrees." - The Symposium
BETTY: I'm beginning to see the application. Suppose you get into that clanging factory, that awful place of discordant elements--that's the world of limited sight where you can't understand values--and get confused over issues. You are in this world and you cannot tell the greatest good from the present expediency: you can't distinguish the right thing to do. Instead of trying to fight through with your intellect, you retire to the higher consciousness and begin your inner generation. This produces a shaft of power and light which you can turn on your problem. Then you see clearly, and easily find your solution.
So, do I think this "light" that beckons is at all just a "hallucination"? Not at all.
"They don't think Plato is being literal when he says that knowledge leads to the light."
"We were once one but because of the wickedness of mankind God has dispersed us..." - The Symposium
"I don't think I can say this: I'll try.
As soon as I arrive at this superhappiness, this suspension, this equilibrium of health and happiness, it must return me to acute perception of the lack of it in the world. It rushes from its force into weakness, like the great physical law of the vacuum; it rushes to it. That explains the eagerness to help us of those who have acquired it over here. It is the basis of all true service...." - Betty White, Across the Unknown
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So tell me, do you really think this world should continue as it is?
"The superior man always thinks of virtue, the common man only of comfort." - Confucius
A comfort of a lie. A lie that if continued to be lived could really bite you in the ass later.
Just from where did it come?
Who can say for sure?
And why in all their days
Did they continue to assert
That they knew it all
Until another came along
Just to say you don't
Was it worth fighting for?
When after it all they faded
Stolen by a solemn silence
Of something so supreme
That neither their cursing
Nor their violent actions
No matter their want
Their ignorance of its presence
Could it ever curse them back