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The Individual is Immortal
I had to take an allergy pill to sleep since I had itchy eyes and a bit of congestion. Now, I'm trying to wake up so that I can point out the significant parts of this article with the hope of providing some sense of clarity.
At this moment I am still 'staring at the screen' because its effects are just so damn potent and annoying. That's something I wanted to point out about antipsychotics and other drugs that 'dull' the brain. In particular, antihistamines will dull the brain by affecting the part that helps it focus. And that is definitely noticeable when taking those drugs. Antipsychotics are much worse though of course -- from what I've heard others say. So, for that reason, I choose never to take those unless, like the case of allergies, it's a 'severe' moment and you need clarity. Is that fair? I think that's fair. Still, I wouldn't want to because it does interfere with Spirituality.
Anyway, this first bit in this article is seeming to describe synchronicity or a mystical experience; a meaningful event to the person to whom it unfolds.
But, I'm still struggling to brush off the effects of this drug to read with solid, continuous comprehension.
"The unseen guest was the spirit of a soldier who had died in World War One. Through a ouija board fascinating messages about matter and consciousness were given. Joan later became a voice medium. Among the many spiritualist experiments of The Whites were those when Joan and Betty were both put into trance. For an example of these experiments see Attention is Existence: Instruction of the Invisibles.
Six months passed. Then Joan had a puzzling experience in New York City. First she boarded the wrong bus. Then she indulged herself by deciding to make the mistake a happy accident by shopping in a department store she hadn’t visited for years. As soon as she entered she fixated on a cart stacked with red Chinese lacquer boxes on sale at a clearance bargain price. She had to have one, she thought, but they were sold out, she was told. She insisted on speaking to the manager and demanded they look in their stock rooms and call the warehouse. They found one for her. But instead of returning home happy with her purchase she was vexed because she already had Chinese boxes and had nowhere to put this one. All this behavior, the wrong bus, the impulse buy, was very unlike Joan who prided herself on planning her adventures, whether mystical or mundane.
Soon after all became clear when Stewart arrived to be the seen guest of Joan and Darby. They were not planning to channel Betty when Joan went into trance but Betty immediately crashed the party. She began by calling Stewart “Stewt” the name for him she only used in private. Then she provided all the proof he could want.
“Betty began,” Stewart wrote, “talking to me quietly, fluently, with assured and intimate knowledge of our common experience and living. There was no “fishing” and no fumbling. That part of it became almost ridiculous, it was so easy for her where with usual “psychical research” it has been so difficult. Here, in this first evening, she literally poured out a succession of these authentications. She mentioned not one, but dozens, of small events out of our past, of trivial facts in our mutual experience or surroundings, none of which could by any possibility be within Joan’s knowledge.”
Chinese red lacquer box circa 1939 with carved swallows
Then Betty asked Stewart to pay back Joan for the Chinese box. The box was to be sent as a parting gift from Betty to her little sister. Betty told Stewart that the important thing was the birds on the lid. Her little sister was amazed when Stewart delivered the gift. She explained that Betty and she as children would climb into a tree to watch a nest of swallows, the kind of bird carved on the Chinese box.
Betty explained that all the work she had done during her life helping her learn to adapt her consciousness to the after life, the step by step ladder they had built with the help of the Invisibles, had actually been provided to give her extraordinary training in coming back to communicate with Stewart and their readers. What followed Stewart described as “forty sessions of communication with Betty; sessions vivid with her unseen presence, from turn of phrase and mode of thought to her own special brand of fun and laughter.”
With the world at war the first part of Betty’s message is that the intent of all this effort is to encourage people to find their own proof of the continuity of consciousness through life and death. She asks her readers to imagine how different the world would be if we understood we are temporary visitors with other destinations ahead of us instead of desperate creatures struggling for our brief hour in the sun. She wanted to give more than hope to families losing loved ones as the war killed millions.
Her next important message was that there are not two worlds, one for the living and one for the dead. Both worlds are the same. The difference is not in location but frequency. The frequency of the dead is not visible to the living. The world of human bodies is a much lower frequency than the intensely vital world of pure conscious energy. Consciousness is the matrix and sustenance of form. Electric current, a cloud in the sky, a bug flying by, within every variation of matter, at the heart of the particles that make forms, consciousness exists."
Now, that should clear up a lot if you can read and understand it? It should bring to attention that the matters of 'living and dead' are not really separate or existing 'sometimes' or 'when you believe it does'. Doesn't it? Well, I guess the truth is hard to see? After all we're living and not dead - yet.
The particular bit about the chinese box and the following trance session should relay a lot all on it's own. That indeed 'synchonicity' exists and it is not a conjuration of peoples 'imaginations' and it is NOT the result of a 'disease'. You know what I'm talking about right?
But in regards to the chinese box incident.. I'd like to point out that particular element of 'being fixated' on something in those instances. It was not In The End that was the first significant thing that had occurred to me. There were plenty of other 'things' going on before then. In particular, I had already begun to smell 'flowers' (though I didn't recognize the smell as that until recently) when I would try to induce the trance state by practicing it.
Okay, after having said that, I want to continue on to explain what was significant though after watching In The End and it was that my mother decided to take me to Wal-Mart to shop for clothes. I was pretty bothered because I was eyeballing a flannel shirt and thought, "She knows I like flannel shirts right? Why is she just heading straight to--". It seemed like she was 'fixated' on a nice khaki button-up shirt, "Oh, I like this.", she said admiring it.
My reaction internally was a bit complex. I was still hung up on the fact that she should know I like flannel! I always pick those out and she would buy them for me too for birthdays or christmas. Still, a part of me was thinking, "I really do like that though because--. But! I want a flannel shirt...".
It also struck me because it made me think of a picture I had when I was really young. I was dressed up in what I remembered to be my favorite outfit. An 'air force' khaki get up with khaki pants and khaki shirt. It had a cute little name tag on it too. It always made me feel 'comfortable' and 'proud' (? if that's not the word eh) wearing it.
I'm not sure though, I'm explaining properly the significance of it all. Nor can I tell you just how she really did seem 'fixated' on that shirt. No it wasn't 'seem' and that's the thing I know people will not believe nor understand. Whatever! I want to continue on with explaining more about life/death/frequency/thought/words/meaning/comprehension through Betty's teachings.
For now, I want to share this song and... explain why I feel it is significant. Also, this material IS important because it's a matter of Eternity.
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"Only crazy people talk to people that aren't there."
You're right! Once I became aware of that I stopped talking to my 'family'.
Two can play this game
schizophrenophobinemia: A chronic condition of talking out of nervousness or fear. Symptoms may be Eternal. Be warned.
- Overly concerned with worldy affairs
- Fear of the unknown
- Rigid Scientific reductionism beliefs despite evidence to the contrary
- Keeping disingenuous relationships to avoid loneliness or boredom
- Fear of the mortal condition
- Fear of time or excessive rumination on not 'having enough time'
- Fear of psychoactive substances like LSD, MDMA, Marijuana (conveniently referred to as drugs by the establishment due to misuse by ignorant persons)
- Fear of appearing 'weird' - continues to worry about 'normalcy' despite insufficient reasons to do so
- Talking about television shows constantly
- Belief in psychiatry without understanding what it is
- Disregards the peculiarity and source of the 'placebo effect' in the name of "Science"
- Believes in doing 'what's right' but never likes to be challenged on what is right
- Excessive reading to avoid actual thinking
- Says, "that's interesting" to feign interest or thwart the subject of the unknown without 'offending' the person presenting evidence
- Believes 'intellectual' talk means incessant jabbering about different subjects to 'appear' smart
- Mistakes a list like this for being 'rude' and 'offensive' or likely a creative 'psychotic' persons ramblings to 'defend himself'
- Perpetuates ignorance by continuining to talk about mundane subjects without a second thought
- Loves 'working' to avoid introspection or reflection
Daniel: It doesn't seem to matter what I do. I can't escape it. Every day I wake up... I feel miserable. There's just no putting it out.
Liliana: What do you mean miserable? Depression?
Daniel: At this point, it feels worse than anything I've known. Depression is manageable to some extent. I used to follow everyone's advice and just 'pick myself up' and go. But now...
Liliana: Maybe you just need some kind of--
Daniel: If you want to say medication, I could say society has a very deep sickness that it is not trying to cure. It just runs and hopes it can hide by blending in with the crowd.
Liliana: It sounds like you are doing this to yourself.
Daniel: I could say the same of what is going on 'out there'. The only thing that brings me relief or a strong sense of it... are thoughts of dying.
Liliana: That's not good. You're not thinking of suicide are you? Suicide is--
Daniel: Bad?? Is that what you're going to say? Death is death. Suicide is death. Maybe that's part of the problem today, can't you see? They seem to think they can somehow escape this problem by 'avoiding' it... just like everything else.
Liliana: The way you're thinking is not healthy though.
Daniel: No. You mean to say that it is just frightening to you. Anyway, I'm not thinking of suicide. I'm thinking of how backwards this world is.
Liliana: You just have to accept some things are just not within our grasp to change.
Daniel: I'm sick of it. They get into a relationship.. and yet, you find them looking everywhere else. For what? How can they know love when they do this?
Liliana: Well, we have things we have to do, you know? There are things that just get in the way of our relationships.
Daniel: It's all a damn lie. They tell me things that just aren't true. Especially that time will somehow 'make you better'. This simply has not happened for me at all. I wake up... and I only find the pain doesn't diminish at all. If anything it gets worse. My chest... it feels like it's going to collapse in on itself.
Liliana: ...I'm sorry to hear that. But that's why you should consider therapy.
Daniel: How terrible. Here you are sitting with me and it feels like I don't know you at all.
Liliana: What happened to you? Why are you lashing out like this?
Daniel: Maybe it isn't me who it's happening to? It's more than just me. I'm just trying to be honest while the rest continue to pretend.
Liliana: Pretend? I'm not understanding what you're saying.
Daniel: Just... forget it. They don't know anything. They say they 'love' this or that and yet.. they don't even know the meaning of 'true love'.
Liliana: It's just a fairy tale. Just your emotions that get the best of you.
Daniel: When I'm gone from here... will you still 'love' me like you said you did? Or will you tell me I'm gone for good? Just tell me there is more than this... How else could true love be real... if it doesn't last forever? Everything true... lasts forever.
Liliana: ... Please don't do anything crazy.
Daniel: Crazy? Maybe... you haven't been listening well?
(I really can hardly stand anything anymore. I can't find solace with anything. When will the day come for parting from this land of phoniness and fakery?...)
I don't think I wrote this how I meant for it to feel/sound. Another point I missed was being told you can 'have things' and 'be happy' doing things or whatever it is people will want to tell you today. Those 'things' they say... just don't satisfy.
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GMOs - Whether they're safe or not
Of all the things you'll find in the popular results by searching "GMOs are good for the environment lies", you find it is full of articles claiming the opposite of what a very small minority are saying.
Perhaps, most disconcerting of all is that they claim that GMOs are good and you'll even find these ridiculous ads of people smiling and showing beautiful scenery to sell this lie. Why? Because Monsanto owns most GMO seeds and of course the weedkiller RoundUp which the seeds are designed to resist. So that they can continue to use more of their filth while the common, mind-numbed moron thinks it's "Science and progress". That's nothing more than a belief.
Progress towards humanity is the greater aim. Not 'profit' and 'mass production'. The gall! That they even claim their GMOs 'help the poor'! What a load of horse shit!
All the while independent farmers are being shut down in the name of these 'benevolent' crop producers who are trying to 'help the poor'. It should also be noted that there is indeed a "bugmageddon" potentially underway.
But whether or not people think they're safe or not, why not just concede to the non-GMO movement anyway? What difference would it be to most people who have little consciousness of this issue?
"Help the poor"... Wow.... really? I don't see them giving their crops to anyone. No, they're producing for profits and profits alone. Don't be fooled.
How else do you think this information they spread is so popular? It's because they have the money to spend on advertisements and $tudies which help them in their aim for what they want people to believe is 'progress' - its just profits alone.
"Man is in eternal isolation."
Maybe, I have lived this life before. Maybe, that's why fields of flowers or other kinds of scenery makes me feel... isolated.
Reminds me of a conversation I had with a girl online in an online game while we were 'riding around'. She noted how she loved the view of a particular scene where we were roaming and stopped.
I get how the feelings of those things can inspire a sense of awe, but for me and for the longest time it always just felt frightening.
All I ever felt was isolation and fear and I tried to explain it to her but couldn't explain why I felt that way.
I had a strong deja vu when my grandma and I had to pull over while she walked to fill up a gas can. While she was gone, I walked into the field by myself and could only feel isolation. No awe no sense of anything.
When she came back, a strong feeling of 'this happened before' hit me hard. Sure, people can say what they want about deja vu, but there is no definite answer to this. Only, in my own reasoning ability I would say it's because there is only Self. There is no other Reality.
Don't like the sound of that do you?...
Which is why I whispered to the air, "I need you.". It's not a 'want'... It's a 'need'.
Now, you can say I've made myself feel this or think this and it's just some kind of 'poison'. Maybe. But how do you know for sure I'm not sure of it?
Honestly, that was how I felt at the end of 'In the End'.
And in respect to 'chemicals' being messengers in the brain. Well, if they influence what is communicated to your experience, then only a particular 'knowing' trumps the rest. There can only be one true 'understanding' not many.
"Who do you mean by saying this?"
"The Spirit. The Spirit is Eternal."
"But that's just your belief."
"If that's what you think I mean. Then return to the "world" of confusion and lies. The hypocrisy!"
"It didn't work!"
So recently, I started to run out of clove essential oil and went to buy some more.
What happened was I noticed that while I bought the same brand and it was indeed essential oil there were something different.
It was a little runny and it didn't have that usual 'burn' to it. So I checked the back of the label and noticed a few differences.
It wasn't organic and is made from the stems and leaves and not just the cloves.
On the front label it's name for this type of oil is slightly different:
Original clove oil from first purchase: eugenia caryophyllus
Second purchase: eugenia caryophyllata
A small difference but it is a difference. Maybe, it's not the same as inferior products marketed to 'appear' the same as a superior product, but..
These kind of things happen and some people will assume, "See! This stuff doesn't work!". "I'm not doing that again!"
That's... about all that should have to be said.
edit note: Nevermind. It works, but it is just slightly different. It still has the 'burn' to it and even numbs the area. Mmm numbness.
Still I know there are situations where things like this happen, not even in 'real life' and people lose their tops about it and think you're trying to lie to them.
One - I'm serious!
One. Because there is only one true triangle and it exists forever. No other triangle could exist.
Because if there could be 'other' triangles they would only be a form of the triangle. So the rest are like something that shares it's essence and shape, but they are not the source or the 'true' triangle from which they receive their shape and form.
Because for something to be true, it would also be 'eternal'? So the triangle is as it is defined as being a triangle, it will always be a triangle.
I look out and I see
A very long road
And there is a pain
In pretending I don't know
Because I heard it all before
The stories of fools retold
Hiding away behind glass walls
Afraid to say anything bold
They're just spinning 'round
Deaf to the Angels hymn
Without a want to stop
As if it would be the end of them
I'm just going along
Waiting for the day
For the sky to peel apart
And it all goes away
There was more to say, but I lost it. It was just meaning to convey that more and more I can't 'see' or 'hear' what others are telling me to. The more I try the more I push away. It all sounds like...lies.
And after all that... at the end of the day...I feel that I wish I never had seen what they do. That they would stop trying to push me when they don't know anything about anything. That the things they say are 'good' are not 'good' to me...
When they speak... it's like nothing really comes out.
I realize to some maybe it's depressing. Then, leave me alone and don't follow me.
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Just going around and feeling so...not. Even when I'm 'there' I'm not really there.
But hearing something like this? I don't know how to explain the feeling of it.
Like a kid almost?...
Reminds me of the miracle of St Clare. Maybe it's just a story or second hand accounts, but apparently she stopped an army with just the Eucharist. The most curious thing about it was that a child's voice rang out which I guess is a major reason why they all stopped fighting?
Like it always was
Like it always was
But it's not enough
It's not enough, not enough
Every open eye
Holding on tightly to the sides
You'll meet me halfway...
You can be well aware
If ever I try to push you away
You can just keep me there
So please say you'll meet me
Meet me halfway...
Like I always was
Like I always was
But it's not enough, it's not enough
Not enough, not enough...
But you were keeping up
Holding to a hope you undermined
Never to be reversed
Every open eye
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Laws are always good? The FDA is on your side?
Isn't it great to deceive people? Maybe it isn't 'intentional', but who knows? How does anyone know? And just because some people lose their tops about it, should that discount that people are deceitful about this information?
"Colloidal silver is a mineral. Despite promoters' claims, silver has no known function in the body and is not an essential mineral supplement. Colloidal silver products were once available as over-the-counter drug products. In 1999 the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) ruled that these colloidal silver products were not considered safe or effective. Colloidal silver products marketed for medical purposes or promoted for unproven uses are now considered "misbranded" under the law without appropriate FDA approval as a new drug. There are currently no FDA-approved over-the-counter or prescription drugs containing silver that are taken by mouth. However, there are still colloidal silver products being sold as homeopathic remedies and dietary supplements.
There are many Internet ads for the parts of a generator that produces colloidal silver at home. People who produce colloidal silver at home will likely not be able to evaluate their product for purity or strength. There are many products that are far safer and more effective than colloidal silver.
Despite these concerns about safety and effectiveness, people still buy colloidal silver as a dietary supplement and use it for a wide range of ailments.
People are using colloidal silver for conditions such as infections, cancer, diabetes, arthritis, and many others, but there is no scientific evidence to support these uses. Using colloidal silver can also be unsafe."
How does it work?
Colloidal silver can kill certain germs by binding to and destroying proteins.
The above statement was taken from
Well of course, you say? It's a 'natural' remedy and those are always so deceitful to people! (sarcasm) But it isn't actually a 'natural' remedy, but a home remedy? (?)
But looking at the comments here? You see it's not 'unsafe' but can be if it not used properly, but so can just about anything. No one seems to care that chemotherapy or other treatments come with risks though... Nope. Those are totally fine.
"On one hand, you’ll run across thousands of personal testimonials about colloidal silver helping people with practically every disease you’ve heard about. You will also stumble upon some well-known health sites that warn consumers about safety concerns. (1) Usually, these sources quote a statement made by the FDA in 1999 claiming that there is no scientific evidence to support the use of colloidal silver. (2)
This type of information can confuse even the most savvy natural health enthusiast, which is why I want to lend a helping hand and provide some evidenced-based information to help you make an informed choice."
"Although the National Center for Complimentary and Integrative Health reports that colloidal silver may cause poor absorption of some drugs, there is limited research proving that side effects to colloidal silver use even exist. (17)
Nonetheless, you may come across many warnings about it causing an irreversible condition called argyria (when people turn blue). However, this is caused by misuse not of true colloidal silver, but through other cheaper products marketed as colloidal silver, such as ionic silver or silver protein.
One point to consider is that, because colloidal silver is such a potent antibacterial agent, you should be sure to supplement with probiotics during use to be sure that you maintain a proper balance of microflora."
Cavity/Infection - An Update
I think it's important to mention some things about cavities and again, how people 'tend to think'.
Lately, I haven't been doing 'oil pulling' because my tooth felt fine. In the back of my head I knew this was a mistake. A couple days ago, I woke up with horrible pain in my tooth. So I knew I had to do something, again. Only this time I can't take the information given half-assedly.
Probably what contributed greatly to the tooth becoming infected again (if it even is infected I don't actually know - sorry) and becoming painful was drinking and eating lots of sweets. Any instance of sugar helps bacteria in the mouth flourish and I had noticed the plaque on a wisdom teeth was accumulating daily despite cleaning it. It's also not an easy tooth to clean because it's broken and will bleed because of that.
There is also a recommendation of changing diet and this IS critical too. The body is capable of healing itself, teeth included. However, to do this it requires nutrients. This is something that can be observed with plants as well. Sure, they can 'grow' and will bloom or you can get a decent harvest, but they really 'grow better' when supplied proper nutrients and environment.
The mouth is just a pretty tough area to clean to make it 'pristine'. I don't even brush as well as I could, but using 'natural' remedies are highly effective. Still, that effectiveness was no excuse to get lazy and consume large amounts of sugar. Maybe I could blame 'Easter' celebration since that was a time everyone decided to buy lots of disgusting sweets... Except my awesome chocolate cake, of course! Yeah, I know that probably made it all worse.
So what did I do anyhow for my tooth pain when I woke up like that? I didn't take an ibuprofen or any kind of pain medicine which were given to me. I did some oil pulling using coconut oil and alone it wasn't 'effective' - at least not immediately - to reduce pain, but applying clove oil on a cotton ball did. It's now day 3 or so after this and the pain is hardly noticeable. But it does require attention - more than I was willing to give it.
What was really frustrating this time? It was the way my grandma and mom reacted thinking of course I need to go get it pulled. The problem is, not only do we not have the money, they would probably recommend a root canal. Yikes! And here's something else: it isn't wise to pretend to think these things are 'good'. It was always taught that 'prevention' was wise. If you know you can prevent something, but don't then how is that wise? Really, the way people treat dentistry as if it were the hallmark of 'medical prowess' is beyond stupid. It should be a last resort, not a way to support our vices.
More than this, people are not told that root canals come with potential long term side effects and health consequences. Don't take my word on that though. I guess you'd have to examine all the people who have had root canals to see.
Anyway, on to 'how people tend to think' and I don't know if I hit on that point enough. In part this is due to the general acceptance of dentistry as something 'absolutely essential'. The thing that occurred to me long ago was: Why don't other cultures where modern dentistry is absent need dental work? The answers are all there.
When I had mentioned my tooth was hurting again, I only want people to acknowledge that these 'remedies' work. But they never listen or respond even with the results in their face. No of course though, their response is that I must be 'bad' for god-knows-what reason. I'm sorry maybe you don't realize that kids don't like this SHIT either? It is absolutely abhorrent to let children grow up in shitty environments with ignorant people who have no regard for health or safety. No kid likes going to the dentist and for damn good reason. It's not 'good' to sit through that horse shit when it could be avoided.
I feel like I've derailed again because I'm frustrated. Frustrated that people don't speak up about this stuff enough and it seems people want more to 'sell books' rather than fight the system. Too much passiveness...
On to the what to do about tooth pain/cavities. First off, let me say that I don't think there is anything 'wrong' with going to the dentist, necessarily. This ISN'T black or white. There are many factors that contribute to cavities.
Your saliva has a pH range of something like 6.40-7.40. If it is 7 it means it is 'neutral'. If it drops below 7.0 it means the saliva is slightly acidic. Now, what are your first thoughts to hearing this? That can't be good for saliva to be 'acidic' can it? That sounds like it leads to erosion!
But what affects pH levels in your mouth? Obviously, diet could be a factor (haven't researched this enough to say just yet) since we know drinks like coffee and coke are 'acidic' and so, erode enamel over time. However, what would affect the saliva itself? Saliva is meant to protect teeth alone. Why would you require 'fluoride' which isn't even a product of saliva? (it isn't is it? I'll have to check lol)
Baking Soda is a highly alkalizing substance and it can help balance mouth pH (again I'll have to check). Proper use of this for the mouth requires care though. While it can be used for toothpaste and cleaning the mouth it 'can' be abrasive to gums and teeth. But just look at the official stats on 'baking soda' vs 'toothpastes' in terms of abrasiveness and what do we find? Baking Soda is the LEAST abrasive! The most 'recommended' brands of toothpastes by dentists is actually... pretty close to the limit.
Okay, you know this topic could get pretty big so many people aren't going to read it. The easiest thing to do would be to summarize, but unfortunately everyone's health is different.
Some general things:
Teeth lose minerals and then are more prone to trauma/cavities.
Minerals in the diet ARE important.
Sugar (even 'organic' or non-processed) will activate plaque and affect mouth cleanliness.
Saliva protects teeth.
Fluoride 'protection' wears after just one small bite of food.
Clove oil and other essential oils can fight bacteria in the mouth.
Eugenol is derived from Clove Essential Oil to 'numb' tooth pain.>>but
They somehow never mention that Clove Essential Oil has potent antibacterial properties as if 'eugenol' were the only thing 'important' in it. Hmm.
There are non-fluoride toothpastes which are aimed at remineralizing teeth.
You can make your own non-fluoride toothpastes.
Stomach is linked to the mouth. Gut health should theoretically be tied in with oral health?
There are probiotics for the mouth which also affect oral health.
Phytic acid is a mineral blocker and enzyme inhibitor found in nuts, grains, seeds, and beans. Avoid phytic acid. Read the link below to learn more.
Perhaps, the most frustrating thing about this topic is just figuring it out for yourself. It would be nice if people just 'knew' this stuff and could care for you. But since it costs much less than typical treatment? And since you know it goes hand-in-hand with societies 'get out of my face' approach. Basically, hey it's not my problem, go to the dentist. Hey you're depressed? Go to a psych doc. Hey you're feeling suicidal? Call the suicide hotline.
I know I'm '32' and should 'act my age', but isn't that statement really devoid of 'patience'? And are you fuckin kidding me to pretend that society in general isn't going in a negative direction?
I told my mother that my tooth hurt and I know I probably didn't have to or should have, but I also told her I was having kidney pains. Well long story short, she went to get her nails done for the day. That's life I guess.
Truth is the way I've been feeling is, "I hate everything." "There isn't anything good in this world." "Fuck everyone and everything."
Have a nice day!
edit note: I was also drinking lots of coffee with lots of cream and sugar. About 3 cups a day with 3 tablespoons each. Obviously, you can't expect good oral health drinking that much every day.
Garlic is pretty potent also to apply to teeth. It's kind of gross and it burns, but it seems to help in addition (not at the same time...) to applying clove oil a few times a day for 15 minutes with a cotton ball (3 drops). After returning to this regimen, my tooth pain is noticeably going away. However, treating a potential infection requires a bit more attention with your diet and other habits.
I forgot to mention the tooth is broken and the nerve is exposed. The reason it is harder to treat is because food is always getting stuck inside the tooth. Usually, I never did anything except wait until night to do 'oil pulling' with coconut oil to get it out. Now, I don't waste time. I swish with some hot water with salt or baking soda and get it out. Letting food stick around like that helps bacteria to flourish and further leads to more decay. Luckily, more of the tooth has not broken off.
edit 2: Grains that contain phytic acid, I believe, also includes flours. :(
There is a way to still consume it with 'less' or 'none' though, but it depends on the process used to make the flour/grow the grain? I think.
edit 3: Now, I should say, we probably do 'have the money' for an extraction, but there would be a lot of 'grief' about it. And to me, it's just senseless to waste time and money doing an extraction when something else is working for considerably less money. It takes time to heal the teeth and if it's possible for the tooth to be 'restored' I don't know. However, there are even 'alternative' means of filling the tooth which have not entered the mainstream yet. That's my biggest 'need' for the tooth is the 'filling'. But if the root canal can be avoided through alternative means it's stupid to deny it. That's the fear about going to a dentist is if they somehow lie or you can't be forward with the treatments you're using and get support. I mean it is YOUR choice, right?
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The God Helmet - Personal Thoughts
The link above is about the 'God' helmet which apparently can 'trigger' mystical experiences. The problem I have is that their 'perspective' or 'perception' of it is sort of 'half-baked' or still very much a 'belief'. They even say this in some sense, since after all they say, "...it 'seems' that...".
However, as they might have a solid reason to 'believe' their hypothesis on the experience of other beings as simply 'brain activity', they are rather stunned at the 'God' experience which only happens to a rare few individuals. Despite the name "God Helmet" the device does not actually guarantee that anyone will experience 'God'.
I think it's important to look at their explanation of 'religious' experience and see just what is so strange about it. If I remember right, the 'mystic' experience is summed up to be nothing more than a sort of 'loss of usual sense of self which is projected onto other beings which are imagined'. Their reasoning is that our language (and other brain areas) give us the relation to other people. So then, when our brain activity 'dumps' from those areas into the other side, it becomes an imagined being which we believe 'loves' us, but it is actually just our own 'emotions' we're feeling and mistaking.
Is that how they explain it? You'll have to read it up for yourself. I know most people today will likely nod in approval to that idea since it 'seems' to make sense. However, there are questions that are important to ask which don't get asked.
First off, the brain is sort of our 'reality organizer' in some sense isn't it? But what then is 'reality'? And where is the source from which our reality is 'created'? Who then are 'you' since in every moment what you might think you know, is in the next moment replaced by a new 'you'?
Who is to say though, that the experience of angels or other beings are actually imagined and not less real than we are? Since given the idea that we don't actually 'know' who we are, then aren't we really imagined ourselves in some sense?
Wait. Those aren't really the questions I had in mind though, they just sort of --
The questions that I had in mind are harder to aim at. For starters, our brain being the 'reality organizer' or 'reality perceiver'(?) is already looking at itself to determine itself. Then are other people 'out there' really real? Aren't we examining the brain of another 'you' which is not really 'the brain' itself?
Ugh, see this is actually hard to think about. Because the stuff 'out there' is 'in you' just as much as it is 'in me'. But before 'you and I'... who then?...
That's why I don't think my 'feeling' or 'interpretation' of In The End was far off because... even if it wasn't 'intentional' to be heard that way it may have wrote itself in that way. What do I mean?... Heaven knows...
And in respect to the understanding (still requires more research/understanding) that the brain doesn't 'contain memories' it means that it really ... 'belongs' to something which ... ?
I know people think because I don't have a PhD or something that my word on this is 'pointless' and speculative nonsense or even 'promoting psychotic behavior', but that is their problem. They're thinking through 'filters' which don't really see anything more than they expect to find. Really, if everyone is 'waiting' for some 'high doctorate professor' to tell them 'something' what are they really doing? The answer to that question is already there for them to see.
edit: Looking at the testimonials you will find that people using the device report that they can see people's auras. Pretty cool right?
Hah, no. Not 'today', right? Today we are smart by the magic of 'time' which has granted us the ability to look past these 'psychotic' people trying to -- trying to what?
"The beginning of a beginning begins with the concept of what is a beginning. Before this, it does not exist. But even after this, does it? Since what we think of a beginning is only existent as long as we conceive of it."
"A finite mind can not grasp an infinite concept."
"A child has no concept of time."
edit: There are also other questions in respect to beings.. and 'voices'.
Now this is something I tried to explain to my brother and of course you're not going to get a solid response from people today, but it was this:
My older brother said he 'hears voices' and he has all kinds of rationalizations behind it. Regardless if those are true, he only 'believes' those reasons.
The difference I see in 'voices' and 'hallucinations' is pretty simple. I've hallucinated sounds and voices and have no trouble admitting that they were. However, in his case it sounds similar to mine. Let's get this right, right now: this does not prove 'schizophrenia' 'exists'. It is a 'catch-all' kind of net that doesn't fit everyone.
The reason I have for understanding the 'hallucinations' as just that is because they occur when I'm sleep deprived and will struggle to sleep. In those states of 'dreaming' you slip into a sort of 'waking daze' which is not pleasant. The brain is still 'going haywire' and nothing concrete seems to be happening, but if I 'believed' it was real then perhaps it would seem that way.
I know this is what my older brother experiences because he claimed to hear things happening and it sounded just like that. (from hearing how he explained the voices, it was not concrete) Now another thing to note here is : insight. Does insight 'come from' making you sure you 'take your meds'? No. It comes from 'thinking' or serious inspection. And no one can just 'give' you insight can they?
How people need these things told to them is beyond me, but whatever. Perpetuating ignorance is a 'virtue' by some people's standards. Anyway, now on to 'voices'...
Hearing from others experiences with this, there are definite factors which distinguish 'voices' from your 'own dialogue' and this is critical to understand. More than this, if it were simply 'brain' junk, then why is it that 'deaf people' who 'hear voices' don't 'hear' voices, but actually see 'hands signalling' to them? See what a huge difference of a picture this paints?
More than this, in other cultures where 'spirituality' is more accepted, people hearing voices are not 'demonized' or told they're 'crazy'. The voices people tend to hear in those cultures are also 'positive' or tend to be. But what about voices in cultures in America or other violent territories? The voices tend to be negative and even hateful. Hmm...
Only a few smart people will actually ask these questions because we're not so concerned with looking 'dumb' or 'psychotic' or whatever it is that people want to throw on to you. This does not mean though, that I will 'attack' though until I've reached a definite conclusion. Something very few people today do at all...They've already had their 'minds' 'made up' for them. So cowardly...
note: Another reason I think this is important is because in Across the Unknown the 'beings' who Betty speaks with are highly intelligent and are easily distinguished as being distinct from Betty or Stewart. They simply could NOT be 'subconscious' creations which are just there to 'comfort' her. I mean this idea that it is comforting is silly anyway. Look at how aggressive people are against spirituality and its clear 'comfort' is not in their dictionary or life plan. Certainly, it's the other way around. They have a deep fear about this subject and avoid it at all costs! "Comfort"?...
They're afraid of...something. Do they even know what? Isn't that what is truly 'imagined'?
"You think I'm just one person now... but just you wait."
edit note: I also want to add that I'm not saying 'we're not real' or that even 'angels' aren't real. I'm suggesting that the answer to this lies somewhere between real and imagined. Creation is probably the best fusion of these two words/ideas.
People don't 'know' , they 'believe'
Here the perfect example of what people 'believe' 'Science' is so they can assert to themselves that they 'know something' that they actually don't really 'know' at all.
Why this is frustrating is that, yes, the gluten-free craze is just a craze and a placebo effect at best in how people tend to 'believe' they're affected by something they're actually not. My mother is a good example of this gluten 'sensitivity' garbage polluting people's minds. There may be 'some' evidence to suggest there are mild effects from gluten consumption, but it is scarce.
But what is so frustrating is that this is exactly what I mean by 'extreme conclusions based on assumptions'. The assumption is: scientific studies = 100 truthful and fact, therefore all other forms of 'Science' are 'good' and to be accepted without question. As you can see I'm clearly pointing out vaccines in this equation.
Because the idiots who made this unthoughtful meme clearly are victims of radical conclusive thinking. This then also means: organic food and products are just expensive, GMOs aren't unsafe or harmful to the environment, chemicals and pesticides are totally acceptable for agricultural practices, and anti-vaxxers are a crowd of non "Science" "God-believers".
Recently, my brother had a gash in his thumb from a work accident. He was then to receive a 'tetanus' vaccination to prevent tetanus. A good deal, if it was necessary. Who would want tetanus? But should we also, in this day and age where we have magically made 'great medical progress' be afraid of something so 'old'? That IS part of their logic isn't it?
Now, here is another thing. People who don't like people not liking 'forced vaccination' are immediately slammed with this radical idea that we're being abhorrently stupid since, you know, "rabies shots". So they want to jump the gun and throw you into the 'stupid' camp with their half-baked 'gotcha' statement, "Hope you don't get bit on the head by a bat!". Well, according to the Science, it may not matter if you got the rabies vaccine or not.
But in the case above, you GET the vaccine WHEN you've been bit. So really, is it a wise thing to just 'get vaccines' for some radical idea that it makes you 'moral' and others are 'immoral' for not? Especially when you consider that this requires you to get follow-up shots (more $$ and resources) every so often to 'stay protected'. If you know the Science behind it, you'd realize that it isn't really 'staying protected' since it in no ways confirms that you have protection. We don't know.
Another thing, for people wanting to deny that there are problems today because of greed. There are indeed small studies conducted where people were given magnesium intravenously in large doses to combat tetanus. It was apparently so effective that the patients no longer required muscle relaxers to relieve muscle spasms.
This is the problem when greed runs the fucking show. These studies will remain small so long as people continue to think as they do. They think that because 'medicines' work here and there, there isn't anything 'wrong' with the medical establishment at large. WRONG. Magnesium and other remedies like this aren't patentable, and according to the way people fucking think today, this is unacceptable. Since after all who wants to be a loser who doesn't rake in large amounts of dough to get him the 'hot babes'?
Again, I'd be interested to know if those studies were also possible because people who 'vaccinated' against tetanus wound up getting it anyway. But who fucking cares?
Edit: There is something else that I should say about these subjects in general. When I first started to become interested in organic foods and other non-conventional treatments for diseases it began with Kevin Trudeau's book. I took the time to read it over as best as I could. I knew that as big as the 'anti'-crowd is, it was simply not a good idea to get irate about this, whether right or wrong.
Unfortunately, my brother went to the extreme one day and dumped out granulated sugar into the sink and got angry with our grandma saying, "This stuff is poison!". While sugar in general may not be 'great' as far as health goes, it wasn't an appropriate response. It furthered the idea that people getting upset about this subject are simply 'crazy whackos'. I mean, after all we've been eating this stuff for years so what's the problem?
I want to say that though that the book Kevin Trudeau put out there was NOT to be blamed, and rather the general lack of literacy and self-control in the general population. The book however presented a lot more curious ideas than simply 'food' and 'natural remedies'. It was about getting a 'spring in your step' and reclaiming your life. Trudeau himself does not seem like a bad guy who is just trying to make a buck. Sure, maybe he started that way as an entrepreneur, but I tend to think people come into contact with information that they know is beneficial and would like to help more than harm.
edit 2: And in respect to 'doctors' their goal should be - no it's SUPPOSED to be - the concern for what works best for the patient without harming them. So if they receive new knowledge about new forms of medicine this is supposed to be in their interest to accept, they should accept it for our sake. You know?...
"Toxic" - A toxic word in itself
It seems to be a defense mechanism of this modern day to throw around the word 'toxic' as a way of saying some people are just 'too negative'. Rather than figure out how to work with people who are legitimately struggling, it seems society would rather minimalize their suffering. This is highly destructive and not at all constructive.
It isn't to say of course that there isn't some grain of truth to suggesting that some people are pretty 'difficult', but if people can't learn to empathize with them can that be considered being 'patient'? What's more, it seems that our society has little care in deconstructing the hierarchies that engineer negative personalities. This effect it has on the collective as a whole further adds to the idea that people 'beneath you' need to get 'with the program'. According to this hierarchy, there is no reason to be empathetic towards 'those kind of people' and so they don't deserve neither compassion nor 'handouts' - such as social security/disability.
This idea really struck me though in relation to spirituality and that as your interest increases in the subject your interest decreases elsewhere. Because of this people who are supposed to be 'your friends' or 'family' will immediately reject you. Obviously, this subject doesn't get you 'loads of cash' or 'the honeys' or that 'sweet convertible' so who would give a shit?
Anyway, I wanted to break down this article because while I agree with it somewhat, it is pretty negative. It really reflects on how selfish society is becoming as a whole. More than that, it really shows that society itself is toxic, especially if you have an interest in spirituality.
Let's look at number 1.
1. You Feel Sad And Down Around Them
Well, when you start to talk about spirituality what happens? You get ignored or treated outright with disrespect. Perhaps even getting eye rolls or being talked about negatively behind your back. It's a societal norm now to to mock the subject since there is 'no proof' and we don't 'think like that anymore'. That's something I'd like to address later if I get the chance.
Anyway, it is a depressing thing to realize. When your interest doesn't line up with those around you it leaves you feeling very depressed and sad. But let's get to the next point since this just further gets expanded on with the rest of the points.
2. You Feel Angry Around Them
Whoa now, I thought only 'toxic' people were negative? Doesn't sound like these folk are too 'positive' does it? Nor does it sound like they're 'patient' which is a positive trait. Now, if you feel angry with people when it comes to spirituality it's understandable. Even though, we see that guru with the smile on his face assuring us that all is right with the world, we're not there yet lol. So let's not pretend that the outright rejection of this subject isn't something worth getting angry about?
3. You Don’t Want To Go See Them
Well, when you consider the above? Why would you want to stick around people who treat you like shit for talking about eternal life? I'm sorry, what could possibly be more important?
4. You Find Yourself Having To Take Care Of Them
Okay, this is fucked up. Growing up, I had the idea in my head that when people are getting to the age of retiring it was an ideal to be taken care of. This just further reflects on the degrading sense of compassion that is overtaking society. My mother is in a relationship which today would be considered toxic and she would be scolded for 'staying with that asshole'. Guess what? He's actually doing better now, but this would be because of my mother's patience and insistence that he's not 'bad'. He's struggled a lot growing up with crap parents and getting bullied when he was in school. So FUCK OFF telling me he's 'toxic' without a second thought, okay?
5. You Feel Drained Around Them
Lol, who wouldn't feel drained about people who can't listen even though they have ears? Who wouldn't be frustrated in dealing with this every day that you feel tired all the time? I have to remain silent around many people while putting up with their dull and incessant jabbering about stuff they don't really care about, but don't have the heart to admit. Not that I blame them...
6. You Feel Numb Around Them
Damn, this one is pretty serious. I don't know what to say. It speaks for itself.
"People you love should make you feel alive, not numb. If you don’t feel happy or sad, then that’s a sign that you are just going through the motions because you have to. You have checked out emotionally and you are doing what you are obligated to do. That is certainly not healthy, and it is a huge sign that the person you are around is either controlling or so bad that you have shut down your emotions so you are not upset anymore."
7. You Can’t Say Anything Right Around Them
"There he goes talking about that shit again." Yeah, more of the same of the stuff that's been said already. So, just talk about stuff you don't want to to avoid 'offending' the people who are supposed to be 'positive' and all that. Right.
8. You Feel Forced To Be Around Them
More bullshit. It's screwy that a person can't say they're 'lonely' because it means were being 'needy'. For that reason, I never tell them how awful I actually feel around them. Isn't that awesome?
"The worst thing in life is to end up with people that make you feel all alone." - Robin Williams
9. You Feel Unlike Yourself Around Them
Right. Again, this is more of the same. Do I want to talk about my actual interests or just go with it? Talk about mundane garbage I've done heard a thousand times over? I should continue to pretend to be interested in video games or else I'm being a 'snob'? That's not 'emotional blackmailing'? Huh...
10. You Feel Like They Control The Relationship
And that's the end of it. When your back is against the wall, what do you do? You feel the need to cave in and just accept it. No one cares about this subject because it's too 'out there'. It makes you look weird, sensitive, and doesn't appeal at all to modern sensibilities. So... just let them tell you what to think and do so you don't have to be left out of the great sham of their hollow and dull lives.
Now, on to something I wanted to address and it's this silly notion of 'we don't live in those times anymore' logic. Right, because time inevitably means were 'progressing'? Their whole relation to think 'things aren't like they used to be' couldn't be more untrue. Everything is the same, just wearing different clothes and wearing different masks.
It's a hilarious notion though that since we don't do things that we used to, we're by default 'not stupid'. I just have no words for this at present because of the utter frustration of hearing such a stupid statement.
Bible on Desire - The World and a quote from Padre Pio
James 4:1-17 ESV
What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passions are at war within you? You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions. You adulterous people! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God. Or do you suppose it is to no purpose that the Scripture says, “He yearns jealously over the spirit that he has made to dwell in us”? ...
Now, I think this a big deal that doesn't really get addressed.
"Even though the lord is in us, he still wants us to ask for what we desire." - St Padre Pio
I mean, you might more often hear, "it is wrong to want", but nothing more. In respect to the quote above, it sounds much different.
Now it says, "you ask wrongly" almost as if it were not really what you want? Since you "spend it on your passions" and then you're left discontent and still wanting? I'm not sure how to interpret it 100%, but it is quite an important piece.
I know, I feel kind of ... bothered by what it means to be 'an enemy to the world'. It's pretty excrutiating on some level, except that in relation to a quote from St. John of the Cross it doesn't sound like it's something that goes unrewarded. Or that you definitely get something, so not to fret about 'the world'.
The predictable social paradigm of 'assumed' wisdom and intelligence
People probably think I'm being too 'outspoken' and need to 'calm down'. I just have trouble sometimes finding the words for people's predictable behavior when I see it happening. My response for one such thing that is happening today is a serious frustration because it's something that is beginning to root itself deeply in the consciousness of people who think in a very predictable manner and assumes its 'intelligent' or 'wise'.
Atheism is a deleterious poison today. Many think there is the problem with religion that makes it 'bad' because they think it's 'psychotic'. Their assumptions are mostly based on behavior that they see. LOL But the thing is ... how do they not think they're not 'exhibiting categorical behavior' as well when they do this?
It's much more than that. Following my brother's belief in Atheism was my mistake when I was younger, why? Because it led me to live as he did in fear and discontentedness (though hidden). Their claim to suggest Atheism as something good because it assumes more responsibility to this world than does Religion is not exactly true.
The major component in spirituality I'm coming to find horrific is the Life Review. I've become acutely conscious of it. This is something that can happen without a near death experience or OBE and it can be transformative, but also hellish. Why? Because in the Life Review you're left to face yourself and your actions. Most who have this experience said that their positive actions, despite being uplifting, we're almost outweighed by their negative actions completely. This leads them to living differently however. So it's actually a good thing.
In Atheism however, we now have Science Fiction ruling the mind of the masses. Offering them ideas of a 'metal borg' immortality. Could it be possible? For some reason the very thought made me wince in pain and left me wanting to clench my chest in horrible agony. Why? I didn't know why. But if you listen to the hearts and minds who tell this idea what do you honestly see? It isn't pleasant or benevolent at all as far as I see it. This 'belief' (if it isn't a possibility it will require working the details out to dismantle it) has crippled people's Spirit and left them 'waiting' for something that may not come in their life time. That doesn't sound uplifting does it? It's fear ridden.
There's more to say, but ... fck I'm still tired. I sleep better after expressing these ideas, when otherwise I have to deal with constant 'mental bombardment' while trying to sleep. Then...something beckons... a light. It is not a metaphor...
Some personal responses of mine
A deeper look at Martin Luther King Jr's words
Because there are lots of quotes and it seems as nice as they are on the face of it, I also know they can be taken out of context. So I decided to see how they're used and more importantly break them down to gain an actual understanding.
But...It's late and I'm needing sleep so maybe later...
His understanding of time seems...unreal.
edit: And after reading it, his understanding of time and it's importance is critical. Time is neutral.
edit 2: The other thing to note is his use of the word moderate. It's not just important in terms of civil rights. There are several definitions but essentially it means:
"I must make confessions to you, my Christian and Jewish brothers. First, I must confess that over the last few years I have been gravely disappointed with the white moderate. I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's great stumbling block in the stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Council-er or the Klu Klux Klanner, but the white moderate who is more devoted to "order" than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of Justice; who constantly says, "I agree with in the goal you seek, but I can't agree with your methods of direct action;" who paternalistically feels that he can set the time-table for another man's freedom; who lives by the myth of time and who constantly advises the Negro to wait until a "more convenient season." Shallow understanding from people of goodwill is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection."
"I had hope that the white moderate would understand that law and order exist for the purpose of establishing Justice, and that when they fail to do this they become the dangerously structred dams that block the flow of social progress. I had hoped that the white moderate would understand that the present tension in the South is merely a necessary phase of the transition from an obnoxious negative peace, where the Negro passively accepted his unjust plight, to a substance- filled positive peace, where all men will respect the dignity and worth of human personality. Actually, we who engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive. We bring it out in the open where it can be seen and dealt with. Like a boil that can never be cured as it is covered up but must be opened with all its pus-flowing ugliness to the natural medicines of air and light, injustice must likewise be exposed, with all of the tension its exposing creates, to the light of human conscience and the air of national opinion before it can be cured."
Okay. Now I want to get to the important bit which he expresses the idea that "things will get better in time" or that "progress will be made in time", but he's "in too much of a hurry." is absurd and explains why.
"I had also hoped that the white moderate would reject the myth of time. I received a letter this morning from a white brother in Texas which said: "All Christians know that the colored people will receive equal rights eventually, but it is possible that you are in too great of a religious hurry. It has taken Christianity almost 2000 years to accomplish what it has. The teaching of Christ takes time to come to earth." All that is said here grows out of a tragic misconception of time. It is the strangely irrational notion that there is something in the very flow of time that will inevitably cure all ills. Actually time is neutral. It can be used either distructively or constructively. I am coming to feel that the people of ill-will have used time much more effectively than the people of good will. We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the vitriolic words and actions of the bad people, but for the appalling silence of the good people. We must come to see that human progress never rolls in on the wheels of inevitability. It comes through the tireless efforts and persistent work of men willing to be co-workers with God, and without this hard work time itself becomes an ally of the forces of social stagnation. We must use time creatively, and forever realize that the time is always ripe to do right. Now is the time to make real the promise of democracy, and transform our pending national elegy into a creative psalm of brotherhood. Now is the time to lift our national policy from the quicksand of racial injustice to the solid rock of human dignity."
Score 1 for "Millenials"
The "Drug War"
"Today’s drug war doesn’t send young men and women thousands of miles away. It puts them away right here at home. Thousands of mostly African-American and Latino youth are killed in the streets in drug war related violence or locked up by drug laws–with the same discriminatory criteria that sent the poor and African American to fight and die in Viet Nam. In Mexico it also targets, the young, the poor, and indigenous peoples.
King’s third reason stemmed from his deep commitment to non-violence.
I knew that I could never again raise my voice against the violence of the oppressed in the ghettos without having first spoken clearly to the greatest purveyor of violence in the world today — my own government.
Forty-five years later, we can say the same. If we do not oppose the drug war, we cannot claim to be non-violent and credibly stand up against more conventional wars or invasions. The U.S. government’s Merida Initiative promotes violence and militarization in Mexico as a solution to drug trafficking and its prohibitionist drug laws and violent enforcement tactics lead to violence and deaths in U.S. communities. We either condone that and abandon all pretenses of non-violence or we oppose it actively and remain consistent in our beliefs."
More exposure of this 'bunk' and 'fake' 'pseudoscience' of Psychiatry
"Since nineteen ninety-three, children using antipsychotics has increased a whopping eight hundred percent. In teens, it has increased five hundred percent and one hundred percent in adults. These statistics are certainly cause for concern, but even more staggering is the fact that seventy-five percent of these people have brain damage caused by these drugs. Let’s look at the facts behind this catastrophe to get the full picture."
Note: There are many people who interpret 'anti-drugs' as meaning to never take them. Psychotic episodes happen, and they may require some type of drug to help. The problem with any drug is that over time, the brain may become dependent (something many doctors will not tell their patients) and respond negatively when the person stops them. In those cases, a slow tapering off of the drug is required.
However, that very 'tapering' of drugs is rarely ever done. My mother was prescribed many different drugs for anxiety and never was she told they were addictive. Eventually she was prescribed something more severe which actually caused her to hear voices. She was deeply frightened and never took that drug again. This to me demonstrates that the drugs really are drugs that affect the brain chemistry negatively/unpredictably.
I've only ever taken benzos, but started to develop an addiction. It was somewhat horrifying feeling bound to them for anxiety. It isn't like I don't ever have anxiety anymore, but I think the fact that the 'option is there' makes it a bit too much like a crutch.
ATB - Take me over
Looking down unaware of the world
What a strung out beautiful girl
Dawn is holding a sign, could use a little help here
She's aware in her own little way
Fading in and out of the day
As she sits there in shame, and she wonders
Can you take, can you take, can you take me lower?
Can you take, can you take, can you take me over?
Feeling too much pain to defy
The disease is deep in her eyes
So she might as well drown in this thing that saves her
She recalls that there was a time
When she wasn't actualized
To relinqish control to her Savior
Can you take, can you take, can you take me lower?
Can you take, can you take, can you take me over?
Nanako - Heaven's Theme
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Psychiatry - Junk and Hokum
This blog post was really silly. It even tried to use the idea that since Daniel Amen has a 4.8 million dollar mansion that just further makes him look suspicious as a quack selling 'fake science' to people.
How is that they can try to suggest this when we all know psych drugs are massively profitable? Antipsychotics alone are major sellers and curiously more and more people are diagnosed with psychotic disorders. Yet, no 'cure'?
"I find it laughable that Psychiatry in general scoffs at this procedure as "not ready for prime time" or "not supported by the science"... It's hypocrisy at its finest. Psychiatrists look at symptoms during a brief snapshot in time and then make a "judgement" with no objective clinical tests that support it. Then they have the chutzpah to prescribe little understood meds that will literally change the person's fundamental brain chemistry with the prayer it might work - oftentimes with disastrous results. Then they prescribe more meds to cover up the side effects of the first med which then have side effects of their own.
I have my own story of how this quackery has impacted the last 8 years of my life, but I won't bore you with it. Suffice it to say - no matter what you do - caveat emptor. Don't mess with the brain lightly..."
Illuminati Card Game - Too funny to be true?
There's a lot I want to say about this, but for the most part I think some of these cards are hilarious. Some are definitely a little 'eerie' in that they seem to predict human behavior to such a degree that... it's unbelieveable?
Especially the Flat Earthers card. "People laugh, but the flat earthers know something."
I mean, whaaaat?
Critically important - The pen is mightier than the sword
We all heard that phrase, "The pen is mightier than the sword." and this card perfectly summarizes just how this is and how dangerous it can be.
"Carefully orchestrating the media, you create an insane groundswell of anger, blaming the wealthy and powerful for everything."
Yikes! Perhaps a video titled, "They don't love the poor, they hate the rich." said it best?
"By the way, if you join us, you can live forever. Interested?"
Haha. It's a funny statement because it could be where society will head offering a physical immortality. Or will it only give this to those who could afford it? ...The elite?
Haha! It's funny though.
For those who are afflicted with "existential dread" about such topics... Did you hear about Barbara Streisand having her dead dog cloned?
It revealed something...did it?
The dogs, despite looking like her dog, do not have the defining characteristic as being the original. Which is? Personality.
This should be obvious. Cloning does not = old person. It is merely a copy of the physical form. So really, this lie that "Science" wants to believe in with all it's fictions will reveal themselves won't they?
Identical twins already should have put this silly notion to rest though.
It's an ominous picture. I love how it makes mention of wisdom teeth 'having to come out right now'.
Does anyone want to ask why we need those extractions in the first place? Why not some and why others?
It doesn't matter. It's 'good' to get them removed right? Good for who? The dentist and his pockets maybe?
On a funny note, the prophet Muhammed and his followers chewed a certain 'stick' I believe called Miswak? It helps in preventing cavities. Or does it 'kill'/fight cavities? Not something mouthwash or toothpastes ever accomplished for me before my trip to the dentist.
Ask yourself, if you're not afraid of the backlash that will ensue for asking, "Why if the products on the market are aimed at making your mouth/teeth clean and strong do you even need to get them removed?"
That's not to say though, of course, that teeth don't need cleaning. But do they 'fight' or 'reverse' cavities? No.
So far though, only one of my teeth has needed extraction and it was because food got caught in it and it was difficult to get out. Food sat in there for days on end and sped up its decay.
Yep. We know this all too well. A sort of 'mass madness' or 'craze'. It comes in many forms, but a 'book' will tell you of some great weight loss plan for some $$. Lol.
Get real. We probably eat more from boredom and nervousness or stress. That's totally understandable.
And are 3 meals a day really good?...
Everything that says it's "Science" is believed without question, not because it is true though.
It's become more of a cultural norm now. Because we have in our minds a conviction against religions and their misdeeds in the past, dogmas, rules, etc, we assume the 'right' thing to do is 'believe' Science.
Don't think that's sort of predictable? Now anyone who dares to say something about Science is untrue and you're instantly thought of as stupid.
However, knowing something and believing something are very different aren't they?
"If we knew what we were doing, it wouldn't be research."
This isn't a question of Science or 'not Science'. We have great technological and Scientific advancements that have made life better. Solar energy for one! But there is a real understanding about how it works which is why this idea can manifest.
However, 'studies' and 'research' are done with an intent to prove something and there CAN be conflicts of interest which skew results regardless of them being beneficial or not.
This is Gold! I love how in the design of the mechanics of the card it 'destroys a personality'! Hah! That's freakin' hilarious because it's so true.
Most people are suffering because of ... mostly because? Well, could you ask yourself that question?
This card is great lol.
And it's... weird?
"Any law that uplifts human personality is just. Any law that degrades human personality is unjust." - Rev. Martin Luther King Jr
Seriously, Martin Luther King Jr was much more intelligent than I ever knew.
Fluoride really is a neurotoxin. It is hardly beneficial enough to think drinking it is worth it.
But the CDC (or whoever...) declared it as one of the greatest achievements in health! Haha. Is that not utterly stupid?
More than that, we sure do need plenty of dental exams regardless of this great achievement...
It's extremely true today. Everything is censored that is 'insensitive'.
The image on the right says it all. Being 'hung' for 'using the wrong pronoun' since it is 'insensitive'.
And the guy on the right for 'eating the flesh of dead animals. That basically sums up 'extremist' behavior or philosophies. Doesn't it?
The future is made bleak because of an increasing respect for authority masking itself as 'keepers of peace'. Respect for bad laws is bad and always will be.
I watch and wait as Time drifts myself away
But there is nothing...nothing
We are in a sea of stars,
Fading into the distance
This shaken moment, is perfect to me
Lost in reality
Torn between failure and moving
Lost in reality
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Lyrics - Only This Moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
No one to guide us
Lost in our senses
Deep down inside I know our love will die
Holds us together
Lost in confusion
Feelings are out there
Scared of devotion
Deep down inside I know our love will die
Play or you'll never know
What Heaven decided
You can't deny it's
All you've been waiting for
Play or you'll never know
Your Spirit's divided
You will decide if I'm
All you've been waiting for
By the voice of an Angel revealing her face
And her words they make sense 'n' I do understand
Falling in love isn't part of a plan
I'll try to accept it and not make it worse
'cause I know I might lose it by taking the chance,
(But) love without pain isn't really romance
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Deep down inside I know love will survive
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Genius - There is no such thing as...
I have to say this because I was confused about what someone was telling me about what I had to say about depression. He stated that I "seem to know everything" and well let me look at that statement.
Is there such a thing as knowing everything?
Then is everything that can be known finite? Because something finite has a limit. Something infinite is...?
If it is finite then it is in fact possible to 'know everything'.
With that said, I may not 'know everything' or maybe I might act as if I do, but if I know this, then surely I know more than the average idiot.
Pest Control - Bed Bugs - Rats - Apathy
There's one particular problem with how people treat pest problems and it's that we've been spoiled by modern conviences so much that calling pest control is our first option. We tend to think that this is a good solution too since, after all, it's been effective for treating pests in the past right? Except that with problems like bed bugs and rats, they're not a solution for everyone and the root problem is not really being addressed. More than that, the typical pest control solutions are toxic and dangerous to our environment and even our pets/family.
This is a big issue with me because it seems no matter how many times I try to explain it, the point I'm making seems to go over everyone's head. Bed bugs have become something of an epidemic because the typical method of extermination is to use chemicals or sprays. And since people are so spoiled to have some professional do the job for them, they're highly ignorant to what actually works and what doesn't. However, as I will try to explain it is more than a matter of what 'works'.
For starters, bed bugs to me have spread quickly because it speaks of what has become of our culture on the whole. How did they begin to spread? Well their notorious name 'bed bugs' is fitting since we see they infest mattresses or other sleeping areas very quickly. But why should someone else get bed bugs who isn't even in that house?
When we first got bed bugs it was because we had to take a sofa inside from the streets that someone else threw away. There are two problems with this: one is that we do this as a response to 'being poor' (not true), and two is that the other folks who threw it away should have used a proper method of containment or left a note with a warning on the sofa.
Here we are complaining that we 'need jobs' and yet, our most basic ability to build is largely being underdeveloped and ignored. Building is typically a skill we can expect to get from our fathers or male role models in society. There's another problem that is getting right past our noses. Since the typical male role model today is a thug, gangster, or -- what are you confusing that for typical images of what are thugs and gangsters? I actually mean ...
Let's get to the next point before I start to derail this. The problem that I struggle to get across my point which is: fire and heat are the ultimate means of destroying many diseases and pests. Now, when I hear about people using sprays I just want to pull my hair out. The reason is simple: sprays only kill bed bugs you SEE. The rest are hiding out of sight.
People will tell you who have properly eradicated and dealt with bed bugs that heat is the single most effective method. A professional who knows this can likely rid an entire house of bed bugs by simply heating the surface areas to a certain temperature. This easily destroys bed bugs hiding in many areas behind the walls, in a sofa, under the carpet, etc.
Now, I put 'rats' in the subject line because this also goes in line with people's lack of creative thinking and ignorance of being spoiled. I went outside earlier to notice a single rat trap laying outside the fence of our yard. Inside my head, I am annoyed with how stupid this is. Not only is it inhumane, it is highly ineffective. I mean really, you think it's worth paying for multiple rat traps only to kill a single rat? More than that, rats do not fall for traps once they start to get an understanding of the trap.
In my family, people think using poison is also effective. No! This is far worse. It not only kills rats very slowly and painfully, it also is a trap that does not deter rats. They will still slip by and ignore the poison. Worse is when you have pets in your house who might also come into contact with the poison. Or a small child who we know likes to place random objects and junk they find in their mouth. So this method is extremely stupid. It also negatively effects other wildlife and the ecosystem - double no-no.
So what then? Most people will violently respond and with an ignorant certainty that we HAVE to kill rats because they carry diseases and are dangerous. Yes, this IS true, but we are far more intelligent than this surely! We understand for one, the reason 'traps' work is because the rats are looking for something they need. The population could also be controlled through something which does not harm them, but could also potentially make them sterile and unable to reproduce.
Okay, so why was apathy also in the subject line? In my attempt to control bed bugs in a small apartment I struggled. But what was the struggle for? I was not accustomed to working because I wanted to play an online game with my brother. Was this really wise though? Considering that in our laziness we allowed the problem to grow and cause us to throw away a new futon we had just bought?
At this point, I knew something had to be done. We also bought a brand of spray called CedarCide (the name has changed) which not only didn't kill them all, it was very costly. The spray is effective in other methods of pest control and is very safe and non-toxic, but in this case? That's when I heard about using a steam cleaner to control bed bugs.
Now, this is another point to make, this is not a matter of what 'works' and 'doesn't work', it's a matter of understanding that the problem of bed bugs is how they spread and hide. With a steam cleaner, you can easily clean garments and most furniture while also killing bed bugs. This was a problem for me spending so much time sitting around I was really 'weak' and got tired easily.
This took a lot more work than I realized, but the reason this was so much work was because I was the only one actually steaming vigorously. Everyone else wants to rest and that's totally understandable. However, it is possible to develop a state of mind and gain satisfaction out of working with grace.
To explain the method of steam cleaning and what it entails, most people will get lazy or simply not realize that it becomes an every day effort. Not only do you steam your sleeping area and the carpets, but also your clothes and other belongings. This is a big reason why the problem spreads though. Most have no idea that bed bugs hide everywhere. A simple hand bag or purse you take to work with you? You've probably allowed an infestation to occur where ever you decided to lay it.
In my opinion, this problem is Nature's way of trying to correct our collective apathy and indifference.
Wait... I'm not done talking about this. Hahahahaha
So what else was it that needed to be said? My brother apparently had an infestation in his apartment. His response was to throw Food Grade Diatomaceous Earth everywhere. If you ask, "But doesn't D.E. work?" you haven't been paying attention. This left him to sleep in his bath tub while waiting for the D.E. to do it's thing. The problem with D.E. is that still, it only kills the ones it touches. It also does not kill on contact and apparently takes some time before it actually kills them via dehydration.
What wound up happening was my mom had to come and clean the apartment for him. She then wrapped the sofa in plastic so that he could sleep on it. Now, this is a solution to potentially avoid getting bit, but again it doesn't not solve the problem at its core. There still needs to be involvement from the person who is affected by stripping off their clothes (yep even undies :x) and steaming them all or whatever. Just rise the heat so that it penetrates through surfaces and kills them all. And again, persons need to realize that this problem doesn't go away in a day...
Fuck, this topic is too much and you know what is the easiest thing to do when people have gotten this apathetic and ignorant? Burn... EVERYTHING.
Now, I'll just say this about people who will use C.D. as a means of suggesting mystical or spiritual experiences as merely 'brain chemicals' and it's that that statement in itself is its own emotional denial.
Mystics, once they have the 'God experience', are not shaken by any attempts to call them 'delusional' or 'crazy'.
They will simply assert that it is in fact real.
The temporal lobe is ... still a subject I research, but not as if it were something that explains the mystics experience as something 'chemical' or 'delusional'.
Brain Development and "Weed"
This is one of those topics that annoys me because people stupidly demonize the drug on the grounds of "morality" when no such thing is really the concern. It's more about defending their hatred of people who they don't like to see "high" when they themselves are stressed out.
How do I know that? Because I can be that person. But never have I stupidly thought "weed" was to blame.
There are key parts to point in that article which states that the "damage" to the brain is not at all causal. That's how they want to play this game though. It just adds to people's fears and ignorance.
I would argue that the development of the brain is highly dependent on the individual and their impairment to the drug is relative to their lack of will.
As an example, there was a friend of my brother's who used to smoke often. He was very high performing in his school and very articulate. Unfortunately, he died at a young age from what I was told to a gunshot.
In contrast to this my nephew is pretty hard to communicate with at times and some of his abilities in school are lacking. He smokes weed and uses other drugs, but he's always been a little difficult to communicate with beforehand. However, I would argue that using the drug gives him an advantage because the brain CAN repair.
This idea though that the drug is bad on the developing brain is a front to continue to demonize the drug further.
More so, there is nothing "wrong" with someone "getting high". Anymore than there could be something wrong with someone indulging in sweets/watching tv/playing video games/etc...
"So politicians must be drunks considering they have to be brain dead to oppose the legalization of marijuana.
I start to think we're making progress but then I read a story about MD State Troopers busting down doors, killing family pets and leaving the families zip tied on the floor while they ransack the household only to find marijuana dust."
edit note 3/8/2018:
There's also the problem that there are different strands of cannabis. Every individual will differ how they respond to the drug. Also, there is a particular substance that can counter the 'high' effect from THC. When adminstering the drug for cancer treatments only a small dose is given anyhow. After time, the person builds resistance to its effects and typically the high effect is dull.
Because I'm tired of people thinking depression is a chemical imbalance
And it doesn't seem like this idea has rooted itself deep enough for people to really understand it. They just ignorantly think, "Oh, I've got a chemical imbalance". Sorry. I won't even begin to explain how stupid this is. Perhaps even dishonest to the persons who tell this to themselves and then want the rest of us to believe it.
“I’m on medication because I have a chemical imbalance in my brain.”
How many times have we either heard or uttered that or a similar phrase? I believed and repeated it ad nauseam. Why? Because it had become a part of the conversation surrounding mental health and wellness. Convenient, succinct and simplistic in its view of mental illness, the phrase and belief caught fire and permeated our consciousness.
There’s only one problem: It hasn’t been proven to be true."
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Bunk Ass Science?
"But Dr. Fang worries that the situation could be become much more dire if nothing happens soon. “When our generation goes away, where is the new generation going to be?” he asked. “All the scientists I know are so anxious about their funding that they don’t make inspiring role models. I heard it from my own kids, who went into art and music respectively. They said, ‘You know, we see you, and you don’t look very happy.’"
Just following orders? Just doing a job?
"Why Heirloom and Open Pollinated seeds? That is a very important question today. Heirloom and open pollinated seeds and their preservation and continuation are vital to the future of us all. As more and more seeds are being genetically modified these days, and hybrids are flooding the market, true-to-type home grown heirloom and open pollinated seeds are in danger of extinction. Some of the major seed companies want to control the seed market and force people to return to them for their vegetable garden seeds.
We must not allow this trend to win out. Hybrids and GMOs are geared to modern agriculture’s mass productions. They aim to produce higher yields and more uniform size and maturity times of fruits and plants. These features do not matter to the average home-gardener or small market grower. In this focus on breeding for specific characteristics that is geared to mass production, much has been lost in the flavor and nutrition department, with unhealthy side effects for us all."
The Creator and Reality
While I like what Alan Watts was saying in a particular video... I had to make this remark...
"Well...I have to disagree with the notion that you create the Universe because that is logically absurd.
The Creator is responsible for Creation. And I think it should follow that the Universe is also His.
It's a good talk, but the Creator needs some acknowledgement or otherwise we are struggling in vain to believe that we are somehow "creating" what we see.
We only have so little control over anything. The only thing we can truly control is ourselves which is where the real battle is."
"It's 'impossible' for a cavity to heal"?
The Gita - Karma - The Supreme
It seems strange, to me, that I had to search up Karma and how the Bhagavad Gita explains Karma.
Well, it was pretty simple. Keep going. Do what you do whether or not you are rewarded or praised. Don't waste time worrying about praise.
But what was strange exactly?
"It does not matter if he is righteous or not so long as he is devoted to The Supreme."
That was written as an interpretation and ... well, do I really have to explain why that is strange? In respect to the poem I named "The Supreme"? In which I applied an image to just what even "The Supreme" is?... And of course added with the fact that I only thought of it because of In The End.
Psalm 91:1 - Why?
This one? Because it was written somewhere...
Lol. But I swear to you! I'm not... "religious". You know?...
Standard of care in hospitals
So, it obviously couldn't have been just me who thought getting woken up several times in the night at the hospital was unhelpful.
Apparently, there is virtually no evidence that this helps so it shouldn't be done. By the third day of being woken up frequently I was quite frustrated and had a massive headache.
"In fact, data shows that close to half of patients are unnecessarily awakened for such checks, perhaps to the detriment of their recovery. My patient wanted to know how, with all that poking and prodding, he was supposed to rest and get better.
“I understand your frustration,” I replied, “and wish I could help to change the situation.”
I may have been a lowly intern, but it was a feeble reply. And he knew it. “Understanding is not enough,” he said. “You should be doing something to help fix this system.”
Holy Water is real?
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Spiritual Teachers - Hans Wilhelm and Teal Swan
Now, I don't want to beat on this topic too much. I just want to highlight these particular teachers and their lectures/teachings online.
And I want to ask you to decide for yourself how do they make you feel? Maybe some of the ideas are "out there" to many people. But how do they make you feel?
Hans I find a great deal of comfort and understanding from when listening to his teachings. Teal Swan there is a sense of wonder and also relaxation.
I want to share one of their videos which I think are really great.
Also, I want to share Dr. Peter Breggin with anyone who can maintain an open mind about the psych drug industry. He has several videos which he gives his expert opinion on psych matters (which are still demonized today) and all for free.
There was also mention about something which I think is important to note about psych drugs. It's that originally they didn't call them "anti"-"insert mental malady here" drugs, but they were only separated into two categories. I forget, but basically either it's a sedative (lowers brain function ? ) or an 'upper' (increases brain function ?). That's a big deal, because to me it's as if they can make it appear as if they were actually designed to target specific mental problems. Right, is that why they try to get you doped up on several different drugs even if you're not diagnosed with the diseases those drugs are meant to target?
Whoops! I'll shut up now. I'm being "immoral" for suggesting playing with your brain chemistry isn't at all a dangerous game. So long as the authorities are doing it, it is all perfect and blue badge worthy right?
Oh, and while we are on the subject of chemicals and people suggesting that spiritual experiences are simply "chemicals" creating some experience for you. Hold on, stop...think...
It's like Timothy Leary pointed out: the chemicals are what allow for the experience. They are themselves NOT the experience nor are they simply deceptive in that manner. Anyway, why should it not be that people who are constantly in other states of mind are not perhaps "undeveloped"? That is an actual term in regards to spirituality is development.
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James Holden - Nothing - Lyrics (Just ...because)
Don't you know it's gone too wrong?
How could it have come to this?
We're dying, trying
It's a long way down
But no one in this crowd
Can stop me hitting the ground
'Cos now I've got nothing to hold the falling
So how can I survive this sinking feeling?
Tell me there is more than this
'Cause you've got the best there is
And I want nothing
You Walk Away - tyDi feat. Audrey Gallagher
With the night behind you
You walk away, and I will find you
We are locked in this emotion
We will find the way home
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
And it's too late
To remember all the words we say
Nothing will ever be the same
When the world surrounds you
You take your place with me, behind you
These are every word unspoken
This is our way home
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
When the world surrounds you
You walk away..
And it's too late
To regret the mistakes we made
Easier to walk away
And it's too late
[To remember] all the words we say
Nothing will ever be the same
Trance - Divine
Resonant frequencies to treat ailments?! No way!
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Videos for when your feeling "overloaded"
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$cience is the new religion of our day
Well, apart from talking about how corrupt businesses and big companies help to dictate what people "know" (collective belief), I would also like to point out this sort of radical conclusive thinking people are doing everywhere.
Recently, during the winter season, my mother sent me a text saying, "Why is the flu so bad this year?". This was highly frustrating because it seems silly to say this while also not getting the flu ourselves. Nor do we know anyone who was affected. More frustrating is the fact that I have been stating tirelessly that these statistics are blown up all to support an agenda to make money.
Before you jump the gun and start shouting that people are "immoral" (really?) for not getting flu shots you need to consider all the facts first. One is that the flu itself is over diagnosed
If you examine the most recent "flu outbreak" what you'll find is this staggering number of 67,000 some odd deaths to "flu and pneumonia". Wait a second. Why are they lumping up flu and pneumonia together? Yes, it is true that people can develop pneumonia when they get the flu - but why relate the two? Perhaps because it inflates the numbers and most people who gloss over these numbers give it little consideration.
What they don't tell you with statistics is quite a big deal as to what is actually going on. Guess what? Those 67,000 some odd deaths to pneumonia and "flu"? Only 18 (!) were confirmed to actually have the flu. More so, it does not even confirm that they died to the flu or even pneumonia. People sometimes will die to complications that can result from underlying conditions or weak immune systems.
Here is something else they don't tell you about the great medicinal achievement that is the "flu shot". It's that there is evidence to suggest that as you continue to get flu shots you actually potentially make your immune system worse. Is that really a good trade-off? Especially when you consider that the flu shot is not even effective at preventing the flu. Couple that with the fact that most people who develop flu-like symptoms aren't even inflicted with the flu. However, they will possibly be diagnosed as having the flu and as a result the "flu outbreak" will appear worse than it is.
The other problem I have is that this information puts you pretty close to the conspiracy theorist camp. This is serious annoying since there is nothing being said here about some group of people who are in the government or at some round table smoking cigars and plotting world domination. It reveals that people have a tendency to make radical conclusions and assumptions based on preconceived knowledge - pretty much a bias.
Of course, that does not mean that any information that comes from conspiracy theorist websites or channels should be disregarded without investigation. And that's the big problem! These biases that people have now a days is actually a misperceived form of "being intelligent". It's this radical form of "I've heard this nonsense before" conclusive thinking that people do everywhere. They don't even bother to REALLY look and ask the hard questions. It's a matter of going with the masses to avoid being one of the "stupid ones". So long as they're not seen as being stupid, who cares if you're right or wrong?
Just look at the language people use when they write articles about "anti-vaxxers" and you'll see it's ridden with veiled derogatory statements about a certain subset of people to be called "anti-vaxxers". It's bordering on hate speech that assumes "their side" is superior to the other guys who are just "loons". They'll even fit it up with memes which suggest people like "us" are "stupid" since we don't have the most basic logic or understand "Science".
Actually, the general person who comes into contact with this information will be ill-equipped to go against the crowds of people who will bombard you with insults and $cientific studies. That's because it takes a very lengthy period of time to research to really get ALL the facts and REALLY understand it. More than that, the average person simply wants to know if it is worth their time and doesn't want to have to spend hours of their life defending THEIR CHOICE to not vaccinate.
That's another thing. It's BEEN a choice not to vaccinate and was even allowed as long as a person got an exempt form (in the case of schools). But people who do this will probably get treated like the "witches" from the Salem trials for commiting this egregious crime of avoiding vaccination. "Those damn people are immoral!". The immorality card being played here is just... I have no words for that at present. Just to demonstrate the level of frustration about this because it is pretty damn tiring. No one should have to spend their life defending themselves for other people acting like uncontrolled sheep.
Oh and this last winter I got sick maybe 3 times. Didn't catch no flu either. My grandma doesn't even vaccinate and got pneumonia (and we were told the flu) the year before last. She is about 80 years old now I think and guess what? She didn't die nor did any other unvaccinated person get sick.
"Oh but that's anectdotal evidence. It doesn't count."
Right. What the fuck ever. Evidence is evidence, period. My whole point is: telling us ALL to vaccinate when the threat is non-existent is a damn waste of resources and money. Why stop there though? Hey, let's all put on rubber suits when there is an incoming storm so we can avoid the potential death from lightning striking us.
What's more, you'd think in this age of "Science and Reason" we'd have more effective means at destroying diseases so as not to fear getting sick anyway. Claiming the vaccines as some great medical achievement is just plain silly when the stats show it NOT to be true at all. Nor is a vaccine in any way "medicine" or "preventive". If we want to pretend we're advanced then getting sick with something as old as the flu should be treated as it were the common cold. As it is, the flu tends to be mild for many people. The symptoms last for only a few days and then you're left with a nagging cough for an extended period.
I'd like to show some videos of probably the greatest breakthrough (with visual EVIDENCE) in treating diseases (even cancer!).
People denying the $$ as a major part of what is ruling what people "see" and "believe" today though. Gah! Can't seem to stress about it enough. As an example, people are so thrown by what they believe is Science, that they think the latest "Cancer Cure" is some sign that the industry is "benevolent" and really working hard. Haha. Except that the "Cure" does not work on all types of cancers nor is it 100% effective. And who knows if there aren't perhaps other unforeseen repercussions that could result from playing with what they're playing with?
To top it all off though is that the "Cure" costs a whopping $475,000 dollars! So you might as well die anyway since we can probably assume most who have cancer don't have half a damn mil sitting around their living space. But hey, $cience is doing all it can for us! Meanwhile, cheap and effective treatments which don't involve the barbaric practice of cutting organs are disregarded - even though the results are CLEAR. Doctors will simply pretend those people who cure themselves are just "lucky".
Meanwhile, the masses will continue to go along with this without a second thought. Since we all know that going against the accepted norm makes you extremely vulnerable and subject to constant ridicule. Just look at what happened on this television show "The Drs" (the ass clowns is more like it...) when a mother came on the show to tell her story of her son beating cancer... with cannabis oil.
The mother was quite stunned that using cannabis oil she was able to shrink her sons tumors. This is not the first time this has happened in our era, but when this information continues to get suppressed? Yeah, it seems like a big deal when otherwise it should be second nature.
Here is where I get frustrated. The "Drs" on this show started to "cast a spell" over their audience. They went out of their way to explain that, oh you know, it's just that we need "more trials" and "more evidence" before we can go ahead and say it's an effective treatment. Suuuure. That's all it is. Then of course the head ass clown has to ignorantly state that he's worried about "brain damage" from people using cannabis oil. Huh?! What a freaking ass monkey.
But hey, that's the point of being the "authority" when you get labelled as a "doctor" your word is THE law and is to be believed without question. So what was their next step in this silly circus show of mind-numbing ass clown sorcery? It was to discredit people taking health into their own hands by using "natural" medicine.
How did they achieve this silly spell they cast over their audience? They went on to talk about people doing a liver cleanse and how "immoral" it is. (There that stupid misplaced concept!) [blood pressure rising] It is "immoral" to try to take your health into your own hands? Sorry, why do you think people are doing this IN THE FIRST PLACE? It's because the ass clown doctors of our day are failing on their damn job. PERIOD.
And do we want to talk about immoral while these buffoons who are not educated in health and nutrition are sailing the carribeans drinking their martinis with their friends on their expensive yacht? Sounds like some generalization? It was at first, but there are apparently real caring doctors who said that this what they ACTUALLY DO. So I guess I'm not wrong about that!
Anyway, I went off a little bit. Their whole game on that show was to paint people forming their own movements treating people with holistic medicine and food as being "dangerous". [blood pressure rising again] They achieved this and had the audience gasping when they said that a person who tried a liver cleanse suffered liver damage.
My reaction admittedly was, "Oh my God!", but that's the power people who are in authority have when they use their words in that way. So I thought about it again, "Wait. Liver damage?" Now it is isn't to downplay the fact that liver damage isn't serious in any way, but! Their wording and tone made it sound as if he DIED or was hospitalized indefinitely. That's the key thing to note. Liver damage itself is reversible (if I remember right... pretty sure or my uncle who had cirrhosis of the liver would not have recovered?).
Either way, this game is pretty one-sided the way they try to play it and it's pretty damn annoying. I'm not trying to set up a "doctor" vs "no doctor" scenario or "natural" vs "synthetic/modern medicine". That's another subject to talk about. These things could coincide and coexist, but doctors simply refuse to believe diseases can be reversed or cured without expensive treatments or surgeries.
Okay, I rambled again and went away from a point I had in mind. Is it unsafe to play with information without a doctors supervision? Yes, surely it is. But the problem is most doctors have big egos and their heads up their ass so they aren't going to consider alternative [blood pressure rising again] means of treatment.
My blood pressure goes up because that's yet another point to point out. It's only "alternative" to the "accepted standard". If it were commonplace to treat people with food or natural remedies then it wouldn't be "alternative". There's the thing to note. When you get sick and go to the ER sometimes what is it that they do for some ailments? They'll put you on a strict diet. Unfortunately, with horrible hospital food it isn't a pleasant diet that you'd be eating.
As an example, recently I had a tooth that chipped and was causing pain from an infection that radiated all the way to the front of my jaw. So what did I do? I didn't have the money, nor did I even WANT to go to the dentist again. I searched natural remedies for cavities. Lo and behold! The information was at my fingertips that Organic Coconut Oil has the antibacterial properties to fight cavities. Couple this with Clove Essential Oils anti-...properties (forgot what but it's potent!) it effectively cured the infection and the pain subsided within a matter of days.
(Note: The example is not related to the paragraph before. Sorry for that confusion. The example I'm giving is related to how people tend to believe only doctors or dentists "cure" us. Or -- forgot. But anyway.)
Every day I try now to do "Oil Pulling" using Coconut Oil and my tooth is still free from needing extraction. More than that, it apparently reverses the damage that cavities can cause. Some people will share their stories on youtube and even show you their x-ray scans of their teeth to prove it. [scoffs] But you know, that's just "not enough" for duh-masses.
What was I saying again? Whatever! The point is is that my teeth are cleaner and commercial products are simply unneccessary and costly. Your health is worth so much more than a fancy sports car or even a mansion. If it weren't then they wouldn't try to drive costs for those Angelic "Cancer Cures" on the "market". [blood pressure rising]
More to say, but the the thing is I knew I was taking a risk by using Coconut Oil and Clove Oil and trying to evade the dentist. But what made me think it was a risk worth taking? Because I TRUSTED the information I was given wasn't lying to me for gain. There was simply nothing to lose by simply trying and then if it failed I would just go to the dentist.
But it occurred to me a long time ago! WHY if these "anti-cavity" toothpastes are really "cavity" killers aren't they working before your trip to the dentist? Nope. Don't think like that though! You'll get looked at like you are trying to warp space-time right before their eyes and pull a damn donkey out of the clouds.
Again, don't think though that this is a matter of "natural" or "modern medicine" and start buying everything out there that says it's "good for you". It takes a bit of time and research first. Sometimes, it is a risk that can be dangerous. The state of everyone's health is different because our bodies are different.
I don't recommend anyone do this willy-nilly, but I'm drinking Baking Soda (1/2 tsp) dissolved in a glass of water on an empty stomach at night. This is just a risk I'm taking personally to try to combat those tumors. If it works? Great. But it does come with some risk. And that's another thing that gets frustrating is people suggesting it "cures" cancer. [blood pressure only subtly rising and declining rapidly]
Whew. Enough for now!
"Death" is a blessing - but...
It's a burning question. Is death a blessing? For many caught up in the whirlwinds of the world and chasing their dreams, probably not.
Before I share the articles and research on this subject I want to remark on the one particular element which I think is important in people's NDE/OBEs. It's the very fact that sometimes when people "cross over" they're told to "go back". That I think should let people know there is definitely work to be done here and it isn't for nothing.
The article (I would THINK) should relieve doubt that the experiences are not merely "hallucinations" because people don't like to think there is "nothing". The reasoning for that is very simple.
Well, I forgot where it was, but there was an experiment that was done on someone who was blindfolded. They induced "death" (forget how) and the results showed that the person was able to perfectly detail the environment they were in without any knowledge of the environment itself.
Long Absence - Lots to say and sort out
But rather than say much I just wanna share this video and poems of how it makes me feel. If I can even describe it.
But I want to point out a misattributed quote to Chester Bennington. I misread it as being his words, but it was someone else. Either way, it feels as if he might have well have said it or thought it at some point.
The Great Animator
Why bother trying so hard?
Can't you see the endless horizon?
The Glory of Creation
The Cosmic Wheel turns, unending
Its just so simple!
Life as it is!
It is everything!
It's just the way it does
Illuminating the valleys and canyons
Bringing forth shades of red and brown
While the clouds roll across the cerulean sky
Passing over the white ever-shining Sun
Creating myriad rays of brilliant light
Dancing on the ocean surface
Blossoming the evergreen fields
Mass Shootings - Suicides - Death and Psychiatric drugs
You know, everyone loves to give credit to psychiatric drugs for their ability to temporarily relieve symptoms of anxiety/stress/psychosis, but to hail them as "safe" or effective is questionable.
Temporary relief from symptoms does not alleviate the cause of those symptoms.
Yeah, and they can say that the idea that these articles are just biased, uneducated, and "dangerous", they should try to challenge them in a place where they won't be getting back-up.
And if they're so sure they shouldn't have any problem in listening to the other side since their knowing (if it existed) was predicated on fact and not perceived knowledge.
That's always a problem. This is true of both sides.
Should the establishment really pretend that just because they make "safer" drugs is somehow a way to exonerate them of any wrong-doing?
Isn't it that what they're reallly doing is damage control? Just to keep their foot in the door?
And perhaps what is most frustrating is that if you say you're experiencing symptoms of what you personally feel to be a spiritual awakening, you're regarded as psychotic. "You need to get on meds!"
That is not evidence that because some people are psychotic that others who may be undergoing spiritual awakening are to be looked at and treated the same.
Just because people would agree with the other that spiritual awakening doesn't exist does not mean the person is right. Nor should it be seen that because you can't find people to agree with you (about spiritual awakening) that you're wrong.
Why am I so adamantly against these drugs? It isn't that I am exactly. But they are definitely overprescribed by doctors who are highly irresponsible. They do cause harm and it's not an unfounded fear or "paranoia" to not trust some people.
And personally, if someone wants to shove them down my throat it is my right to deny those drugs. It's against people's personal liberty to force drugs on them. Is that to say that sometimes they're not necessary? Bah screw it. I'm not answering that.
Also, I want to say that the only thing that enlivens or emboldens me is to find that there ARE good people out there. Which is the only thing that picks me up more so than anything else when I'm "down".
MLK - Stressed Heart
8. After his death, King's autopsy found that while he was just 39 years old, he had the heart of a 60-year-old. Doctors concluded the pressure he had experienced in his career had stressed and aged his heart.
I can't imagine why?...
Now you can go and look around if you want
But you're not going to find it
Not by opening a jewelry box
By putting on a fancy pair of clothes
Drowning out sorrow with bitter hatred
Smiling behind a wall of sadness
Hiding away misery with bottles of liquor
Collecting the newest gadgets on the market
Polishing your expensive car
Swimming in a sea green paper
All of that when compared to that which is like real gold.
Is actually worth even less than copper?...
So, I'm starting to hit a point now where I can not shake "the sadness". What's worse about this is the feeling like everything is faling down on you.
Just now a PS4 went missing from the house and it raised questions as to who took it and sold it.
There's a number of things that just adds to how sick it makes me feel, but it really starts weighing down on me even more.
For starters, there is the feeling someone is lying.
The second thing is that even after exposing them, then what?
That's what I can't stand. It's like everyone just wants to convict someone. My mother would not shut the hell up about "Finding out who took it" after someone who possibly was lying got off the hook.
Then the blame shifted to my cousin and some story was said that I didn't even hear happened. So I got pissed at my mom (in a text) and said the fuck it matters who took it? It doesn't change shit anyway.
Then, I said, "I can't wait to fucking die" because quite literally this shit gets old and depressing. It's like people would rather fight instead of helping people that need it now.
So her response to me was that I was being dramatic. Wow! Coming from the stupidest dramatic family on the planet? (that's debatable - I know)
Worse, I can't stop bitching lately. I mean I feel like the fuck? Who cares? No one gives a shit about shit anymore.
They want to bitch about "drug" problems and that's the problem with their kids. Like, no - it's this fucking two-faced society.
They needed help for real issues back in the day. But what help did they get? What support did they get when they needed it most? They didn't.
Really, I hope I do have cancer (and I said this somewhere else) because this place is fucking turning into a shit hole.
Bad Logic: Small Rant
People use bad logic everywhere and it is perhaps the main driving factor for responsive and irrational behavior.
As an example of bad logic, people who will defend the anti-vaxxer position tend not to counter claims with evidence and instead respond with, "It's the new world order! Wake up sheeple!".
So naturally the response from the pro-vaxxer side is to say, "See! These people are nutters! I'm so glad I'm not on that side!".
But then we run into yet another example of bad logic. All people who are "anti-vaxxers" are also conspiracy nutters.
Another example of more bad logic that stems from that is:
"Government is bad! So therefore it is logical to hate all branches of government."
Some people know this isn't true. But when you're bombarded with people's comments who are already ready to throw you into the conspiracy nutter camp, you get frustrated because you know at that point nothing you say, true or not, will be heard.
Government is not the whole of the issue. Businesses behind the government/media are what run everything. It's a little bit of a chore to continue to have to re-state this. What's worse though, is that my opinions tend to lean towards this side of "government wipe out". Because of that, I am assumed to be ignorant of "how the world works".
Bad logic breakdown:
"You're with so and so? Then you're a so and so! And so and so's are crazy!"
"All information coming from that site is bad! That person lied so all information there is also lies!"
"You like so and so? So then you also like so and so?"
"You quoted Buddha? You're a Buddhist?"
"You're a Buddhist? You don't agree with Christians then?"
edit in: Another example is assuming because people on one side can be irrate then that side must be wrong. Rather than see, that irrate people exist on either side. They're an embarrassment to both sides equally.
It is a question of making sure that everyone understands something individually rather than let people like that have a word when they should remain silent and listen. As an example, you'll see people attacking the anti-vaxx stance against people who are not using evidence of science to back them up and as such conclusions are drawn that all people on this side are like that.
"Anti-vaxxers are immoral! We have the studies to prove it!"
"Oh my god you're a sheep! Wake up! New world order gonna get us all!"
"Hey man - new world order is a real thing man, you shouldn't make fun."
"And what a shit job you're doing. Great work, producing mindless warriors who are irrate and can't learn to discuss reasonably and give everyone the illusion that people are just idiots who look into these things."
You know. This stuff is very tiring. That's not even all the examples that could be given. Internet save us all!
But yeah, it's frustrating for people to make wild assumptions about you because of some things you said here and there. Because you may agree with something here, but disagree with something there, you're already belonging to some group of people by their lack of understanding.
What else was there to say? ... Can't anyone see how silly these tired arguments are?
Edit: "People who use drugs are irresponsible! Drugs are bad! No one should use drugs!"
Yes. Everyone who uses drugs simply can't have their "shit together". Not everyone is the damn same.
"She should try to convince researchers instead of people without education."
Oh What a great idea!. Let's examine that.
Convincing people without education. Hmm? Isn't that basically the general public?
Isn't it basically that everything everyone sees on television is basically them being convinced of what they see without question?
"The biggest argument you'll encounter on the Anti-Vax trail is that if you question vaccines, "you're a proponent of pseudo-science." However, the evidence to back that statement just isn't there. No matter how much that comment may bother you, keep in mind that there have been no studies to date conducted on individual vaccine ingredients, the safety of injecting the FDA limit of aluminum for adults into an infant, or vaccine bundles. There have been no studies whatsoever on the current CDC vaccine schedule, yet they push it as universal; as if everyone's body is the exact same. Ask any Pro-Vaxxer if they can show you the studies.
They will not be able to.
Really, the only studies that have been performed are notoriously biased. The CDC admits that most of the studies that "proved" safety were performed by a current FBI fugitive. Not kidding. He's on the run for stealing money from the testing grants for his own personal use. Similar to what Dr. Wakefield was condemned for; yet the CDC continues to use the study results as biblical truth."
- Matt from foodforthought.com
That's not even the whole thing. This shit is tiring already. -_- God bless anyone who can deal with this on a bigger scale.
This was a response to someone assuming people who listen and are informed and choose to make their own decisions (a right that all should have?) are gullible, uneducated morons.
"And for the record, the people who listen to Dr Humphries are educated. Maybe you could not draw a radical conclusion not founded in reality by first proving that everyone who listens to Dr Humphries is some kind of ignorant, gullible, drooling idiot? You know, if that’s what you believe, then go out and get background information on every individual and see if you’re right.
But if you’re going by that logic then everyone who watches t.v. generally IS uneducated and as such are susceptible to everything they see to be regarded as truth aren’t they?
But then you’re also making the assumption that people who are “educated” are at the height of all knowing and are not susceptible to being wrong ever?
Having an education does not end after college. It simply gives you a foot in the door to become an unquestioned authority. It warrants a person a certain kind of power over the non-educated to become their sheep.
Whoops. Let me try that again.
Education does not end after college because if it did then all discussions would be void and pointless since we’re going to assume there is nothing else to know at that point.
Scientific studies are very much prone to bias of the Scientists who perform them.
Just the other day I found an article showing that very thing where a Scientist even put out fraudulent studies just because she couldn’t bear the thought of being wrong.
So, if you want to believe what you want, just because it goes around with the name of “Science” by all means, have at it.
If you want to conclude me as being “this or that”, by all means, you’re just proving that people don’t think before they react.
I am not exactly on either side. But there are plenty of questions that should be looked at without jumping to conclusions just because a majority have the habit of doing that and it “appears” to be right to do so."
I don't need your trophies or your gold!
Diagnosis - A cluster of Symptoms
This is all that a diagnosis is basically.
When it comes to mental diseases though, we mostly refer to behavior.
Why is this important? I'm out of thinking fuel.
It should be obvious.
But mostly I want to say again, Life is a sorcery and language is the catalyst which provides the world with its illusion - it's holding magic.
Sounds like mad talk? Whatever. Sleep with the rest.
Just waiting for it
The Cataclysm of Light
The Great Divide
The Final Act
The Supreme, the Ultimate
"Your opinion is not valid - you're not a doctor"
V. Your opinion isn't valid, since you're just a nobody with no medical or scientific background.
Well, thanks.. by that logic I'll disregard anything you say from here on out. Apparently having a fully functional brain isn't enough anymore; I must be indoctrinated for at least 8 years to believe what the system wants me to believe. Despite the overwhelming amount of knowledge you can achieve from spending thousands of hours googling vaccines(I have), I apparently can't think my way out of a bubble.
But just for good measure, here are some truly educated people who you should really pay attention to. They've devoted their lives and even jeopardized their careers to researching and finding the truth:
5a. Have fun trying to dismantle the comprehensive information put together by Dr. Moskowitz:
5b. Like her or not, Dr. Humphries is brilliant, and has thanklessly jeopardized her career to find the truth:
5c. Dr. Tenpenny is probably the most hated doctor in the country, but that will never change the fact that she's brilliant, and has figured out some truly amazing things that have been suppressed from us:
5d. You could just kill two birds with one stone, and show them an article featuring both Dr. Humphries and Dr. Tenpenny:
5e. Dr Seneff, a very experienced scientist at MIT, has a brilliant take on how vaccines can cause autism:
5f. A comprehensive look at the topic by Dr. Mercola, the leading naturalist in the country:
5g. I've saved the best for last. Here's a sucker punch right to the nose of your debate opponent. Dr. Haley, a renowned University of Kentucky scientist, destroys vaccine poster boy Paul Offit in this virtual rebuttal:
Flower Power - Literally
Flowers really do have a psychological effect.
It should be the aim of every home to increase the "green" and flowers in it.
Every organization out there (religious or otherwise) should take note and make an effort to effectively decorate spaces with flowers.
And maybe some Buddha statues.
Daytona - Town of Day
Waking up too early!
It's nice to wake up in the morning.
What isn't nice to wake up to is discord. And especially after only 3-4 hours sleep...
What starts to go through my head is, "Why?! Everyday it's the same bullshit and WHY does it continue?".
Everyone is responsible to everyone else. However, what that means is so much more than, "I put a roof over your head.".
What it means is learning to teach people how to respond by responding intelligently to people.
So when I go on the net and I see no one illuminating anyone on anything... it gets frustrating. This IS a big part of why these things continue.
The internet should be a place where people can have civil and reasoned discourse without the throwing of stones or calling for people's heads to be cut. Unfortunately, it hasn't allowed people to get past any of their biases.
It came to my attention that Jenny McCarthy was supporting anti-vaxxers and what happened? She got onslaughted by the media and internet warriors who just can't help but call people, "stupid, ignorant, immoral.." whatever.
She never even said she was totally for the idea, only that it should be considered. But Nooooooooooooo. Even with the great internet to help save us from people's irrational responsive behavior do we use it's great power to do justice to an issue that has been plaguing the human race since God knows when.
That simple solution is: reasonable discourse.
We HARDLY see this anywhere. All we see is people supporting their bias. That... includes the anti-vaxxer crowd. However, much of what the anti-vaxxer crowd is saying SHOULD be considered before stones are thrown.
But what's this got to do with waking up discord in the house?
It just reminds me of how the internet has turned into this cesspool of narcissism and irresponsibility thanks to idiots wanting to be "youtube stars" so they can "make bank" and rest easy with a job that can't really be called a job. It's just mindless, dull, entertainment that has no real value to humanity and even increases unrest in the world.
What people should be taught is that they don't know anything first and foremost and so should listen to the other side. But NOPE! Conclusions are drawn and guns start flinging.
Oh right, I got sidetracked. Discord in the house includes:
Waking up hearing older brother moaning to himself from toothache that he refuses to get help for.
Kids arguing with each other.
Oh but kids are just "like that"? You know, I'm not trying to brag, but NOT AROUND ME THEY AREN'T. They LEARN this because they don't have PROPER ROLE MODELS showing them how EASY it is to do BASIC things around the house! That you can just easily get what you need and not make a fuss.
But NOOO we have the "adults" who do this kind of behavior day in and day out which teaches them to behave in the same way.
Grandma getting barked at by the dog and she doesn't understand why. So, I responded to her when she attempted to get him a treat for his bad behavior, "He'll stop doing that when YOU stop doing that.". She listened and didn't go for the treat.
Don't think she's some helpless old lady... She -- forget it. Not important. I mean it is only to alleviate any sort of idea that I'm being a bastard, but since it will fuel someone else's perspective about -- I forgot what I was getting at...
Right. Anyway, the older brother problem is a problem because:
Conspiracy nuts. Yeah. It doesn't matter if there is truth to any of that stuff. It reinforced his idea that government is bad and --
Again I get lost. But the point is is that everyone everywhere needs to learn HOW to respond to people. The internet allows us this great opportunity to get the ship sailing smoothly everywhere, but it's just not being used for that purpose. And how people respond to my older brother is a big part of the reason he is how he is. Also, because of worthless scoundrels like Alex Jones leading hoards of people headfirst into a lion's den without any weapons besides blind anger.
Really, if I could I would just take these kids into my care and get them properly educated. That doesn't fucking mean they "finish school", it means that they learn how to interact and how to listen.
Fucking internet stars making the human race worse, I swear to fucking ---
Have a nice day.
edit: Because I know people will jump the gun and say I'm 'anti-school' or whatever let me explain. I am not anti-school. It's just that the job of 'education' does not end after you graduate.
Let's consider this: Anti-Vaccine
When you think of the long and gloomy history of man, you find more hideous crimes have been committed in the name of obedience than have ever been committed in the name of rebellion."
I am a recently retired paediatrician with no vested interests in vaccines. Your site is dangerous and mischievous. Vaccines are recommended by the Health Departments of EVERY country in the world and by the WHO because their benefits greatly outweigh their risks and because they work. The only people apart from you guys who seem to be strongly against vaccination are the Taliban- nice company for you. Diseases such as Type C meningococcal sepsis and HIB meningitis which used to be commonplace in paediatric wards 25 years ago have been virtually eliminated within a couple of years of widespread vaccination. Polio has been almost eradicated worldwide and smallpox has actually gone. Measles and mumps (almost universal diseases during my training) are now rarities and congenital rubella is virtually non-existent. All of these, and more are so obviously related to vaccine introduction that it is unbelievable that you have concocted arguments disputing efficacy. No vaccine can be introduced without clear evidence of efficacy and safety. How many deaths will you be responsible for in your gullible readership?
[ED: Dr Primhak, you have chosen to come to this website to post unsubstantiated claims in an emotional style which is a tad less than professional and measured.
Let us examine them.
We notice you have come to the “Read Me” page to make your comments, rather than having read any of the content and then commenting on that, with substantiation for your claims.
You say you are a “recently retired paediatrician“. Do you mean by that you have given up all employment in the medical field or do you mean you have changed your mode of employment and are still engaged in some way in medicine?
You say you have “no vested interests in vaccines“. Do you mean by that that you have never administered vaccines to any child or adult?
If you have told your patients or their parents that vaccines are all safe and effective then you have an interest. You could thereby have breached your legal and professional duties to your patients, could be liable for legal action for damages for battery and, should any suffer adverse reactions, damages for personal injury.
Now, you say this “site is dangerous and mischievous“.
But it is without doubt dangerous and mischievous for a medical professional to tell the public vaccines are safe and effective when that is not true. And that is what you have done here. That is unsatisfactory Dr Primhak.
You also say “Vaccines are recommended by the Health Departments of EVERY country in the world and by the WHO because their benefits greatly outweigh their risks and because they work.”
Now we are seeing numerous reports of whooping cough vaccine and mumps vaccines failures with large numbers of vaccinated individuals developing clinical whooping cough and mumps, the latter predominantly in adults, putting them at risk of sterility.
We have also seen MMR vaccine failure in the NE and NW of England last year, with health officials making lots of noise about Wales to distract from all the vaccinated children getting measles in the North of England.
So is that what you mean by efficacy?
When you say the vaccines are safe, you seem to omit the long lists of adverse reactions which appear on the product inserts giving information to professionals about the vaccines.
When you say the vaccines are safe, have you factored in that the rarely mentioned figures for adverse reactions are never adjusted to take account of under-reporting. For all drugs generally under-reporting runs at 98% – which means only 2 in 100 are reported: Spontaneous adverse drug reaction reporting vs event monitoring: a comparison: Journal of the Royal Society of Medicine Volume 84 June 1991 341.
So this means that those nice tables of figures which used to be given out comparing disease adverse events to vaccine adverse events are completely useless. Did you ever advise the parents of any children you may have vaccinated about that when you were telling them the vaccines are safe and effective?
Perhaps you might want to let us know. Did you tell the parents of any of your infant patients before they were vaccinated?
You clearly have not read anything on this site because you state “you guys who seem to be strongly against vaccination“.
If vaccines were safe and effective as you claim and if all medical professionals and health officials were honest about them then this site would not exist. This site is about safety.
You clearly have read none of it.
You then engage is very nasty and unbefitting rhetoric in comparing the authors who contribute to this site with the Taliban. The Taliban purposely kill and maim innocent civilians.
You do not seem to have a nice bedside manner Dr Primhak when you come here to pass remarks without any evidence to back them up. Is this what Evidence-Based Medicine has taught you in your career? Do you know what evidence is perhaps?
You state “Diseases such as Type C meningococcal sepsis and HIB meningitis which used to be commonplace in paediatric wards 25 years ago have been virtually eliminated within a couple of years of widespread vaccination.”
But you seem unaware that questions were raised about the incidence of invasive bacterial infection in children who had recently been vaccinated against pertussis: Nilsson L, Kjellman N–I M, Storsaeter J, Bjǒrkstén B. “A randomized controlled trial of the effect of pertussis vaccines on atopic disease” Arch Pediatr Adolesc Med 1998;152:734-8..
In England & Wales when the acceptance of pertussis vaccine fell dramatically in the mid 1970s to the mid 1980s there was an accompanying fall in the number of deaths, in children aged four years and younger, from invasive meningococcal disease. Mortality more than halved. The numbers nearly tripled as pertussis vaccine uptake increased to 90%.
You seem unaware that following on HiB vaccination reduced carriage rates are leaving children without natural immunity to Hib and invasive disease is occurring in older children who would previously have been expected to be immune.
After routine infant immunisation was introduced in October 1992, adult Hib infections decreased initially but then rose from a low in 1998 to reach prevaccine levels in 2003. “Our data show that the reduction in opportunities for natural boosting of immunity has resulted in a decline in specific Hib titres among adults. McVernon J et al Trend in Hib infections in England & Wales: surveillance study BMJ 2004;329:655-8
Is that what you mean by safe and effective? Instead of developing effective treatments for basic childhood diseases with an intervention for one disease you cause another disease? Somewhat counter productive. You then introduced another vaccine to counteract the effects of the one you have just given, with all the attendant risks of adverse reactions in healthy children who likely never will contract Hib nor meningococcal infections.
You claim “Polio has been almost eradicated worldwide” but fail to address the fact that, as a leading paeditrician has pointed out in a paper in the Indian Journal of Medical Ethics, India has wasted US$8 billion on polio vaccination campaigns which could have been spent of more important life-saving health measures. In the process 47,500 cases of non polio acute flaccid paralysis NPAFD have been caused. NPAFP is clinically indistinguishable from polio and twice as lethal.
This also raises the question of whether the 1940s and 1950s cases of what were claimed to be polio were in fact polio and not NPAFP.
Might you have any comment? You can find references here:
Bill Gates Polio Eradication Plans – To Cause The Polio Equivalent of 235 Years of Cases Of A Twice As Deadly Disease
You say “smallpox has actually gone” as if vaccination did that. You fail to mention that a vaccine which takes 100 years to work didn’t. What you fail to note is that smallpox attenuated as all diseases appear to do and became the milder Alastrim form:
“Alastrim” or “variola minor” was first recognised in Florida and South America in the late 19th century: Alastrim Smallpox Variola Minor Virus Genome DNA Sequences Virology Volume 266, Issue 2, 20 January 2000, Pages 361-386.
Attenuation is the natural process by which many diseases over time have become less severe until they either vanish or become of minimal concern.
Perhaps you should read more on the subject Dr Primhak?
You say “Measles and mumps (almost universal diseases during my training) are now rarities and congenital rubella is virtually non-existent.” You should read the data here where you will see these diseases were clearly attenuating:
Are you trying to say you did not know any of that information for your entire career as a paediatrician? If true, that would be troubling indeed.
Some might consider it a disgrace that medical professionals attribute well-known effects like attenuation and the effects of clean water and improved nutrition on health solely to vaccines. It is unsurprising people do not trust aspects of modern medicine, especially the adverse effects of drug treatments. Psychiatry is the least effective branch of medicine in history with all the dumpster drugs too toxic to give to other patients.
You say “All of these, and more are so obviously related to vaccine introduction” which may suggest to some reading that you have accepted throughout your entire career unquestioningly the information given by those promoting vaccines and have failed to check for yourself. If that is the case, it is still not too late for you.
You then go on to say “it is unbelievable that you have concocted arguments disputing efficacy“.
What a disgusting and untrue claim which shows you have read nothing of what is written here. Or if you have, you have ignored the references cited in evidence often from formal journal papers, as you can see from the citations given above.
You state “No vaccine can be introduced without clear evidence of efficacy and safety.”
That is simply untrue. We have only to give the example of the flu vaccine causing cataplexy and narcolepsy in at least 800 children and in an unknown number of adults:
So thank you for coming to this site and demonstrating the level of professional competence of a paediatrician when it comes to matters of vaccination.
And you then have the incredible front to claim “How many deaths will you be responsible for in your gullible readership?”
We might ask you how many deaths and serious injuries you may have caused in your career as a paediatrician by blindly accepting information fed to you by others. What would you say to that? Who is it who appears gullible?]
Florence Nightingale - Controversial Website
"She understood the importance of adhering to medicine’s first ethical principle. The opening sentence of Notes on Hospitals states: “It may seem a strange principle to enunciate as the very first requirement in a hospital that it should do the sick no harm. It is quite necessary, nevertheless, to lay down such a principle.”
"Nightingale’s common sense and wisdom still forms a solid basis for caring for sick people. She believed, first and foremost, in hygiene (fresh air, cleanliness, clean water, proper drainage, and plenty of light), and constant consideration for the patient’s feelings."
Not something that is actually important anymore it seems.
It's kind of frustrating dabbling in the darker side of the net and revealing these things because:
1. People will disregard it as junk and "non-scientific"
2. People who do read it will jump to conclusions about government and all that and become highly irrational
It's important to read and discern carefully. If you want to talk about anti-vaccinaction and public reactions, you have to basically be an iron wall. You will be attacked aggressively and oddly none of the people attacking you will have definitive solid scientific evidence for what they're saying. They only get the science they want to get - or rather the science they're told to see.
Life really is a strange kind of sorcery.
"Did y'all know that over 40 + holistic doctors have disappeared and or being killed ( aka suicide ) just last year alone since 2015 up to this date ! Look up Nagalase! Did y'all know that the US holds the patent for Cancer, AIDS and Ebola don't y'all just love your enslavemen?? smh..... WAKE UP AMERICA before its to late!!!!"
But really aside from all that... what has really got me ... entranced is:
TIME magazine reported: “Among the stricken, delirium rose: patients thrashed wildly on their beds, screaming that red flowers were blossoming from their bodies.”
Okay, obviously that article is a bit unnerving. But I think it is also really cool. Why?
I think there is a great answer to the mystery of life and the physical form.
Iono. Whatever. It's cool to me. Maybe because of the idea that you could hallucinate red flowers blossoming. Maybe it's a bit grotesque, but when you go into a trance - even temporarily - it seems like anything could be possible.
But that's just heretical I guess? ...
Trance is not scary!
... It isn't! Even if it is just temporary, it's just hard to maintain.
The Best Things in Life are Blue!
Just thinking of the "Blue Light of Heaven" after I went to watch Guardians of the Galaxy 2 at the theater (forgot where I heard it) and I felt immensely calm.
Blue light is also something that is thought to contribute to insomnia (wakefulness).
Jane Goodall - Quotes
"From my perspective, I absolutely believe in a greater spiritual power, far greater than I am, from which I have derived strength in moments of sadness or fear. That's what I believe, and it was very, very strong in the forest."
"It's been proven by quite a few studies that plants are good for our psychological development. If you green an area, the rate of crime goes down. Torture victims begin to recover when they spend time outside in a garden with flowers. So we need them, in some deep psychological sense, which I don't suppose anybody really understands yet."
"Words can be said in bitterness and anger, and often there seems to be an element of truth in the nastiness. And words don't go away, they just echo around."
"I don't spend that much time being introspective, believe it or not. All I know is that I grew up not questioning God because that's how you are. God was there like the birds and the wind."
Why Understanding Energy Is a Big Deal
While there might be different definitions for energy and each definition might change someone's perception, the heart of it is roughly the same. It might not seem significant to many to understand energy in terms of spirituality, but I disagree.
Let's take a look at the definition from dictionary.com and relate to just what it means.
So what is so important here? Maybe it would easier to recall what else is written about energy by relaying this:
Surrounded by Light - Timelessness and Spacelessness
Dying - Effects/Symptoms
There are a number of symptoms people may experience when dying. Among them are: altered experiences with time, restlessness, agitation, and increased awareness.
That is the thing that I want to mention most. That there are indeed people who know that they're going to die. However, the cases explained above are different from what I remember seeing on television a long time ago.
It was something I thought when I was younger to tell everyone, "If I'm the first to die, please don't be upset.". I never mentioned this though, because I felt it might've been some kind of self-fulfilling prophecy, but was more curious if there weren't perhaps some reason why I had said that. (not said - thought. I never said it)
Then, some time later I saw it. There are cases where persons will leave behind letters explaining that they're going to go or that, "their time was coming.". Not long after this the persons will die - sometimes an accident.
Do I think I'm dying? Possibly. I don't know.
Really. The start of all this was that I had come to a point where I felt contented and not wanting much. Then at night I began to wonder what could be done for someone who is just moments from dying? Specifically, I had imagined someone with terminal cancer.
So I began to think about a particular set of "mystical" words (like a poem?) that would be read (not given from me, but found from a website perhaps) and that would trigger the "state of mind" necessary to .... well...
As I finished imagining the poem (while maintaining a unique state of mind) that's when the light came into my vision. I was already lying down with my eyes closed. I wasn't ready though! That's the thing that got me. I jolted out bed and then... restlessness and all other symptoms started to take hold.
And... here we are!
Edit: Also, forgot to mention was part of the reason I became restless was thinking, "What could I do to convince anyone I'm not crazy?". That was a big part of the restlessness too. Imagine. Being treated like scum for doing something that could bring peace and rest to people?
The Great Lie - Isn't the brain really just an ogranism within a larger organism?
Edit: I'm quite frustrated because of a fight that happened. Perhaps feeling especially negative. You should know that it is actually a thing I read in Across the Unknown not to give in because of life circumstances. Or rather, the way it was worded to me sounded highly unempathetic. I get seriously angry about this.
"But a lot of people have to deal with bullshit often! It isn't something they fucking imagined."
Yeah. I've been feeling especially paranoid and suicidal. It's just that when I hear that word paranoia or something reflects back to you to tell you that it's you doing it to yourself... I can't help but want to give it a middle finger.
I mean is it really paranoia if you're right about what you're "paranoid" about? Of course, they can say that's typical language, but I can easily say the same of that.
Back to business as usual I guess...
I mean seriously, it's frustrating when people make assumptions about you:
You don't have status? You're worthless
No money? You're a bum
Not married? You're a loser
I mean... that's not even a quarter of it.
Sorry, sometimes I love the red and the white of flowers set against the soft white-blue and its other various shades of the sky. There's something about that that just--
Oh I'm sorry? I'm psychotic for this? I'm still on this same fucking planet as anyone. Sorry that I'm not so lost in the labyrinth of words, status, and titles that I just get lost (but I'm not really anywhere but the same place) in admiration of these things.
This is lengthy, but there is something important to note here. Actually several things which are important to note.
I should say now, that this is not all of what I meant to share and note. There was another essay which pointed out how the idea that the brain is a "computer" are erroneous by showing how the terms are greatly abused and misused. Particulary, the idea that the computer to brain analogy is faulty because there are several things which do not line up at all.
Robert Epstein's essay, "The Empty Brain" was just the breath of fresh air I was looking for in trying to understand why the IP metaphor is popular these days. More so, I was irked because the metaphor is obviously dangerous to people's perception of the world. That and the idea that we are "chemically bound" to our experience. These are just beliefs though as much as anything which is what I am trying to point out.
They're popular ideas because they come from what most believe to be "reputable" sources. What else can be said about this except that it is a logical fallacy? Today, the younger generation tends to believe that it's intelligence is something measurable. They believe that they "possess" intelligence because they can "mock" ideas which are not popular to their perceptions. They haven't (and still don't) say anything because they only know the fallacy of "appeal to authority". The very essence of everything they "know" is predicated on this very fallacy.
"This is coming from __ therefore, it is true!"
Look, if history repeats itself then this is just one of the things that gets repeated as well. You'd think that the younger generation which believe it knows what "intelligence" is would be more mindful of this. They're not.
"If the metaphors and paradigms of the Scientific Revolution were true, then why has the consequence been an increasing move towards deconstructionism, suicide, and nihilism? Why does my soul feel like it is strangled?"
"We tend to think, Kuhn argues, that scientific knowledge is a slow, accumulative process whereby the study and research of past ages is gradually built up over time, like a tower or edifice being constructed over the centuries from the ground up. Each generation, we imagine, passes the torch of scientific knowledge on to the next generation to complete a new row of bricks, in a glorious, ongoing progress towards more and better ways of knowing the deepest truths of the cosmos. The only problem with this picture is that anyone who actually studies the history of scientific developments knows that it is false and misleading as to how scientific revolutions actually work."
"One particular theory that explains some aspect of the cosmos will enjoy its time in the spotlight, until another vastly different theory comes along and overturns the presuppositions and implications of the earlier. In other words, the "knowledge" of the previous theory is not kept, preserved, or built upon, but scrapped and thrown out in favor of a new one."
"These examples point us to an important corrective: we tend to believe that see with our eyes, but in reality we see with our imaginations."
"Language, which is actually fundamentally pictorial/metaphorical at its root, translates and makes sense of the images that our eyes transmit to us. As scandalous as it may be, Language and Imagination are the heart and lifeblood of Science."
"Initially the drug appeared to confirm earlier research by wiping out the synaptic connection. But when cells were exposed to a reminder of the shocks, the memory came back at full strength within 48 hours. “It was totally reinstated,” Glanzman says. “That implies to me that the memory wasn't stored in the synapse.” The results were recently published in the online open-access journal eLife."
“A theory that is wrong is considered preferable to admitting our ignorance.” – Elliot Vallenstein, Ph.D.
"Finally, there is not a single peer-reviewed article that can be accurately cited to support claims of serotonin deficiency in any mental disorder, while there are many articles that present counterevidence. Furthermore, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) does not list serotonin as the cause of any mental disorder. The American Psychiatric Press Textbook of Clinical Psychiatry addresses serotonin deficiency as an unconfirmed hypothesis, stating “Additional experience has not confirmed the monoamine depletion hypothesis” (Lacasse & Leo, 2005)."
"In fact, the idea that low levels of serotonin cause depression has become so widespread that it’s not uncommon to hear people speak of the need to “boost their serotonin levels” through exercise, herbal supplements or even sexual activity. The “chemical imbalance” theory is so well established that it is now part of the popular lexicon.
It is, after all, a neat theory. It takes a complex and heterogeneous condition (depression) and boils it down to a simple imbalance of two to three neurotransmitters (out of more than 100 that have been identified), which, as it happens, can be “corrected” by long-term drug treatment. This clear and easy-to-follow theory is the driving force behind the $12 billion worth of antidepressant drugs sold each year."
"However, there is one (rather large) problem with this theory: there is absolutely no evidence to support it. Recent reviews of the research have demonstrated no link between depression, or any other mental disorder, and an imbalance of chemicals in the brain (Lacasse & Leo, 2005; (Valenstein, 1998).
The ineffectiveness of antidepressant drugs when compared to placebo cast even more doubt on the “chemical imbalance” theory. (See my recent articles Placebos as effective as antidepressants and A closer look at the evidence for more on this.)"
"Reducing levels of norepinephrine, serotonin and dopamine does not actually produce depression in humans, even though it appeared to do so in animals.
The theory cannot explain why there are drugs that alleviate depression despite the fact that they have little or no effect on either serotonin or norepinephrine.
Drugs that raise serotonin and norepinephrine levels, such as amphetamine and cocaine, do not alleviate depression.
Although some depressed patients have low levels of serotonin and norepinephrine, the majority do not. Estimates vary, but a reasonable average from several studies indicates that only about 25 percent of depressed patients actually have low levels of these metabolites.
Some depressed patients actually have abnormally high levels of serotonin and norepinephrine, and some patients with no history of depression at all have low levels of these amines.
Although there have been claims that depression may be caused by excessive levels of monoamine oxydase (the enzyme that breaks down serotonin and norepinephrine), this is only true in some depressed patients and not in others.
Antidepressants produce a number of different effects other than increasing norepinephrine and serotonin activity that have not been accounted for when considering their activity on depression."
"No matter how hard they try, brain scientists and cognitive psychologists will never find a copy of Beethoven’s 5th Symphony in the brain – or copies of words, pictures, grammatical rules or any other kinds of environmental stimuli. The human brain isn’t really empty, of course. But it does not contain most of the things people think it does – not even simple things such as ‘memories’."
"The faulty logic of the IP metaphor is easy enough to state. It is based on a faulty syllogism – one with two reasonable premises and a faulty conclusion. Reasonable premise #1: all computers are capable of behaving intelligently. Reasonable premise #2: all computers are information processors. Faulty conclusion: all entities that are capable of behaving intelligently are information processors.
Setting aside the formal language, the idea that humans must be information processors just because computers are information processors is just plain silly, and when, some day, the IP metaphor is finally abandoned, it will almost certainly be seen that way by historians, just as we now view the hydraulic and mechanical metaphors to be silly."
"Misleading headlines notwithstanding, no one really has the slightest idea how the brain changes after we have learned to sing a song or recite a poem. But neither the song nor the poem has been ‘stored’ in it. The brain has simply changed in an orderly way that now allows us to sing the song or recite the poem under certain conditions. When called on to perform, neither the song nor the poem is in any sense ‘retrieved’ from anywhere in the brain, any more than my finger movements are ‘retrieved’ when I tap my finger on my desk. We simply sing or recite – no retrieval necessary."
"We are organisms, not computers. Get over it. Let’s get on with the business of trying to understand ourselves, but without being encumbered by unnecessary intellectual baggage. The IP metaphor has had a half-century run, producing few, if any, insights along the way. The time has come to hit the DELETE key."
"Pollan says there is no agreed definition of intelligence. "Go to Wikipedia and look up intelligence. They despair of giving you an answer. They basically have a chart where they give you nine different definitions. And about half of them depend on a brain — they refer to abstract reasoning or judgment."
Edit: Oh right! I remember seeing this cool set of "artwork" created by an algorithm loaded into a computer (wtf ever that is and if I even got that right) and...
On the one hand, the images were really neat and trippy looking.
After thinking about it now? It isn't art. It reflects nothing about the human experience. Only that some people like to worship robots instead of properly adding to the experience themselves by thinking "people are bad" rather than it being their example that contributes to "bad people". Apathy at its worst! Loathsome! Horrid!
Edit 2: https://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2017/08/04/your-brain-is-not-a-computer/
"You know all of those thousands of research studies that rely on Functional Magnetic Resonance Imaging (fMRI) that produce those millions of color pictures of the brain lighting up when it’s doing something? They tell us virtually nothing about why those parts of the brain are lighting up, nor why that would be important.
Imagine taking a person from 300 BC and introducing her to a modern electrical switch connected to a lightbulb. She can turn the switch off and on and see the impact of that behavior on the light. But it would tell her virtually nothing about how electricity works, nor anything about the component parts of electricity. That’s what fMRI scans of the brain are to researchers today."
A Rant on General Stupidness Pretending to Think It is Smart
So I had to have a serious rant to myself when my brother stated so surely that the man/woman relationship in the home (where the man provides and the woman cooks/cleans) was important to the survival of our species.
My assertion was, "Survival? It's got nothing to do with survival. It's got everything to do without our mental health and well-being. And especially to the children in the home who take after them.". Mother of it all! What annoying stupidness that he still asserted survival is somehow tied in with that.
So thats why I think its important to point out the heart-brain connection. Why? Because the western world is so heavily dominated by vulgar-minded idiots who still think in terms of "survival" to support their world view that we have to "live it up" or that we're somehow not responsible or moral creatures.
That would take a whole 'nother damn essay to point out how ignorant and short-sided and damaging those views are though...
For now... the evidence is obvious...
We're not meant to be violent.
The Heart-Brain Connection
As an ISFP (if you want to believe those things) sensing and feeling are a major proponent in my personality. It is no curious thing to me that it is in within the interest of yourself and others not to think "violently" and instead keep my tendencies towards aesthetic scenery and sounds. So long as I remain adjusted in this way the air around me definitely feels different.
Is it merely something imagined though to think that you pick up others energies or emotions? Perhaps there is no evidence that could be provided to show that definitively, however... One morning I woke up and was curious what felt familiar. I felt a sense of love and enthusiasm all around me. Then it occurred to me that the kids were going to their first day of school. Definitely, I can't understand the enthusiasm for such a thing! But despite my understanding or relation to that, the feeling of it was definitely there.
It is also a characteristic of those who take ecstasy in a group setting which is mostly positive where they say things such as 'love filled the air'. These are not just some vain expressions... they're real.
The Western world which is dominated by negative media and personalities obviously don't support this idea. It just isn't in their interest and they see no benefit.
There is so much more to say, but I want to research this more to point out that this isn't just "vain expressions" and energy is--
Well, it's hard to say.
But the idea that, "whatever you seek, seeks you"... is eerily true. And it's said that when you don't seek it, it seeks you more. At least by St. John of the Cross. Still, religion or not, it is a phrase found among many spiritualists/philosophers.
Perhaps the next aim is to research memories. Since for me Deja Vu (of all the different variety) are commonplace for me now. But more importantly, the saying, "I remember this by heart" is more than 'cute words'.
Truly, there are many things I remember by heart...
I don't know why...
It doesn't even matter how hard you try...
"...there's too much heart break..." - Chester Bennington
"Most of us have been taught in school that the heart is constantly responding to “orders” sent by the brain in the form of neural signals. However, it is not as commonly known that the heart actually sends more signals to the brain than the brain sends to the heart! Moreover, these heart signals have a significant effect on brain function—influencing emotional processing as well as higher cognitive faculties such as attention, perception, memory, and problem-solving. In other words, not only does the heart respond to the brain, but the brain continuously responds to the heart."
"Many of the changes in bodily function that occur during the coherence state revolve around changes in the heart’s pattern of activity. While the heart is certainly a remarkable pump, interestingly, it is only relatively recently in the course of human history—around the past three centuries or so—that the heart’s function has been defined (by Western scientific thought) as only that of pumping blood. Historically, in almost every culture of the world, the heart was ascribed a far more multifaceted role in the human system, being regarded as a source of wisdom, spiritual insight, thought, and emotion. Intriguingly, scientific research over the past several decades has begun to provide evidence that many of these long-surviving associations may well be more than simply metaphorical. These developments have led science to once again to revise and expand its understanding of the heart and the role of this amazing organ."
"Science has only begun to understand the effects of the electromagnetic fields produced by the heart, but there is evidence that the information contained in the heart’s powerful field may play a vital synchronizing role in the human body—and that it may affect others around us as well."
But aside from all that...
I think the major thing to look at here is the fact that the brain and heart are not merely acting "one after the other". What's so significant about this? Well, there is a curious bible verse which explains (if I interpreted it right) that the body is a unitary functioning thing. Each part works in unison. Not one is less important than the other.
But tell that to modern western thought! They'll cut whatever organs out of your body to "keep you healthy.".
"WHERE is the YOU that makes YOU so sure of everything YOU are so sure OF?"
But then I think... the body/universe are not separate. The universe is the "greater brain" or the giver of the"brain" which allows the body most of its functions. That's not obvious?
Lyrics - When it Ends it Starts Again
Stay down, don't say a word
Life beats down beneath your skin,
A world away
On and on with every day
And we're okay
An ocean, a feeling
After the light is far behind
Motion apart, and still you keep a smile in silence
As you take (the long way Home)
Taking my time, gone the long way
I'll remember this
Many an hour and all to fade away
You show me a world where my heart lay
Time and time again
And when it ends
It starts again
Something awful surfaced
Just the other day I was playing an online game with my brother when suddenly I burst into tears while listening to this song. I was trying hard not to make a peep, but I guess it was just too hard to contain. It came harder to go through the motions pretending I was okay just playing this monotonous game without still tearing up harshly.
Maybe you could say it's a delusion to think that things have sort of pointed to reincarnation at this point. The kind like everhopeful was saying though, reliving the same life again. However, it isn't something I definitely think, it's just a possibility of something I considered. What's strange though is that something revealed itself in something I searched (unrelated to reincarnation) and pointed to this very thing as a real possibility.
So what it was that made me tear up so hard was that I was the song saying, "When it ends, it starts again." and I thought at that moment, "Would it be worth it to live this life again?". A strong thought surfaced that said, "No. Nothing was worth it...". Do I think that's really true? It was the first thing I thought, and I tend to think that trying to cover that up would just be a lie.
But why? I look around what do I see?
Pretenders, liars, cowards, murderers...
What's so sad about it? It's that they don't even know it. They don't necesssarily have to even pick up a gun or a knife to "kill" anyone. What's more is that I can't get over the idea of having cancer and not even caring. It would be a blessing to go soon - especially without "treatment" from this heinous two-faced system. On the one hand it's so eager to help and the next it wants to turn anyone who might need that help away. And why? Because you're not a person of status? Because you're not 'loaded'? You look or even smell 'funny'?
I still remember my first visit to a 'psychiatrist' when I was 20 and it was the worst realization of just how drowned the world is from its own humanness. I wasn't 'depressed' I was just noticing how awful my family was and yet it was just something you're just supposed to pretend is okay?
Everyday, mom would come home and complain about her job. She was almost never happy. My brother was playing video games and getting pissed all the time. He was highly discontented with himself and every day I tried to get him to see that his problems could be dealt with, but he never believed that. Still, it's happening to this day.
So with all of that and more going on at home the doctor saw me crying and I was simply unable to say anything about it. His prognosis? I'm depressed with 'no cause'. Does that make any sense? Just what do you call that? His questions proved to me even more that the world is becoming 'robotic' and simply does not care. Then, the gall of asking me if I'm hearing voices when I suddenly became silent and was staring at the floor thinking, "It's hopeless. They're ALL like this...".
People are treated as if they're not human. As if you're just this autonomous functioning machine who can be put on some pills and your problems will just vanish. No they don't. They simply get buried only to rise to the surface later.
I'm getting tired. Not of living necessarily. Just of seeing the world. So much false hope. So many broken dreams. Friends who will sell you for the glory of fame, power, or money. A short lived pleasure. Without all that to share with someone... explain to me... what is it worth? Because I have seen that road and it it is hollow. It lacks substance and yet... still they pursue it only perhaps later to realize that it meant nothing.
Just some time ago, I was appalled to see this pretentious-sounding woman on television going on a date which was set up for her and my niece said, "Wow! She's nice!". I was like, "Are you joking? Do you really hear what she is saying? 'I want this' 'I want that'.". That's become the standard today for relationships - not even just romantic - that you must have something which is worthy of 'showing off'. It is absolutely horrible...
Even more I was stunned to think that her date was "rude on purpose". I might've stared at the t.v. a little slack-jawwed at that thinking, "Rude?! He was rude?!". I mean... wow. I have no words. The guy could've SERIOUSLY been rude and said things which would not be acceptable for television. I was like, "I could've shown her what 'rude' looks like and yet, I would say it was really just her.".
Those awful words, "What are you looking for in a relationship?". Huh? You know what you're gonna get? Me. If that's not enough, then what could be? You can go out there and look, but there's nothing but what you're projecting it is relative to your sense of what it should be. And amidst all of that, you're going to reach out for what to relate it all? Me.
But that's not the height of it. It's a reflection of what the world is becoming. Parents who only accept their children if they're a "success". It's all about how much you make. They don't care if you do anything 'good'. All they want is for you not to be an embarrassment to them. They want their children to be "trophies" as a measurement of their success as parents. Does that mean that I think they shouldn't want what's best for their child? I'm not painting a black and white picture here. I'm simply saying they don't even care about the individual and what they want to be.
Yet, I don't find anything satisfying in what over 90% of what society deems socially acceptable today. Perhaps what drew this out is this horrible realization that your time was wasted doing what others want so as to avoid getting yelled at - or even mocked. I'm referring to not pursuing drawing/writing more passionately and instead doing what was "easier". It's easier to just do what is socially acceptable and not to make a fuss. And yet it hurts most of all.
That is essentially all I see the establishment and the system wants. To make functioning robots who don't make a fuss. If you dare then you might just become medicated for being all too human. For being "depressed" and upsetting their false sense of security and for daring to tear down their illusions. For wanting them to open their minds and see what is really going on.
Damn machines ruining everyone. False egos talking like know-it-alls. People hiding behind paper walls full of stiff words. Those that have 'everything' and living like they had nothing. Damn thieves taking and using the law (of all things!) to protect them.
Then of course the modern 'man' who is still a slave to his want for dominance. I like that they will tell you you're a 'pansy' or whatever for being sensitive or caring or passive. To have an aesthetic sense is a bit of a crime since it makes you appear "weak" in their eyes. Yet nothing could more submissive (which is a feminine quality) than to fear appearing that way so to avoid alienation from your peers. To fear speaking up against the crowd when you know it is wrong. There is nothing manly about the modern consensus of what is "manly" because it is essentially ruled by fear. Doesn't anyone hear it?
So what about writing and art? Well, it is kind of happening here with this. I don't want to write what is popular. It was something oddly striking when I read the quest dialogue for the online game I started playing again (private server so its free!) for the Bard (my favorite class). Despite having done this quest before when I first played this game, the dialogue simply blew my mind only now. The Bard wants to know just how his lyrics will have any emotional impact? He realizes at the end of the quest that it will when he is honest. There was a lot more that was said, but it all fit so perfectly. Even more so was the word-of-the-day on dictionary.com for this day, "Lonely-hearts".
Now tell me. Is this just being "depressive" or maybe just "being human"? There are no "pills" for "life". A person doesn't "become depressed" out of the blue without cause - especially not a case of 'lacking serotonin'. Nor do I consider that depression is even the right word. Sadness is a response. Depression is pretty heavy and dark. It isn't easy to shake. With depression sometimes there isn't even a response. You want to shut down, but you know deep down something still lurks or you wouldn't go on at all.
So what good is the sadness? That seems to be the question I know most would wonder. That there is no use for tears. It's just something that overwhelms me from time to time. It doesn't even have to be from a song. I can be fine and suddenly it hits like a truck. Do I think its just a "disease" or that its fruitless? Absolutely not. It just happens to be that sometimes in a controlled setting on low-dose psilocybin that people will cry for hours before a breakthrough.
Also, a little curious to me that the words, "I'm going home" can be heard in a real phenomena in people who are dying. Some even say the day and will die that day. Others may even recover from some disease and an unrelated death to heart attack occurs some time later.
For now, I'm feeling a little disconnected. Other days I wake up feeling lightweight and the air is clear. It's hard to say though that when I'm feeling 'chipper' or 'upbeat' if it isn't just a front now. Either way, I have to go on. The music keeps playing even when you think everything stops.
Castle of Illusions
One day I built a castle of loose stones
The noise from the outside was too loud
So I reinforced the walls
Only it made no difference...
Whether brick or steel
The noise continued vibrating through the walls
So I hid in the deepest reaches of the castle
But then I found it was too bright
So I put on a blindfold
It was not enough
A light started to appear
I realized there was nowhere to hide
and the castle was useless
No castle ever could be useful
A useless charm in its appearance
But just ask the birds and bees if they care
Whether your fortress is made of the finest silver or prettiest crystal
Or if the vines discriminate where they will grow
Just because the walls look better here than there
Bitter Mans Toys
Oh but there will be a day
When the murderers will have to pay
And those that knew
But were too afraid to say
What was it worth anyway?
Bitter mans toys...
Washing into the ocean bay...
The love of money is the root of all kinds of evil
This phrase has been sort of twisted and even scoffed at; perhaps because it seems too lofty and by todays standard too 'naive'. Often the way it is said is wrong since it's always said that money itself is evil. It seems though that peoples assertion that it isn't 'evil' are just excuses for possible personal avenues that they're pursuing which they hope will score them lots of money. I'm not going to say how people should or shouldn't live, but there is a hidden driving force behind this which controls people to act in that way. But what I'd like to highlight now is just what the love of money is doing and how it is harmful.
The ASPCA is a good example of how the love of money has corrupted what started as a noble pursuit into a death house for animals. When the ASPCA first aired their heart breaking commercials of an abused animal, the response triggered a large amount of donations. What then followed, however, was that once they realized how much they could make by doing this, they turned over into a dark alley.
It would be easier to show how deep this seed of corruption is by sharing this article and highlighting a few key points.
"2. The ASPCA kills animals. It’s one thing for a local pet shelter to put down dogs and cats due to overcrowding and limited resources. It’s tragic, but most people understand. However, it’s harder to justify for a group as wealth and influential as the ASPCA."
"In one case, the ASPCA put down a dog known as “Oreo.” The ASPCA claimed the dog was a danger to the public, but rescue groups had offered to take in and rehabilitate the animal. The ASPCA chose to kill him—one of over 100 animals it killed that year. (That’s still an improvement over the previous body counts of the A—100,000 per year at the turn of the 20th Century, to 250,000 per year in the 1960s."
"3. It’s about the money, not the animals. The independent watchdog CharityWatch finds that ASPCA spends up to 35 percent of its budget on overhead, and 38 cents to raise every dollar, giving the organization a middling “C+” rating. Charity Navigator calculates that ASPCA spent a whopping $52 million on fundraising in 2012. CEO Edwin Sayres was getting nearly $600,000 in compensation annually when he left in 2013.
Bob Baker, a former ASPCA investigator, told The New York Times, “show one picture of a mistreated dog and the funds would pour in… [I]t got to the point where animal welfare was not the priority, fund-raising was. It felt as though the animals were being used for fundraising, rather than using funds raised to help the animals.”
Seems really awful. But what is more appalling to me is that they try to guilt the watchers into thinking donations will save animals. Obviously, the issue in helping these animals goes deeper than donating. Educating people is one such important issue.
1. The cost to adopt is absurd. In these times we have now the wealthy are making it more difficult to live with the standards they do. Common rights to health care being one. If they really cared they'd tackle this issue too and help the common person to adopt with ease.
2. The source of the issue of animals being "rescued" is not being addressed. Why are there so many animals which need adoption? The ASPCA should help to work on this end as well with all the money they make.
3. The ASPCA leads people to believe their only goal is to "shelter" the animals while it's up to the common person to pay for adoption. "This IS us saving the animals." is the dark mantra as told by many of its mindless workers.
There's more to touch on, but it would be nice if the average person would think more carefully about how to address this issue without resorting to becoming another mindless warrior who repeats what is told to them.
Now, this is another issue where money has corrupted people. This is particularly difficult to touch because there is a lot of resistance to the anti-vaccination movement. Let me just say now, that I do not think this is a black and white issue, but where I stand is with the anti-vaccination crowd (at least on the surface of it).
I challenge anyone who thinks they're so educated and reasonable to check this particular article:
In the case of vaccines, there are so many things to note. For starters, the anti-vaccination crowd is accused of 'fear-mongering' yet it couldn't be more untrue and it is the other way around! The vaccination movement is highly profitable and so the lack of understanding helps keep the masses confused and self-righteously confident in thinking they know what they don't. This makes them prone to being controlled by scaring them into thinking that if they DON'T vaccinate, they will DIE. WHO is the one who sounds like they're fear mongering hmm? And WHO benefits from this?
If you read any of the article above, it makes it clear that the vaccines HAVE killed people and children. You know... just LISTEN to the language of the crowd who asserts that anti-vaccination people are 'immoral' and see how tempermental, uncontrolled, and ignorant they sound. Worse, is that despite the obvious evidence of people being vaccine and disease free they STILL respond like fear controlled sheep.
Now, what's funny to me is that to many they will fall back onto the "appeal to authority" fallacy and accuse you of being uninformed and uneducated since there is no WAY that people who graduated and have high ranking positions could be wrong.
I've got an 8th grade education so likely my word on this matter is null to them. But my very basic understanding of Biology (one of my favorite subjects) made it clear that there isn't much to fear. Your body is built to resist diseases as best it can. If you get sick, it just means your system is working. Who would've fucking thought?
It's basic biology that we have survived/lived longer, not because of "advances in medicine", but because our genes make every new generation more capable than the last. So the correlation that the vaccines are what helped still should be seen as a mere shadow without substance.
Here are more obvious things to note though:
And as for mortality and vaccines, why have you come here to tell lies? You claim the “mortality rate” .. “is completely unrelated to vaccines” and “Vaccines do not stop you from dying from an infectious disease and have nothing to do with mortality“. Both are complete untrue claims.
For decades people were told vaccines save millions of lives. Parents are still threatened that if they do not vaccinate their children they could die. It is still being done.
In the USA the completely false statistic of 3 in 1000 has been used and in the UK 1 in 1000 for the fatality rates for measles.
In the UK in the past 20 years there have been over 80,000 cases of measles and no healthy individual has ever died from acute measles contracted in all that time. There have been three deaths recorded all in already very sick immunocompromised individuals who could have died from anything at any time."
"Every year the CDC recommends flu vaccine manufacturers to put in three viral strains they guess might be the most common infections for the flu season. However, there are thousands of flu virus possibilities every winter you may come in contact with. If the flu shot you received do not contain the viral strains you come in contact with, essentially you have no more immunity over it then others who may not have received the jab. This makes the chances of you being protected very unlikely."
3. "There are no proven safe amounts of mercury in the human body and yet even vaccines that label themselves as “mercury-free” may contain traces of mercury up to 300ppb. To put things in perspective, anything over 200 ppb is considered toxic."
4. This is a personal note: but a mother was horrified that her two month old child received several vaccines from which the child responds with nothing but a silent "cry" which signals that he is in PAIN. This is BAD for brain development in a child so young and can have a lasting impact on his mental health and possibly relation to his mother who didn't stop them from doing that.
5. There was also a case where a young child was over-vaccinated and got sick. Not long after this the child died... The father was the one who received jail time, however...
There is more to say, but greed IS a factor here since it is essentially what motivates the health authorities into creating and enforcing the idea that vaccines are necessary. They control the masses through fear and continue to confuse and confound everyone with misleading "facts".
As someone who has not received a vaccine in decades, I have not once gotten ill from anything major. I'm not even in top shape nor am I keen on nutrition! Yet there are many more who will also tell you the same. HOW could that NOT be evidence?
Does this mean vaccines are useless or don't work? I'm not saying that. But the idea that "you need them or you die" is a lie. Vaccines, on the face of it, are a sound method in the prevention of diseases, but "necessary"? That's the problem of what is to be addressed. So long as greed is the factor in their distribution though, it is hard to get at.
Also, if it wasn't clear already, vaccines don't always work. In fact, there was a case where a vaccinated person received the correct strain and yet was killed by that strain.
Actually, for some reason, I remember getting the flu when I was really young FROM the vaccine itself. That's a hard memory to get at though. I think it was at that time, that my mother realized it was a bad idea and I never got another one since.
For the final piece of this (though I had more in mind what I wanted to say earlier), it's time I touch psychiatric drugs. It's basically almost a mirror of what the vaccination movement is controlled by: fear. There are perhaps more evils which are perpetuated here though, especially the devolution of humanity. Whoa! Sounds like a big thing to say, huh? Well, it's a difficult one to touch, but here goes...
"Many psychiatrists are well aware that the myths do not hold and have told me so, but they don’t dare deviate from the official positions because of career concerns."
1."Myth 1: Your disease is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain
Most patients are told this but it is completely wrong. We have no idea about which interplay of psychosocial conditions, biochemical processes, receptors and neural pathways that lead to mental disorders and the theories that patients with depression lack serotonin and that patients with schizophrenia have too much dopamine have long been refuted. The truth is just the opposite. There is no chemical imbalance to begin with, but when treating mental illness with drugs, we create a chemical imbalance, an artificial condition that the brain tries to counteract."
2."Myth 3: Psychotropic drugs for mental illness are like insulin for diabetes
Most patients with depression or schizophrenia have heard this falsehood over and over again, almost like a mantra, in TV, radio and newspapers. When you give insulin to a patient with diabetes, you give something the patient lacks, namely insulin. Since we’ve never been able to demonstrate that a patient with a mental disorder lacks something that people who are not sick don’t lack, it is wrong to use this analogy.
Patients with depression don’t lack serotonin, and there are actually drugs that work for depression although they lower serotonin. Moreover, in contrast to insulin, which just replaces what the patient is short of, and does nothing else, psychotropic drugs have a very wide range of effects throughout the body, many of which are harmful. So, also for this reason, the insulin analogy is extremely misleading."
"Sometimes the indication creep is under the radar. After heated FDA hearings in 2009 about extending Zyprexa, Seroquel and Geodon uses for kids–Pfizer and AstraZeneca slides showed that kids died in clinical trials–the uses were added by the FDA but never announced. They were slipped into the record right before Christmas, when no news breaks, and recorded as “label changes.” Sneaky."
"And there is another “creep” which is also under the radar: “warning creep.” As atypical antipsychotics have gone into wide use in the population, more risks have surfaced. Labels now warn against death-associated risks in the elderly, in children and in people with depression but you have to really read the fine print. (Atypical antipsychotics are so dangerous in the elderly with dementia, at least 15,000 die in nursing homes from them a year charged FDA drug reviewer David Graham in Congressional testimony.) The Seroquel label now warns against cardiovascular risks which the FDA denied until the drug was almost off patent."
There was more, but for now I'd like to leave this incomplete until I can recall what else was to be added. Waking up every now and again with fatigue and having symptoms of what seems to be kidney cancer is just another nail to be driven into the system and what it's doing now. Why? Because the "doctors" whose job is meant to treat patients decided that maybe I don't "deserve" treatment since I can't "afford it".
Am I just "imagining" that? That'd be what some would probably assume, since I'm not a "doctor" and can't make that call. As if they've NEVER been wrong in diagnoses and never make errors? It is not something that I feel negative about though, don't misunderstand that. I definitely do have symptoms though like: leg cramps, back/flank pain, frequent urination, and of course the fatigue which is hard to combat.
Did I just imagine though, that the doctors were withholding this information that it is possible that it has spread? Which is a bigger part of why they seemed to be "acting funny" at the ER? I even asked my mother if she thought they seemed like they were hiding something and she definitely noticed it. So no, I don't want to hear no shit that I'm being "this or that" about it.
I want to retouch the subject of cancer again a bit and also talk about my response to it. I realize that in some way it is selfish to say that I'm desiring to die in a sort of pouty way. There's more to it than that though. I genuinely feel that the treatments of cancer and the industry are utterly disgusting and dated. People don't realize that it shouldn't have to be this way if there is a cure.
If there is a cure? Think about that. If there is a cure then it is there already isn't it? Just waiting to be discovered. However, the modern world has a sort of distorted perception of just how "things work" in a strange way that you could call it "faith". It's that the spell that the drug companies have cast has people fooled in thinking that only the "law" can say what is and isn't a cure.
In this case, cannabis oil (which has to be roughly equal parts THC and CBD to be effective) is actually outlawed for use regardless if it can show that it really does kill cancer cells and reduce tumor size to zero. My mother actually told me of a case where a woman of a couple had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer and was told she only had 3 weeks to live. What did they do? They actually treated it and cured it with cannabis oil. What happened after she told the doctor what she did to cure it? Not long after that her house got raided by police for the extra cannabis oil she kept!
I mean - what is there to say? Doesn't that speak for itself about the spell that people are under? I just have no words to say anymore about that. Just think about it.
Personally, I'd rather not accept treatment and instead choose to get my hands on cannabis oil without even a second thought that it works or not. Why? If you understand "how" something works, you don't need "evidence" to tell you that it does do you? Although in this case I am going by evidence of several people for which cannabis oil has effectively cured their cancer.
"Well, what if you die!". I'm sure there's quite a lot of people out there who are shocked to think of "risking" their health by not listening to "doctors" and following their protocols for "treatment". The most disgusting thing of all to me is that they have the gall to call what they do "curing" cancer. It doesn't cure cancer to remove cancerous organs from your body. Think about that. The cancer is pretty much succeeding in it's task ahead of schedule when the organ it is attacking is removed. I mean... seriously isn't that just beyond stupid?
In the case of kidney cancer, I am a bit appalled and shocked to think there are people who gladly have their kidneys removed to "cure" their cancer. All this does is leave them tied to a dialysis machine to do work that your own vital organs are supposed to do. Worse, is that it isn't even as efficient in that task and why would it be? Then, the sufferer is left to wait for a possible kidney transplant. Look at the statistics for those that need kidney transplants in just one state alone and you can see just how shocking it is. One is one too many to suffer, yet more than thousands are in need of transplants each year in just one state.
Consider then that they still don't know the cause of cancer. Does this mean the persons who have their cancer "cured" (as they say it) are free and off the hook? No - not by a long shot. Now consider if what might've caused their cancer is still a factor in developing a new cancer? Also, if you have been diagnosed with cancer, you're basically tied to a doctor and will need follow-up scans to see if new cancer has developed or "come back".
Back to the subject of what causes cancer and if you ask me, the major factor seems to be stress and/or poor PH/oxygen levels. I'm not very knowledgeable in this particular field, but the actual "cure" for cancer is simple. It is just that cancer can not live in a PH level above 6.0. Whoa! That's it? Well, again, like the black plague, if living conditions improved, PH levels for individuals would be naturally high and cancer would simply be an afterthought.
Now, there's another subject I'd like to touch on in regard to my personal state of mind at present and some experiments I'd like to work on at home. It is relevant to cancer treatment, but touches more on how my enthusiasm for this experiment and how it has impacted my state of mind.
Oh yeah. Looking at some cancer information (from the myriad number of websites out there...) I had to have a laugh at the fact that they seem dumbfounded by the fact that some tumors actually "spontaneously" shrink and disappear! Haha.
Okay, honestly cancer is not funny at all. I don't even want to think about the pain it causes both physically and emotionally (and regretfully have read too much on personal experiences and have witnessed some words of an individual sufferer in an online game who likely died from cancer that spread all over). But if your sense of Justice is in the right, then please think about this subject more carefully. Is it really lawful to suppress and ban people from getting treatment that doesn't involve painful (and risky for the elderly in that it can kill them) surgeries? In this case, cannabis oil and raising your PH levels being outlawed and information that is suppressed.
Does anyone, in a moment of potential death by cancer, really give a damn if Angelina and Brad break up? Or that your favorite show got cancelled or ended on a cliffhanger? Alright, I won't bark at all that junk too much. Seriously, this a very heavy subject and while it might seem noble to donate to something like St. Jude, is it really just? When, after all this time a cure would immediately shut it all down and free so many from the pains and burdens of cancer.
And, do you seriously not think it is in the interest of big companies to keep people sick? It isn't a fucking conspiracy theory that I'm talking about here. This is really happening. It's just disgusting individuals who really don't care if you live or die - even if it is REALLY painful. If there's a show in place that makes it all seem so grand, why not just keep sleeping and enjoying it - right?
Maybe there was something else to say, but when it comes to this part of the topic, it becomes too hard to keep focus when people are so blind to the dangers facing them. Yes, I'm positive. This ISN'T negative talk. This is me being positive that people can't and won't be this STUPID.
Also, to say why it is then that the idea of dying to cancer hadn't really fazed me that much is because of the thought, "I'm tired.". I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of speaking when people keep doing the same crap over and over. When everything you say is irrelevant because you're not this or that. No - I'm human. My right is to live and to say what I see when I see it. And what I see is a world that, even if it could be given a gift, refuses to accept it. It is more or less a way of saying "fuck you, then." if people would rather waste their time chasing hollow dreams for the promise of fame or money rather than be human and help fight for a cause that is worth fighting for.
(Frustration blocking out other coherent thoughts at this point.) Something else about what I'm really saying by accepting a cancer diagnosis and quietly shaking death's hand that is lost on me. But you don't think it is obvious what it is?
There's a lot to say about this but I want to ask a simple question and give an example of what it really means when there is Justice.
Let's say there is a con-man who is going around selling a product that he knows doesn't work right. In the selling of this product, he makes thousands. The people who buy this product find that it is faulty after only a short time and it malfunctions. When it malfunctions let's say that a person becomes seriously injured as a result.
The question becomes when does Justice become "served" as it is said? When the man is put behind bars or when the people who've been damaged are restored and repaid?
The first case is the common case of people's sense of Justice. It means that the bastard got what he deserved for messing around with people's lives. Now he can't go around causing more harm. (However, escape from prison we all know is possible and there will be more con-men in the future.)
In the latter scenario though, the people are given back what was taken from them.
So which do you think is the actual case of Justice being served?
In The End - Synchronicity - Attachment to Suffering
You know there's a little more about In The End that I'm not quite sure I want to talk about. It's something about something I wrote which I was trying to convey the idea of being attached to suffering. Still it isn't determined if I have kidney cancer or not, but that's not what bothers me. What is really eating away at me is that if I did I certainly don't seem to care if it kills me! However, knowing how severe the pain can be it is definitely not something anyone wants.
So this subject is going to be a little dreary I'm afraid because it is about death. Death is a little more than physical passing though. It is about essentially allowing old things to die so that new things can be born. In this case it is about the attachment to suffering. Yes, as strange as it is, there are people who are attached to suffering! But why?
When it comes to cancer, it is a little disturbing to think that people actually like physical suffering because it can create a sort of theatrical emotional display for all persons involved. Sounds pretty screwy doesn't it? Am I saying that it is just fakery when people cry about cancer? It isn't that simple so please allow me to explain. I'm definitely not saying people like suffering with cancer! Nor that people like to watch people die from it!
Assuming cannabis oil (with roughly equal amounts of THC and CBD) cures cancer, there would be a massive relief worldwide to anyone who might be suffering. So what is holding it back? First of all, there's a great amount of money to be had in cancer research. You know what was the first thing I noticed when searching for information on kidney cancer and tumors? There were loads of websites of different organizations all saying the same thing!
It seems a little disgusting to think that organizations are really in it for the money. I know. It ISN'T that simple and yet it is. Yes, before people jump the freakin' gun, I do know that there are genuine people who are just trying to help. But there's a greater number of people who believe that since people in the highest positions are researching that they can't be wrong if they say that cannabis oil doesn't cure cancer. Where would all those studies be coming from who would suggest that cannabis oil doesn't cure cancer? Those dirty organizations of course who realize they would go under if a cure was discovered!
Hold up just a second before throwing me in the category of "people without degrees can't know anything and are stupid" and just hear me out. I do really want to talk about attachment to suffering and that is still what this is about. It kind of goes hand-in-hand with the black plague.
The black plague? What's significant about the black plague in relation to the attachment to suffering? Now, I'm just going on my memory and what I remember hearing about the black plague so sue me if I'm not accurate here. The reason that the disease flourished was simply because of poor living conditions. That people literally sat in their own filth and so the disease would spread.
We're quite fortunate that living conditions have improved and that we have the advantage of being knowledgeable about diseases. The problem is, is that the lower or common man has no say in just what might be the cause of a disease or what could cure it. When authority is running the show and when their interest is money, the common man is nothing but a speck of dust to be snuffed out. Sad even still, is that they don't even have to lift a finger to keep you quiet! It isn't much different from the days of old, except that today the angry mobs look different.
The point is, is that there is an answer, but not everyone wants to hear that. In the case of cancer, cancer can not thrive in oxygen rich environment. In fact, a Nobel Prize was given for the discovery of a cure to cancer by simply showing that very thing! So like the black plague, the case seems to be the same doesn't it? Almost. The difference is there is a great wall of ignorance forcing this kind of information to the underground where it is not to be seen. To think if living conditions improved, then this "mysterious" killer (it still takes too many lives...) would suddenly vanish.
What's this got to do with In The End and attachment to suffering? Well, when I was in the hopsital my stay was not pleasant at all and not because of the idea of having cancer. It's that I was quite literally accepting death out of nothing but the promise of relief from mortal suffering. More than that, I wanted to let everyone know that what they call living I call nothingness, emptiness, hopelessness, and roboticism. Since I see that's how they live, I feel horribly disgusted that I'd rather die to make a statement by saying absolutely nothing. All I did say was that maybe I don't care because I'm trying to accept what I know is inevitable!
Okay but the relation to In The End? Maybe the lyrics really do come from your "subconscious" and that particular verse is STILL haunting me and it's a mix of pleasure and displeasure. I still cry to myself when I get the time to be alone because I can't seem to explain it even still.
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
My only explanation of this is that there really is an attachment to suffering and if there were an answer, it is not so easy to accept when you're accustomed to suffering. The pain is in letting go of the world. Most people can not understand this and I can understand their perspective because I've been there. To them, this is nothing more than someone needing a pat on the back or someone to talk to. It doesn't feel or seem in this case that that is an answer at all. It is just "depression" or "melancholy" or maybe even psychotic to most people.
Still, when I contemplate the song or rather when it starts to ring in my head, the images of it come through so vividly. Yes, I know, they say it's linked with psychosis to see vivid images. It is just something though that seems to increase awareness a hundred fold. Especially when trying to sleep.
"Of course I can see through the illusion because I'm not an idiot!", I said to myself in my head one night and that light came through so strong! Only for a moment though. How is it, in these peculiar moments of deep reflection and trying to poke at something, a feeling of (or is it really a sense?) love actually comes to me again. I don't know how to explain it. Part of it seems to be accepting the world as it is. People strangely don't want a relief from suffering.
"That's why you grow old, get sick and die because you are deprived of the one who could heal you." - Gospel of Thomas
Still, I don't know why the Gospel of Thomas and Mary have rung true to me. Funny that they're considered "heretical" by modern Christianity. Yet, they're also strangely the only ones that I looked at and searched before the others. I don't see that Scripture and other curious documents don't say the same thing though at their heart. Like a particular line of Hermes' works where he converses with Thoth (Thought) who tells Hermes that he can not enter into the Realm of God with his body.
"...when you look at your images which neither did die nor become visible, how much you will have to bear!" - Gospel of Thomas
There, it's in that. That is where a lot of personal, quiet suffering is coming from for me. When I first heard, "You can not enter into the Realm of God with your body", my immediate response is to be met with great sadness and despair. Why? It is a little tough to say. That doesn't sound like the typical spiritual idea though does it? It's as if you're beckoned to a land of pure infinitude that is not bound by any physical law. It doesn't sound as if you're just meant to float around the cosmos on an astral vehicle underneath your physical machine.
I didn't say or share exactly why me finding those screenshots of my name and Chester's name was significant though. For a time, I was having fun creating Magic Cards via an online site and one day I decided to think of my favorite spell in a game. "Galaxy Stop!" came to my mind. This spell is easily one of the coolest spells in Final Fantasy Tactics and is probably a lot of people's favorite. Especially the character who casts it since he appears only in this particular battle and is the only character capable of casting it.
Well, I had to do a google search of the image and that's when I suddenly had a feeling of something nudging me to "scroll back up". So I did and saw the name Chester on a Chemist (a job in the game in this particular battle) in a screenshot. My first reaction was just, "Okay, no big deal. Though it is a little funny to think of the rarity of the name and the odds of finding this.". Though as I scrolled back down I saw another screenshot with my name too.
Now, I know most people will say it doesn't mean anything and it is likely that I'm just seeing something that I want to see to give it significance. Fair enough. Except that there are a few more pecularities I didn't mention. First of all, it is that the astrological sign of each name is the Libra sign which stands for Justice. Second of all, the spell Galaxy Stop is synonymous with destiny and worldwide stillness. And just what are the odds of that? There are a large number of names which could've been picked out and an ever greater odd that the astrological sign wouldn't match either.
"Stillness is the Source." - Lao Tzu
What else? Well, it's that I had already imagined something before finding those images and thinking of Galaxy Stop. Before this, I should say I use my imagination to think of something fun or cool and one such thing I tend to imagine is video game settings/environments and placing yourself in them. What I had I imagined before was actually that I was a chemist on this particular map and with me was Chester, also a chemist. This is how I tend to cope with manic or violent thoughts.
So with that said, is it really just coincidence? I already hear lots of people asserting to me that it is. Fine. But the odds of all this lining up like this? I'm saying this at the risk of "sounding completely stupid", you know. I've kept it inside for a while because I know how it sounds. The idea that seems hard to convey here is predetermination.
Many will suggest that again this is just clever connection between things and doesn't have any meaning except what I'm making of it. Don't think I don't see that. I'm already aware of how that state of mind works and I've seen people in it.
In the case of Jungian psychology, synchronicity can be seen as something valid. In the world of modern science and psychology though, it is nothing more than psychotic imagination. They think because some persons seem lost in some maze of wonder that nothing good comes from this. That it is just fantastical thinking which bears no personal revelations which might lead to the transformation of individuals affected by it.
"Interestingly, it was the power of synchronicity to overwhelm the rational mind that held significance for Carl Jung (1875-1961), the Swiss psychiatrist who coined the term and brought the phenomenon to light. Jung recognized that synchronicity, which he defined as meaningful coincidence, had the effect of breaking through the “rationalistic shell” of the modern scientific mind. It is a form of coincidence powerful enough to shatter the notion that material science has discovered all there is to know about the universe. To the person having an experience of synchronicity, the realization dawns that a mysterious force is at play in the world—a kind of “cosmic clock” whose gears operate on a more subtle plane.
Modern science—based on the physical laws of cause and effect—measures and validates the relationship between cause and effect in the dimensions of time and space. What fascinated Jung about synchronicity was its acausal nature. He defined it as an “acausal relationship of events,” as there is no apparent explanation for the occurrence of two simultaneous events, one subjective and one objective. Further adding to the mystery, Jung noted that the occurrence has special meaning for the person who experiences it. This implies that unknown forces in our universe have the capacity to make visible, in the world of concrete form, the contents of the invisible realm of consciousness.
A classic illustration of synchronicity presented by Jung involved one of his patients, a woman with a highly developed rational mind— a fact that made her psychoanalytic treatment difficult. One day she was telling Jung about a dream she had had in which she received a golden scarab, a beetle with significance in Egyptian mythology. Just at that moment, Jung reported, he heard a noise “like a gentle tapping” on his window. When he opened the window, a scarab-like beetle flew in. Jung caught the beetle and presented it to his patient saying, “Here’s your scarab.” The stunning impact of this synchronicity overwhelmed the defenses of her rational mind and led to a breakthrough in her treatment."
Taken from: http://whenthesoulawakens.org/synchronicity-and-the-soul_288.html
What's funny about this is, that is it was actually the womans highly developed rational mind that was a hindrance to treating her. So events that seem to line up for the individual, certainly seem to beckon an awakening to the affected persons. They momentarily steal away the rational mind and open the senses to the idea that life is not some temporal field where we live to only to die. That there is more to this life than eating, sleeping, and waiting for the day to be buried.
Did that explain enough? Was it even an explanation at all? Just a bunch of disjointed subjects thrown together in something that shouldn't be considered an article? I get it. I do. Though at the same time, I threaten to want to question the world and what it wants and in return all I get is silence. If I press this too much, I'm just acting obsessed and sickly. It isn't because I want to press buttons! I just want them to tell me, because I'd really like to know!
Some melancholy music lyrics.
I'm kicking that stone
down your street alone
And the walls
Criticize where I have gone
I'm throwing that stone
Through your open door
And the halls seem to tell me
I am wrong
Nobody's home and I feel lost inside
There's a clock counting down what's left of time
When you're alone it's easy to hesitate
Like a girl listening to her heart break
I'm taking the long way Home
Where everything's overgrown
Just like the boy trying to give it away
I regret tomorrow...
ATB - Long Way Home
The comfort in a broken heart
Now palette shades
An image after life
One by one
I see the judgment in your eyes
I'm always in the wrong
And now the numbness wearing off
Can't stand the pain
Need to be patient while perfecting
That's the sign
It's always better down the line
I'm in the wrong and I've done it all before
And I know it's just a dream
Now I'm blind, I can't open my eyes
Also, there was a lot more I wanted to say but it all didn't come out. More about cancer and its treatments and how it makes people who are diagnosed with terminal cancer feel - or cancer that has spread.
More to say about attachment to suffering is just that well - why do you think I know what it is?
The greatest gift could be given to you, but you're still free not to take it. Or could it be that you're just being played by the hands of fate?
The MRI - The Black Hole - Anxiety and Pressure
Recently, I had to go to the ER for stomach pain and constipation. However, the worst part was actually the MRI. Even though it was my second time using the machine, I felt a great deal of anxiety after the first "breath holding" session. There's a lot to explain why this is, but I'd like to discuss a possible solution more than beat on the surrounding complications.
Edit note: I went from the ER and was transferred to the hospital when they found a tumor on each kidney after a CT scan. Also, I seemed to beat on the complications a lot more than I thought I would!
For one, the lady conducting the test (bless her heart) was quite rude. Her attitude and lack of confidence in my ability to complete the test heightened my anxiety and racing mind. She actually asked me my nationality and even tried to suggest that I was "too old to be having this problem.". There was more that was said, but for the most part this problem wasn't new to me.
Not to derail this a little further but not too long ago I had a wisdom tooth extracted. Even though I approached with confidence (and when you're in pain you almost don't care what anyone does to relieve it!) at some point, racing thoughts hit me like a truck and I began to shake my legs while keeping my upper body still.
Now, the difference between these two experiences is in part of the treatment from the persons performing the procedure. In the case of the extraction, even though I was nervous, I felt somewhat comforted with the assistant who kept saying, "You're doing great!". This is far more relieving to hear and even though it doesn't directly attack the source, it makes dealing with it much easier.
The Black Hole (MRI) though is a problem for many people. Some are comforted to just take a sedative so they can relax. I was not intent on doing this and didn't think I would need to so didn't ask for it. What happened though was something like performance anxiety (not the sexual problem!) because of the intensity of wanting to complete the test without fail.
The technician was putting a lot of pressure on me to complete the test and kept hounding me with how important it was for a proper diagnosis. To clarify, what they're looking at are tumors on my kidneys and cysts on my liver. Already, I realize the severity of needing the test done and honestly didn't feel like it shouldn't have kept on being thrown in my face as if I were unaware. Yet, the technician and doctors just wouldn't stop with their somber and serious attitudes about it.
Is that to say that I don't care if I have cancer or not? It isn't that. Most assume because of the way I carry myself on the surface that I don't care. It's just that treating the issue with seriousness doesn't help anything in any way. I'm not one for theatrics or overwhelming displays of emotion; not because I think they're bad, but because it just isn't rational on any level. If stress is a killer then why create an atmosphere so heavy about it? Does that sound cold or indifferent? I think it's worse to make me feel like I HAVE to act serious. I'd rather carry myself as light-heartedly as possible to avoid racking stress up.
Now, did I not have an emotional reaction when I first was told there was possibly cancer to worry about? I did actually, but preferred not to show it. It isn't because I was "taught it was bad" or that "men shouldn't cry". I prefer to cry in silence and in moments of reflection. Personally, I think this is more noble. Sometimes people cry in front of others only as a display of some sort. Again, I'm not trying to sound like a cold jackass here. It doesn't mean that if the situation is severe I don't ever cry publically. Nor do I think that a person crying publically is doing it as a display. In fact, one of the persons who came into the ER after midnight was crying and that I saw as genuine. Bah, that's a whole 'nother topic! Forget that for now.
The issue here to talk about was "pressure". I felt pressured from everyone in the ER just about; from doctors to even my own family members. I didn't complete the MRI and was saying that I would finish it at a time when I felt more stable. The lack of sleep and surrounding atmosphere just felt way too heavy and somber. With all kinds of decisions and factors for deciding what to decide, my anxiety started to pile up high.
What was it I was deciding on? There was only about 10 minutes left of the MRI to do before I bailed from intense anxiety. My heart felt like it would burst right out of my chest at some point and when I went back in for the last part (with the contrast to be streamed through the I.V.) my blood went cold before the contrast was even used and I called it.
What was really racking the anxiety up was the fact that there was little time in between holding breaths (for roughly 15-25 seconds) before you would have to hold your breath again. At first it didn't seem so bad to just hold your breath and keep still. However, the time in between holding breaths felt like less than 2 seconds! I hardly had a chance to catch my breath! Once the second round of breath holding began, already I started to panic because the first breath holding session felt longer than 20 seconds. When you hold your breath that long it can sometimes get to you if you're not stable. After about roughly 16 seconds maybe, then I started to "feel like I need to breath" and would struggle to stay still.
Immediately in this situation racing thoughts started attacking me and destroying my ability to focus. Probably the lack of sleep was effecting me too. Pressure was still an issue here too since I couldn't stop thinking about how I'm "failing the test". And when the technician questions you and asks you if you, "know how to hold breath", it sort of defeats your confidence or it might just piss you off. Anxiety was worse because I felt the need to explain myself which was frustrating because it was clear I wasn't being listened to.
Okay, but without having to say too much more about the whole process of the procedure and the racing thoughts, it is more important to realize a solution. Confidence I think is key! Otherwise, most feel as though sedatives are all they need. Personally, I don't get claustrophobic at all, but the reality of it did set in as my anxiety got worse. That was not the source of the issue though, I realized that (and no one can tell me how I feel - that is so utterly annoying and stupid...).
So how can you be confident in this situation? For me, I did not like the way I was being treated like a child or baby needing to have his hand held through everything. Even relatives "helping" with pushing the I.V. machine so I could go to the loo was even killing my sense of confidence. I don't think this kind of behavior is at all productive or helpful. It's far more harmful since it takes away your sense of power and confidence to "do it yourself" which is really the only way it gets done anyway.
Whoa! Still I'm saying a lot. Well, what can I say ? It was eventful. Solution? Play! How? In my first run with the machine (which was so many years ago that I forgot when it was) admittedly I was still a little anxious and struggled to hold my breath for as long as was needed, but still managed to get by without feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I was confident that all I had to do was challenge myself to do it better. Then it becomes more of a play where you know it isn't something you're afraid of and rather something you're welcoming to get better at.
There that is at least part of a solution which could work for many. I realize anxiety and racing thoughts are not very easy to overcome when you're caught in the moment and feeling oddly attacked by them from all directions. Still, it is possible to overcome! There must be some kind of confidence in the triumph and your sweet victory which will turn the Black Hole into a playground where you know you can't be harmed.
That I think was part of the reason I succeeded with my fight against the Black Hole in the first round. I was quite confident that it wasn't an issue of time and waiting for the test to be done. Instead it a was a test which you would reward yourself with nothing but the challenge to do a good job. In general, I always liked to approach subjects like this no matter what it is. Learning and triumph should be fun, not a burden. You know what they say too, "Time flies when you're having fun.". Indeed, the MRI should be much smoother if you approach it that way.
As a general note about MRIs, you should definitely consider asking for medication prior to the procedure to help ease you through it. They can even put you to sleep if you prefer (though the technician made it sound unpleasant by calling it invasive - thanks for the unneccesary anxiety and stress!). Also, it was only brought to my attention (after reading about it on the internet) afterwards that you can actually have the technician ask you if you're ready to do another breath holding session. That would've been nice to know and would've eased my anxiety and stress 100-fold! Studies even show that this in particular helps improve the results from the test than otherwise. Well, no freaking duh? You're the patient who needs CARE not TORTURE from a stupid machine...
Then, I want to get into a rant about health care and its procedures/medicines/tools in general as being totally uninnovative. The concern should always be maximum comfort for the patient. So many tools and machines however require some level of pain, discomfort, or invasiveness. This to me is just totally unnatural and beyond stupid. I had to have a rant to the family that people shouldn't be needing this much damn health care in the first place. They just don't place their health and well-being first before entertainment. Why should they anyway? The ER will fix you up right? Well, it can't always you know?
That's a rant for another day and time though I suppose. Unfortunately, my pleas go unheard and they're not just because I found the experience unpleasant, but because I become aware that there others for whom these things are probably so much worse than unpleasant. It's a serious problem for some that it can trigger you quite negatively and distort your view of the world and trust with it. My shattered sense of trust seemed to have started long ago with "doctors" and "nurses" at the age of 7, but again that's a whole 'nother story!
Another thing to say here is that the patient and technician relation should be warm and assuring. The technician should always try to make the patient feel like they're okay and not in danger. I mean, good heavens, you're the patient! This really shouldn't feel like torture. You should feel comfortable enough to laugh and not feeling under the pressure of "this HAS to be done". If the idiots would realize this then it wouldn't become a problem or would be much less of a problem.
On the subject of stress and pressure, after I began to contemplate going home so I can feel comfortable and get some rest on a decent bed, I was being bombarded (it felt like that) with everyone's suggestions of doing or not doing it. My whole reason was - I wasn't really being listened to either... - that I don't feel stable and would feel stable when I could go home to rest. After that I would feel more capable and centered to finish the MRI at another time.
It became such an ordeal that my blood pressure went up and my arm started hurting. Isn't that beyond stupid? I shouldn't feel like that in a damn hospital. I mean shit, if the cancer won't kill you then the stress of everyone's lack of concern for your mental state leading to a heart attack just might! Great!
At some point, the pressure of deciding and being given so many problems and even being treated as if I wouldn't return and would "die" from refusing treatment was adding to my stress so much! At that point I started to feel a little surreal. I could no longer feel like anyone around me was even talking or that I could hear them. It is a little hard to explain but my state of mind was shifting negatively quickly from the pressure of everyone putting the burden on me and trying to tell me what I should feel. As if I don't know my state of mind ! They can't "see" it so how dare they try to tell me to just "do it". I asserted myself stating that I would really feel better when I got home. I really do intend on finishing the test and treating me as if I wouldn't was harmful and not helpful to me at all.
Imagination is helpful to me here too. Whenever I got home, the first thing I did was kick on some music and imagine. Already, my anxiety started to lessen and my mood shifted to feeling positive again. Probably helps if you listen to something uplifting and triumphant with drums rolling, trumpets to gain a feeling of battle and the feeling of overcoming the odds. Imagining yourself as maybe a handsome knight or powerful wizard destroying some monstrous entity (which is a metaphor for the anxiety of whatever it is your facing) really helps gain some confidence. I don't care if people think, "It's a fleeting thing so why bother?". Well, it's more helpful than words I'll tell you that. At a time when a powerful benzo like Ativan no longer started working for me, I had to use it to combat anxiety and it's far more beneficial in the long run than benzos ever were.
Spiritual Body - Interspaces - Imperceptible to Ordinary Senses
"Ordinarily, said the Invisibles, this goes on unconsciously, and more or less inefficiently. We are self-contained. We are encrusted in a hard shell. A certain flow through us persists in spite of this. Otherwise we should not be alive at all. But too often it is the barest trickle: no more than sufficient to carry on painfully a slow progress and a torpid existence.
In the green stage of unripeness little can be done to alter these natural processes. But there comes a time, to everyone, when we can, if we will, take conscious and intelligent direction. Then these heretofore automatic processes will function not only better and more quickly, but less painfully. In The Betty Book I set down the philosophy and technique of how this can be done. It is unnecessary here to repeat more than basic principles. I will state them as briefly as possible.
One of these is that each of us occupies not only the physical body we see, but a second or spiritual body. This latter will continue to contain us after physical death. Though imperceptible to our ordinary senses, the spiritual body is no vague wraith of insubstantial shadow. It is perfectly real, made of definite substance, and will function in a world that corresponds to it. That world also is of definite substance. Indeed so far from the fuzzy or ghostlike is this world that, in one sense, its matter is even more substantial than that of the physical universe, for it interpenetrates--fills the interspaces--of the latter. In it the realities of consciousness will have more vivid scope than we know in our present phase. Through it the vital force of the universe acts more powerfully and directly than with us.
But--and here is the important point--that world is not separated from ours by a hard and fast iron wall of time. We can, in certain ways, begin to function in it now. Indeed at the time of ripeness that is what we must do if we are to continue efficient and developing. If we gain consciously and keep continuously our contact with it, our reservoirs will draw from unfailing abundance. The difference between that and our ordinary state would be the difference between power line and a storage battery.
In doing this our final aim is to develop a definite, close-knit core of self, in which we can have confidence as an indestructible unit. For only in this way can we be assured of a permanent nucleus of individuality which will hold securely together in the strain of life--and death." - Across the Unknown
Contentment requires knowing, knowing requires input, input requires mind, mind requires awareness, awareness requires presence, presence requires sensation/feeling
Feelings, sensations that you thought was dead - Gorillaz, Clint Eastwood
"What do you suppose your senses were given you for apart to keep you from falling down? ... 'You' are in your body..." - Across the Unknown
"Knowing constancy is insight." - Lao Tzu
"Man has such a predilection for systems and abstract deductions that he is ready to distort the truth intentionally, he is ready to deny the evidence of his senses only to justify his logic." - Fyodor Dovstoevsky
It is not a dream
If it were a dream, then it was, but now it isn't. That's logic!
Interpreting - Additional Excerpt from "Go Ask Alice" Added in because I can't add anymore content for some reason
I just opened up "randomly" to this page of Go Ask Alice and found this. I've never read the book, but picked it up from somewhere in this house and set it down on top of my computer. It was just today that I discovered this bit and was a littled overjoyed to see it.
Page 138 of "Go Ask Alice"
This morning I looked out the window and saw new green popping through the soil and I started crying uncontrollably again. I don't really understand the resurrection. I can't even conceive how Gramps' body which will decay and sour and mold and mildew and fall into crumbling little bits can ever come back together again. But I can't understand how a brown dried-up, shriveled little gladiola bulb can reblossom either. I guess that God can put atoms and molecules and bodies together again if a gladiola bulb without even a brain can do it. This really makes me feel a lot better, and I don't know how I could ever expect to understand death when I can't even understand television or electricity, or even stereo for that matter. In fact I understand so little I don't know how I even exist.
I once read somewhere that man uses less than a tenth (I think) of his brain capacity. Imagine having 90 percent more thinking ability, and using every bit of it. That would be simply glorious! Imagine what a perfectly marvelous planet this would be if minds were 90 times more efficient than they are now?"
When I am no longer threatened under the restlessness of any sort of vice, I find myself more calm and self-centered. The mind becomes naturally quiet and doesn't desire to make noise for the fun of it. It is not scary. That is the significance of a sublime state of mind.
Virtue I see then, is just a state of mind. It is much less, or really not at all, to do with the actions, but the state of mind that the actions bring.
No to say it is "just" a state of mind, makes it sound insignificant. That wasn't meant to come out like that.
It is what Otto Weininger refers to when he talks about morality being an expression of who you are. And what Lao Tzu refers to with this quote:
"Of all that is good, sublimity is supreme. Succeeding is the coming together of all that is beautiful. Furtherance is the agreement of all that is just. Perseverance is the foundation of all actions."
Sublimity is to be passive and in a state of awe and a greater state of awareness/presence. Succeeding means that those within this state come together. Unity? Furtherance is when everything is in agreement, that it finally decides to come together - Justice. Perseverance means steady persistance in a course of action, or a purpose despite the difficulties and obstacles that discouraged it. Then the foundation of all the actions was just to fulfill this purpose.
"Great indeed is the sublimity of the Creative, to which all beings owe their beginning and which permeates all Heaven." - Lao Tzu
Let me just say, that I am no buddhist or taoist. Okay? I understand a lot of the suffering that goes on in the world... all the time. However, these quotes seem to imply that there is indeed a desired end for Earth. I know it sounds terrible doesn't it? But if you're going to play around with the idea such as "purpose" then you need to take care in listening to its meaning.
If you ask me. This is the true "law of attraction". That all in the Universe is magnetically contained and the coming together of all that is beautiful seeks to move towards this Unification.
"The beautiful things are put in the world to help you."
With that statement is the very curious part, "put in the world.". Again, where do you suppose a flower comes from? Why should it form in the way it does? How? That is the big one isn't it? How?
They say that, in the womb, it is the mother's heartbeat that helps to grow the child. Or something to that effect.
What curious thing it is too, to call Earth, "Mother" Earth.
"We must accept that this creative pulse within us is God's creative pulse itself." - Joseph C Pearce
"You can't pulse yourself, you mustn't think you can pulse yourself!" - Betty White
There I think is part of the mystery behind some manic behavior. What do I mean? I mean when someone is doing something that doesn't accord with Natural tendencies they're acting out a sort of psychic outpouring. In this occurance is something that seeks to do something like draw, write,... any form of expression. The person feels compelled to do these things. Sometimes the expressions are beautiful or they're dark/nonsensical. However, even something nonsensical is saying something still, don't you think?
Edit: Whoops, I don't mean to tie in dark with nonsensical. Dark things can still be beautiful. Depressing things I guess is what I'm thinking of. Or things that reflect on human nature in a somewhat depressing tone.
But what do I mean by not in accordance with Natural tendencies? Anything that is not expressive of Nature's law. Nature is harmonious and beautiful. When there is harmony then there is health, happiness, and right living.
Maybe there is more to say than that, but for now I leave it at that.
Also, let me say that this is not meant to be mystifying.
Edit: Other definitions for sublime include that it is something exalted, elevated, or lofty in thought.
"It is not the Way that exalts the Man, but the Man who exalts the Way." - Confucius
"Men imagine that they communicate virtue or vice only by overt actions and do not see that virtue or vice emit a breath every moment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
There's more to say about "balance" here. Though I hate to point out the obvious sometimes. Or rather, what seems to be obvious to me.
Oh right, let me define my definition of self-centered. I mean everything feels centered or focused. Not the definition which means solely interested in yourself.
There was something undifferentiated and yet complete, which existed before Heaven and Earth. Soundless and formless, it depends on nothing and does not change. It operates everywhere and is free from danger. It may be considered the mother of the universe. I do not know its name; I call it Tao. - Lao Tzu
He "calls" it Tao, but that is just a way to name it. That's all he's saying.
Dog Poop - Responsive Behavior - Reasonableness
Apparently, about 41% of dog owners don't pick up their poop. Guess what? I'm one of those owners. Now, what is your response to hearing this? Probably, there is a great deal of responsive negative thoughts being thrown my way for this already.
So what is the problem with that, you say? Well, guess what my response is to someone who smugly tells me to pick it up? I don't want to pick it up!
The reason I am writing this is because just today I went to take my dog out and my neighbor spotted me and "stopped" me by shouting at me. His aggressive tone was bordering on him becoming violent with me. Immediately my nerves are shot and I'm already being triggered into fight or flight mode. Should it really come to that?
So there is part of this problem: our responsive behavior. We can't discuss issues without someone thinking that it is more important to "be right" (and what a strange thing it is) rather than help increase our understanding of the issue. Reasonableness! For the love it!
I remained as calm as I could (on the surface) but the guy was actually saying he was going to kick my ass if I don't. It simply has never occurred to me that it was "wrong" not to pick it up. I realize that stepping in dog doody is problematic and not just "gross". There are indeed some health concerns that can affect another person if they touch it by mistake. Some children playing apparently have even become blind from falling into it.
But if not for me thinking more of being responsible and reasonable then I simply wouldn't even bother. There's the other side of this problem. You see? When you become "violent" with your point of view, the other person is apt to not want to listen to you. They will often want to do the opposite of what you're telling them. I only wish people would realize this.
Funny, that this guy was actually older than me. That is not at all reasonable behavior for an adult. In our society we have a perverse view that males are supposed to express themselves like this. A true father is wise, has good conduct, and is a good teacher as a result. They don't use "force". Language like that is part of why our society has not been producing stable, sound, peaceful, coexisting creatures.
If the guy had come out and asked politely now, would I have followed? Maybe, or maybe not? There's another issue. I think these issues start with how we teach each other in our everyday interactions. If it had been a commonly accepted practice in my family to pick it up, then it would just be that.
So will I pick it up? Yes, I'm even just a little "resentful" to have to submit to someone under that kind of aggressive behavior. But the issue is more important than that foul man's mouth. With that said, if you're possibly one of the 41% of dog owners who don't pick it up, make an effort. And... for the love of God, discuss the issues reasonably! I can't stress this enough.
Moreover, there are some good people out there who will pick it up "for" you. It shouldn't have to come to that. You would relieve someone of a burden that shouldn't become theirs. This is another problem with our society and its issues. Piece by piece, day by day, little by little, make the little things count and let's come together?
There is one thing I'd like to address and its the idea that dog poop is "toxic". Now, the thing I want to say is likely something that sounds too obvious that it is ill-received and regarded as "non-scientific" (because it isn't backed by lots of "studies" to "prove itself".). Well, what is it? It's that... if a dog's pop is "toxic" it isn't because of the dog, but because of their diet.
Seems too fucking obvious though so it gets ignored and is violently attacked. Animals are taking craps all the time on Earth and have been since its conception.
Yes, I know... most people don't like to hear this because they think it dismantles or perhaps that it is against the theory of "Climate Change".
Poop and diet are just obvious though. Not to sound gross, but as an example, when my grandma goes to the bathroom, there is a very horrid smell she leaves behind. Most people think this kind of thing is funny and maybe it can be, but at its heart it is a serious health issue.
The thing to note here (and hey this IS Scientific, because - guess what [gasp] - it is based on observation and is formed on a hypothesis) is that our grandma will eat just about anything and everything without much regard. No kidding. It does not even matter that the food has been sitting out or it belonged to someone else. She also has a problem with her digestion and heart which she just recently went to the hospital for.
So if there is a problem with the environment it really is our choices that are to blame. In my family though, health is something that can be taken for granted because it is all up to the good ol' doctors to fix us up anyway. And it is apparently only up to them to tell us what we need to do to keep our health in check.
"Education happens everywhere and all the time." but people don't realize this.
I just want to add that my poopies tend not to smell, in case anyone wants to bark at me. [blush]
Oh, and ever heard of "beer sh*ts"? Those smell really bad. As if that weren't evidence enough of what you put in is important to health.
Socrates also noted that if you don't regard what people are eating, then how could you know disease?
"What goes around comes around." - Now this is taken out of context if you ask me. What? Why?
"I don't understand I did something good, but good things aren't happening for me."
"Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be, until you are what you ought to be. This is the interrelated structure of reality." - Martin Luther King Jr.
When people refuse to give, then who can ever get?
The clouds don't hide the Sun, they only encourage him to shine his light even stronger, but still can not completely shut it out from the sight of the world.
Greatness - Delusions of Grandeur?
I wrote this out in a document. Afraid to post this publicly elsewhere. Modern Psychiatry has a sort of safeguard against strong-minded, independent, and big thinkers and it's called a "grandiose delusion". This is somewhat two-sided.
If a person is struggling inwardly and is discontented with himself and his environment he's considered to be "unwell" rather than his environment and its practices which are what is actually unwell and contributes to his unwellness. Breaking free from this is not easy at all. Especially if you develop symptoms which are telling of a certain "disorder". That disorder of course being schizophrenia.
Now, just because a person goes around and believes something to be true that isn't and because they happen to overlap , does that mean that everyone who comes along with similar "symptoms" are indeed the same? This is the problem. How do you address thinking like this? All that occurs is that the persons become convinced by this and submit to this sorcery since it is too much of a burden to go against standard convention. By submitting, you find a sense of comfort (which probably deep down the person feels could be a lie) rather than continue to try and break free or pursue this desire.
---- The document:
It's just something that happens. You drop everything you're doing and you feel this need to do *something* but can't figure it out. It's a need or desire to do something great.
"It's called a grandiose delusion."
[eyebrows furrow] Wrong. It is a response to what has become of the world.
"Now there is an absurdity saying that harmony is discord or is composed of elements which are still in a state of discord.
For harmony is a symphony, and symphony is an agreement; but an agreement of disagreements while they disagree there cannot be; you cannot harmonize that which disagrees." - The Symposium
BETTY: I'm beginning to see the application. Suppose you get into that clanging factory, that awful place of discordant elements--that's the world of limited sight where you can't understand values--and get confused over issues. You are in this world and you cannot tell the greatest good from the present expediency: you can't distinguish the right thing to do. Instead of trying to fight through with your intellect, you retire to the higher consciousness and begin your inner generation. This produces a shaft of power and light which you can turn on your problem. Then you see clearly, and easily find your solution.
So, do I think this "light" that beckons is at all just a "hallucination"? Not at all.
"They don't think Plato is being literal when he says that knowledge leads to the light."
"We were once one but because of the wickedness of mankind God has dispersed us..." - The Symposium
"I don't think I can say this: I'll try.
As soon as I arrive at this superhappiness, this suspension, this equilibrium of health and happiness, it must return me to acute perception of the lack of it in the world. It rushes from its force into weakness, like the great physical law of the vacuum; it rushes to it. That explains the eagerness to help us of those who have acquired it over here. It is the basis of all true service...." - Betty White, Across the Unknown
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So tell me, do you really think this world should continue as it is?
"The superior man always thinks of virtue, the common man only of comfort." - Confucius
A comfort of a lie. A lie that if continued to be lived could really bite you in the ass later.
Just from where did it come?
Who can say for sure?
And why in all their days
Did they continue to assert
That they knew it all
Until another came along
Just to say you don't
Was it worth fighting for?
When after it all they faded
Stolen by a solemn silence
Of something so supreme
That neither their cursing
Nor their violent actions
No matter their want
Their ignorance of its presence
Could it ever curse them back